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I saw good stuff happening
The reason I got into scientology is because I saw good stuff happening to people I knew. I had a brother in the Sea Org (he signed up for Sea Org in 1978 or so and he never said anything bad about CO$, and he wasn't crazy the few times I saw him -- seemed more sane in fact than some of my family outside Scn). My husband had migraine headaches that were cured -- I mean it, CURED -- by a single auditing session. My daughter was seriously depressed and some auditing really helped her. My husband had serious digestive problems until he did the purif, then he was healthy (w some other holistic medicine stuff too, admittedly). My husband quit smoking dope every day - flat out QUIT. My stepson got clean, completely off drugs of any kind. All because they were studying Scientology and using it in their lives. This is good stuff. Good stuff. What if that good stuff really could work for everybody?
Sure, I had seen the book Bare Faced Messiah - but had not read it. Lost interest. How could anything possibly be that big a con? That author must just have an axe to grind. I had heard of Lisa McPherson and read a little bit about it, too, and read the church's response - only fair to read their response, isn't it? They couldn't possibly ALL be lying, could they? And we are all big kids here, and we can figure things out for ourselves, can't we?? How could anything possibly be that big a con???
I also knew that when 99% of the human population believe one thing -- (for example, the earth is flat), the brave little 1% who believe some new thing (no -- the earth is Round and if we sail over here . . . etc. etc.) -- the brave little 1% may very probably be right. These paradigm shifts in belief have been observed over and over throughout human history. And will continue to be observed.
(Of course the brave new 1% could be completely nuts, but you don't know that 'til you study out the new paradigm and try it, do you?)
So Scientology is presenting itself as the new hope for mankind and presenting themselves as the brave little 1%. Okay, let's try it. And I had NOT gone to the internet to research Scientology in detail, and had no real reason to do that, given my family history. (Didn't hear about Xenu until I saw South Park. Whhhaaat?? Did those South Park guys make that shit up??!!?? They must have!! No wonder the guys at the org say the suppressives are out to get the Church of Sci! That is some nasty crazy story, that Xenu shit, to tell about My Church!!)
So I started going to the org, and being on course, mostly to be with my husband. I thought I'd try Scientology out too. I am always looking for the reason for life, how should we humans live, why is there evil in the world, why do I not have the self confidence I want to have, why do I sometimes feel so all alone, why does this lifelong nagging issue make me miserable, etc, etc. So I thought I'd try Scientology out too. I am the smart kid here, and I can figure things out for myself, can't I?? What could possibly go wrong?? Its just a church. Lots of people go to lots of churches.
Besides, how could anything that is so glossy and well presented, with this much structure and organization and glowing praise from so many people (look at it -- all the plaques and commendations from all the people and communities and mayors etc etc in What is Scientology? book) -- how could it possibly be a con?? Look at all the sincerity here on people's faces! Look at the weight of the paper in this glossy Impact magazine, at the high quality of this publication, at the packaging on these CDs! This is obviously the REAL THING! The Good Stuff!
And the people at the org are so NICE!! Wow are they NICE. These are good people -- no, these are GREAT people, and they really want to help! They are working for virtually NOTHING, just because they believe in something so strongly, and they are really nice! This is Good Stuff!!
And all the Division 6 stuff is really simple life skills stuff.. Communication. Fair Exchange. Make a graph. Use statistics to track your progress. Blah Blah Blah. Very organized study, clay demo-ing stuff til you really understand it. And the ethics - they want you to keep commitments, etc. This is a bad thing? No, its a good thing. Don't see bad stuff here.
And always the promise of go up the bridge, go up the bridge -- wow they made it seem like if you just go up this Bridge, you would be totally capable of handling anything!!! and all-powerful and rich !!! --and here are these very successful OT's in the local community and they were at all the events!! making big donations and were obviously very successful and happy with their happy families around them!!
How could this possibly be a con???
Now what the hell are these guys with masks doing in front of the building? What the hell are they afraid of that they have to wear masks? Everybody in here is really a nice person! What are they afraid of that they have to wear masks, and what do these signs mean about church of $$$ and Scientology breaks up families?? It's all just good families in here, having a party and playing loud music while those weird masked guys are outside with their signs.
