I dont know if anyone will care but I just wanted to say that for a long time I've been sort of confused about Scientology. I was sort of done with it and disliked it but I still wasnt over it, but lately I think I'm pretty over it. I never thought I would be at this point.
I can't believe I used to believe in this bullshit for no reason. It feels so good to be able to think for myself again and not feel these constraints that the religion creates. I dropped so many friends and changed so many things because of Scientology and I feel like an idiot about it now. People I had so much fun with and liked, and as soon as I got into Scientology, I decided they were SPs or low toned or whatever, and didnt feel comfortable around them anymore. I am so irriated about this. So irritated about all the wasted time, energy, money in auditing, how I stalled a few years of my life thinking it would fix things and it was the answer when all it is is some kind of weird mental bullshit that people think is the answer.
I can't believe I used to justify all their actions. The things they do to people, their attitudes, the way they behave, I used to justify all of it. Ridiculous. It feels so nice to think for myself and not think in extremes like I did with Scientology. I feel like myself again.
I dont know what the fuck is up with Scientology but it's not the answer and I'm so glad I've realized that.
They really creep/freak me out now. Im so happy to have back my hobbies and everything.
Ugh and I hate how because of them I decided the news was pointless, that school was pointless, that all these things just didnt matter when THEY DO. A LOT. Ive missed out on so much. I used to think that because I still had interest in it, it was becuase it was correct, but I realize now I just have interest in it because it's so messed up, like how I have interest in anything that's really crazy and hard to believe.
Life is complex and I really doubt one dude was able to figure out every single thing in his lifetime and know everything and have all the answers. People should learn to think for themselves more.
Anyway thats all I had to say.
I can't believe I used to believe in this bullshit for no reason. It feels so good to be able to think for myself again and not feel these constraints that the religion creates. I dropped so many friends and changed so many things because of Scientology and I feel like an idiot about it now. People I had so much fun with and liked, and as soon as I got into Scientology, I decided they were SPs or low toned or whatever, and didnt feel comfortable around them anymore. I am so irriated about this. So irritated about all the wasted time, energy, money in auditing, how I stalled a few years of my life thinking it would fix things and it was the answer when all it is is some kind of weird mental bullshit that people think is the answer.
I can't believe I used to justify all their actions. The things they do to people, their attitudes, the way they behave, I used to justify all of it. Ridiculous. It feels so nice to think for myself and not think in extremes like I did with Scientology. I feel like myself again.
I dont know what the fuck is up with Scientology but it's not the answer and I'm so glad I've realized that.
They really creep/freak me out now. Im so happy to have back my hobbies and everything.
Ugh and I hate how because of them I decided the news was pointless, that school was pointless, that all these things just didnt matter when THEY DO. A LOT. Ive missed out on so much. I used to think that because I still had interest in it, it was becuase it was correct, but I realize now I just have interest in it because it's so messed up, like how I have interest in anything that's really crazy and hard to believe.
Life is complex and I really doubt one dude was able to figure out every single thing in his lifetime and know everything and have all the answers. People should learn to think for themselves more.
Anyway thats all I had to say.