XenusChild
Patron with Honors
Hi everyone. I've only been a member of the Church of Scientology for a couple months. In that short time, I've noticed a lot of things that I like, and a lot of things that I don't about Scientology. A lot of it makes sense to me, and most of the people at the Org are nice. However, the more I read about Scientology, and not just the pro stuff, the more I see that things aren't as they seem, especially the OT levels, and the fact that the Bridge to Total Freedom isn't even complete, so how can I have "Total Freedom"?
My main issue is the constant asking for more money. I don't make a lot of money, and am still in college too. Yet, they want me to sign up for all these services, the Basics, Basics courses, etc. So far, I've only done the BSM, PE, STCC, Life Repair, and am midway thru HQS. I've also paid for an annual IAS membership, all the Basics books, and two lectures so far (in addition to a bunch of DVDs and classic lectures). Now I'm being asked to get all the lectures (I told them I can't buy a package so I'd have to do it one by one, even if it costs more in the end), all the basics courses, and sign up for Purif/TRs and Objectives. This is a lot of money for me, especially since I'm also paying for school! I let them know that this is a lot of money for me, but they still ask for donations, and say that this is really more important than school, etc (and when I mention my career goals, they say that being an auditor would be much better/helpful).
I hated when I got sick during Life Repair, I had to do another PTS Handling, even though the weather was changing, I was out in the cold a lot, etc. Granted, I do think it makes sense that stress can exacerbate illness, but does this mean that every single time I get sick I'm connected to an SP?
I think I made a lot of stuff up during Life Repair whenever there was a read and I couldn't think of anything/no image "popped up"/etc.
I also signed up for staff (I was kinda coerced into doing so), but haven't started yet since I have a very busy schedule with school and work (plus Scn courses/services). They're trying to get me on as soon as possible, but I've kinda been resisting, luckily due to my schedule mostly.
So at this point, I feel like I just want to be done with Scientology. I did like it at the beginning, during BSM/PE/STCC, and I did get some things out of Life Repair, some of the books. But I just can't handle the constant asking for donations ("regging"?), especially when I'd like to pay off my debts, and pay for school. I don't like spending 3-4 days/week there when I'm already busy. And I know I can't do staff, and tried to get out of it, but they keep trying to get me to stay with it and eventually come on.
I'm assuming I'm not alone in feeling this way. How should I handle it? Should I just ignore all the phone calls/texts, delete/block Scientology Facebook friends, and that's it? I hope they wouldn't resort to showing up at my home (my parents would love that).
Any help is appreciated!
My main issue is the constant asking for more money. I don't make a lot of money, and am still in college too. Yet, they want me to sign up for all these services, the Basics, Basics courses, etc. So far, I've only done the BSM, PE, STCC, Life Repair, and am midway thru HQS. I've also paid for an annual IAS membership, all the Basics books, and two lectures so far (in addition to a bunch of DVDs and classic lectures). Now I'm being asked to get all the lectures (I told them I can't buy a package so I'd have to do it one by one, even if it costs more in the end), all the basics courses, and sign up for Purif/TRs and Objectives. This is a lot of money for me, especially since I'm also paying for school! I let them know that this is a lot of money for me, but they still ask for donations, and say that this is really more important than school, etc (and when I mention my career goals, they say that being an auditor would be much better/helpful).
I hated when I got sick during Life Repair, I had to do another PTS Handling, even though the weather was changing, I was out in the cold a lot, etc. Granted, I do think it makes sense that stress can exacerbate illness, but does this mean that every single time I get sick I'm connected to an SP?
I think I made a lot of stuff up during Life Repair whenever there was a read and I couldn't think of anything/no image "popped up"/etc.
I also signed up for staff (I was kinda coerced into doing so), but haven't started yet since I have a very busy schedule with school and work (plus Scn courses/services). They're trying to get me on as soon as possible, but I've kinda been resisting, luckily due to my schedule mostly.
So at this point, I feel like I just want to be done with Scientology. I did like it at the beginning, during BSM/PE/STCC, and I did get some things out of Life Repair, some of the books. But I just can't handle the constant asking for donations ("regging"?), especially when I'd like to pay off my debts, and pay for school. I don't like spending 3-4 days/week there when I'm already busy. And I know I can't do staff, and tried to get out of it, but they keep trying to get me to stay with it and eventually come on.
I'm assuming I'm not alone in feeling this way. How should I handle it? Should I just ignore all the phone calls/texts, delete/block Scientology Facebook friends, and that's it? I hope they wouldn't resort to showing up at my home (my parents would love that).
Any help is appreciated!