Hmmm. What is going on here? The little oddities that you notice, the off observations and feelings that you note that you brush over, the Hey Wait -- what about. . .?? The course supervisor always responds with yet another reference to another book that RON wrote -- and you get caught up in more and more and more detail . . .and are nearly buried beneath a mountain of stuff that RON wrote and obviously he has an answer for everything and if you would just go up the Bridge and be on Course all the time you would become a Perfect Being. . . After all if you have ANY issue with what is taught, it is obviously only YOUR case, your past life problem, and certainly nothing is wrong with what RON did. Hmmmmm.
How very very gradual the introduction for a "public", for a WOG like myself. You learn very gradually not to question. You are indoctrinated very subtly. Everyone is so NICE. You write a success story! And there are nothing but success stories posted up on the wall!!! If you have a problem, or a question, it is only YOUR CASE. There is nothing wrong with the tech, only with YOU. You gradually realize that people are not discussing what is really going on in their lives -- that is only for "session". There is no analysis, no discussion, no opinion allowed in the course room, at the event, talking to the reg, etc, etc. Ron has all the answers. Any analysis, discussion, opinion only refers to some issue in YOUR CASE. RON has all the answers. Going up the bridge will solve ALL.
Several times I was told I was doing too much "Figure Figure". Not good to "Figure Figure" apparently. Not good to try to figure shit out. Wait a minute -- isn't that what Mr Hubbard was doing -- wasn't HE figuring shit out?
Like -- figuring out how to carry out the con of the century??
Had I not been so pressured for money I probably would still be in. That was the tipping point, the thing that made me say HEY.
What is going on here?
My graph of my net worth does not fit what RON says, in fact it is going the WRONG direction and these bastards are still breathing down my neck morning noon and night and "building ARC" relentlessly with me -- WHAT BULLSHIT -- "BEWARE a Scientologist bearing flowers. . . what they want is MONEY". . .I told the reg. . .
Then every odd little mismatch, all the inconsistencies fell into place with a giant CHA CHING. CHA CHING. And I started to investigate. Thank GOD for the INTERNET. And here I am.
The initial good stuff that brings them in the door - that brought me in the door - is what any person goes into any religion for.
If you are selling a new paradigm of belief, (Marty? Hi, nice to meet you. . .) you had better make sure the goddamn thing hangs together, is useful and make sense under close examination. And I Mean CLOSE EXAMINATION, Darlin'. Wow, like, you know, like what if all religions are just a Con. . . . .??? Like if you're gonna do a religion, its at least gotta be useful, and do good stuff for people??? For all the people in it??? Just a thought.
The reason I got into scientology is because I saw good stuff happening to people I knew. I had a brother in the Sea Org (he signed up for Sea Org in 1978 or so and he never said anything bad about CO$, and he wasn't crazy the few times I saw him -- seemed more sane in fact than some of my family outside Scn). My husband had migraine headaches that were cured -- I mean it, CURED -- by a single auditing session. My daughter was seriously depressed and some auditing really helped her. My husband had serious digestive problems until he did the purif, then he was healthy (w some other holistic medicine stuff too, admittedly). My husband quit smoking dope every day - flat out QUIT. My stepson got clean, completely off drugs of any kind. All because they were studying Scientology and using it in their lives. This is good stuff. Good stuff. What if that good stuff really could work for everybody?
Sure, I had seen the book Bare Faced Messiah - but had not read it. Lost interest. How could anything possibly be that big a con? That author must just have an axe to grind. I had heard of Lisa McPherson and read a little bit about it, too, and read the church's response - only fair to read their response, isn't it? They couldn't possibly ALL be lying, could they? And we are all big kids here, and we can figure things out for ourselves, can't we?? How could anything possibly be that big a con???
I also knew that when 99% of the human population believe one thing -- (for example, the earth is flat), the brave little 1% who believe some new thing (no -- the earth is Round and if we sail over here . . . etc. etc.) -- the brave little 1% may very probably be right. These paradigm shifts in belief have been observed over and over throughout human history. And will continue to be observed.
(Of course the brave new 1% could be completely nuts, but you don't know that 'til you study out the new paradigm and try it, do you?)
So Scientology is presenting itself as the new hope for mankind and presenting themselves as the brave little 1%. Okay, let's try it. And I had NOT gone to the internet to research Scientology in detail, and had no real reason to do that, given my family history. (Didn't hear about Xenu until I saw South Park. Whhhaaat?? Did those South Park guys make that shit up??!!?? They must have!! No wonder the guys at the org say the suppressives are out to get the Church of Sci! That is some nasty crazy story, that Xenu shit, to tell about My Church!!)
