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OK, I was just doing my quick check-in, but ended up posting on an idiotic thread defending Hubbard, and I just got so many likes while I was reading other stuff that it brought a smile to my face (Yeah, I no longer HUNGER for stats, so I didn't count, but I gotta admit it was nice that folks liked what I wrote--and the OP probably got almost none of that 'sweet love' lol).
The thing is... I just sort of fell in love with this place all over again posting in that reply and seeing a newbie who had just come out. I mean... when I first came out, and was freaking terrified, and OSA still had claws, I spent endless hours on this site. When I was homeless, I read at the library. When I had no computer, my first posts on Chicken Joe were done from a freaking wii where I aimed the wiimote at individual letters.
When I first posted, my cult counselor was a bit afraid for me, because he had witnessed the stuff OSA had pulled. I cringe when folks laugh at people who have been afraid of OSA, but I figure they don't have any idea what stuff the cult once perpetrated. They are weak, but I still think that they have enough folk that if they target someone specifically... it wouldn't be pretty. Luckily, we have so many in the opposition camp, if they contact said camp, OSA will probably fry. Yeah... not really worried for Leah Remini.
This place probably helped save my life. Seriously. And, it oddly recalls the IAS events where folks were asked to raise their hands if they felt Scientology saved their life, and damn if every hand didn't fly up. I know they believed it. Maybe, in a way, it did... but, it also enslaved every one of them from what I saw.
Thanks Emma. I found OCMB, but could never get approved. I emailed a bunch of exes, and never heard back. I wound up here and was able to post almost immediately--a lot of it probably completely incoherent, and over the years, on stupid days I made posts that I would have love to take back when I was just totally hormonal or in a bad mood...(kinda hate that expiration thing on deleting posts, but understand) ---yeah, I just kind of bummed at the WTF hits I got, but just had to go... yep, had a bad day. Although, to be fair, there are some WTF posts that I stand behind that I KNEW would get that reaction, and I was dang glad I was no longer it the cult and would only get WTFs and not a Comm Ev