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theintegrity007
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Hi, I am new here.
I posted a video on you tube. That took some courage. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qfl1sf6MXrM
I had 6 up, but thought I sounded boring, I was getting upset just 'reliving' the incidents, but we are getting some TA here! I got some nasty email, took my first videos down, which had my face showing plain as day. And found it hard to talk to a video camera. Then I did it AGAIN, took that down, then changed you tube ID's, made a new account, then did my video AGAIN, with my little pink heart, instead of facing the camera.... It's a hard subject. Thinking of what I was going to say... so much to cover, I need to take one piece at a time, call it therapy! Let's face it, not a good movie maker, either.
Not to sound like some sort of victim, but we are talking about one thing after another, for years. It's been quiet, for years.
But I got to thinking, no, I don't want any future with this group. I dont approve of all the tech changes either. Tired of buying all new books, AGAIN.
threw EVERYTHING out. yeppers, everything.
I am shocked to see so many out. God knows how many?
I dont have TV since Feb 1990, (because of mountains and no cable, and then down here in Fl, I am not going to PAY for TV) - so miss the news, if it wasn't for the internet I wouldnt have seen sooooooooooo much about the church! I have been so isolated.
My x-scientologist (over 20 yrs) friend, that I just found again, told me about Marty Rathbun on TV, there's so much in the media now about the church - I said really???? So I googled it.
wow. Wow.
When I made my decision, it was hard, cause I still have some family in. But I wrote the church I quit, and my reasons, all in writing, knowing the declare is coming.
In my heart, I quit a few years ago. But kept the front up for the sake of my oldest and married kid. Still got a young one in school. It was hard - but I didnt just want to slink off - NOT to make anyone else wrong here. I wanted to make a clean break. Declare my stand point to the world, and church.
It is a long string of entheta experience in the church, not just towards me but family, and friends too.
I am tired of always having these things come up, like being screamed at in a restaurant, by some welling meaning, person whom called himself, a "scientologist", cause I didnt have money for bridge? Giving me lower conditions...sick of it.
When I made my decision, it felt like an onion peeling, like so many realities stuck over top of me.
I found out me was stronger, since I am perceiving all that junk, as not me...hehe.
I hope my kid will be alright.
I posted a video on you tube. That took some courage. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qfl1sf6MXrM
I had 6 up, but thought I sounded boring, I was getting upset just 'reliving' the incidents, but we are getting some TA here! I got some nasty email, took my first videos down, which had my face showing plain as day. And found it hard to talk to a video camera. Then I did it AGAIN, took that down, then changed you tube ID's, made a new account, then did my video AGAIN, with my little pink heart, instead of facing the camera.... It's a hard subject. Thinking of what I was going to say... so much to cover, I need to take one piece at a time, call it therapy! Let's face it, not a good movie maker, either.
Not to sound like some sort of victim, but we are talking about one thing after another, for years. It's been quiet, for years.
But I got to thinking, no, I don't want any future with this group. I dont approve of all the tech changes either. Tired of buying all new books, AGAIN.
threw EVERYTHING out. yeppers, everything.
I am shocked to see so many out. God knows how many?
I dont have TV since Feb 1990, (because of mountains and no cable, and then down here in Fl, I am not going to PAY for TV) - so miss the news, if it wasn't for the internet I wouldnt have seen sooooooooooo much about the church! I have been so isolated.
My x-scientologist (over 20 yrs) friend, that I just found again, told me about Marty Rathbun on TV, there's so much in the media now about the church - I said really???? So I googled it.
wow. Wow.
When I made my decision, it was hard, cause I still have some family in. But I wrote the church I quit, and my reasons, all in writing, knowing the declare is coming.
In my heart, I quit a few years ago. But kept the front up for the sake of my oldest and married kid. Still got a young one in school. It was hard - but I didnt just want to slink off - NOT to make anyone else wrong here. I wanted to make a clean break. Declare my stand point to the world, and church.
It is a long string of entheta experience in the church, not just towards me but family, and friends too.
I am tired of always having these things come up, like being screamed at in a restaurant, by some welling meaning, person whom called himself, a "scientologist", cause I didnt have money for bridge? Giving me lower conditions...sick of it.
When I made my decision, it felt like an onion peeling, like so many realities stuck over top of me.
I found out me was stronger, since I am perceiving all that junk, as not me...hehe.
I hope my kid will be alright.
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Glad you could make it!
to the board, Integrity007.
You are now no longer 'isolated' you now have a whole bunch of exes as new friends! 