So I started going to the org, and being on course, mostly to be with my husband. I thought I'd try Scientology out too. I am always looking for the reason for life, how should we humans live, why is there evil in the world, why do I not have the self confidence I want to have, why do I sometimes feel so all alone, why does this lifelong nagging issue make me miserable, etc, etc. So I thought I'd try Scientology out too. I am the smart kid here, and I can figure things out for myself, can't I?? What could possibly go wrong?? Its just a church. Lots of people go to lots of churches.
Besides, how could anything that is so glossy and well presented, with this much structure and organization and glowing praise from so many people (look at it -- all the plaques and commendations from all the people and communities and mayors etc etc in What is Scientology? book) -- how could it possibly be a con?? Look at all the sincerity here on people's faces! Look at the weight of the paper in this glossy Impact magazine, at the high quality of this publication, at the packaging on these CDs! This is obviously the REAL THING! The Good Stuff!
And the people at the org are so NICE!! Wow are they NICE. These are good people -- no, these are GREAT people, and they really want to help! They are working for virtually NOTHING, just because they believe in something so strongly, and they are really nice! This is Good Stuff!!
And all the Division 6 stuff is really simple life skills stuff.. Communication. Fair Exchange. Make a graph. Use statistics to track your progress. Blah Blah Blah. Very organized study, clay demo-ing stuff til you really understand it. And the ethics - they want you to keep commitments, etc. This is a bad thing? No, its a good thing. Don't see bad stuff here.
And always the promise of go up the bridge, go up the bridge -- wow they made it seem like if you just go up this Bridge, you would be totally capable of handling anything!!! and all-powerful and rich !!! --and here are these very successful OT's in the local community and they were at all the events!! making big donations and were obviously very successful and happy with their happy families around them!!
How could this possibly be a con???
Now what the hell are these guys with masks doing in front of the building? What the hell are they afraid of that they have to wear masks? Everybody in here is really a nice person! What are they afraid of that they have to wear masks, and what do these signs mean about church of $$$ and Scientology breaks up families?? It's all just good families in here, having a party and playing loud music while those weird masked guys are outside with their signs.
Hmmm. What is going on here? The little oddities that you notice, the off observations and feelings that you note that you brush over, the Hey Wait -- what about. . .?? The course supervisor always responds with yet another reference to another book that RON wrote -- and you get caught up in more and more and more detail . . .and are nearly buried beneath a mountain of stuff that RON wrote and obviously he has an answer for everything and if you would just go up the Bridge and be on Course all the time you would become a Perfect Being. . . After all if you have ANY issue with what is taught, it is obviously only YOUR case, your past life problem, and certainly nothing is wrong with what RON did. Hmmmmm.
How very very gradual the introduction for a "public", for a WOG like myself. You learn very gradually not to question. You are indoctrinated very subtly. Everyone is so NICE. You write a success story! And there are nothing but success stories posted up on the wall!!! If you have a problem, or a question, it is only YOUR CASE. There is nothing wrong with the tech, only with YOU. You gradually realize that people are not discussing what is really going on in their lives -- that is only for "session". There is no analysis, no discussion, no opinion allowed in the course room, at the event, talking to the reg, etc, etc. Ron has all the answers. Any analysis, discussion, opinion only refers to some issue in YOUR CASE. RON has all the answers. Going up the bridge will solve ALL.
Several times I was told I was doing too much "Figure Figure". Not good to "Figure Figure" apparently. Not good to try to figure shit out. Wait a minute -- isn't that what Mr Hubbard was doing -- wasn't HE figuring shit out?
Like -- figuring out how to carry out the con of the century??
Had I not been so pressured for money I probably would still be in. That was the tipping point, the thing that made me say HEY.


Then every odd little mismatch, all the inconsistencies fell into place with a giant CHA CHING. CHA CHING. And I started to investigate. Thank GOD for the INTERNET. And here I am.

The initial good stuff that brings them in the door - that brought me in the door - is what any person goes into any religion for.
If you are selling a new paradigm of belief, (Marty? Hi, nice to meet you. . .) you had better make sure the goddamn thing hangs together, is useful and make sense under close examination. And I Mean CLOSE EXAMINATION, Darlin'. Wow, like, you know, like what if all religions are just a Con. . . . .??? Like if you're gonna do a religion, its at least gotta be useful, and do good stuff for people??? For all the people in it??? Just a thought.