Btw, are there any other gay people people on this forum??
Yep. Me.
Being gay was quite an issue for me when I got into scn. I was torn between my own homosexual feelings and my desire to simply "fit in" and be like "normal" people.
The first 5 years of my 10 year stint on scn staff I bought the line "Homosexuality is an aberration which can be handled through auditing" so I abstained and even had a girlfriend. Gradually though, the urges would be too much to ignore and I ended up being dumped, kicked off my post and eventually offloaded.
I was later begged to rejoin staff. Being a masochist I agreed but this was conditional on getting (and paying for) some auditing which was a tailor-made program designed to help me handle the gay issue. Somewhat ironically and hilariously, the result of this auditing action was that I became utterly certain that i was gay; it really helped me come to terms with it in my own mind and stop fighting it. My auditor and I were delighted but others were less so. Nevertheless I was accepted back on staff provided i promised to behave myself. It wasn't long before I thought "fuck it I'm upstat, I'll do whatever I please on my own time and quote the 2d rules and policies on upstats in my defence". So I started visiting gay bars and generally having a good time exploring my new found freedom of expression.
I realized that once I stopped making it an issue, anyone else making an issue about it was THEIR PROBLEM. I even remember a sea org missionaire asking me that question in a metered interview about being a "practising homosexual" and replying "I'm not practising any more, I'm getting quite good at it!"
Anyway to cut a long story short: I'm now out of scn and out of the closet and I'm happy about both