Patron with Honors
Thanks so much for writing that.
I think your story is full of reality and in fact many others out there will identify with it. I was young when I joined and I remember that unique comradeship and excitement at 'helping save the planet'. I also remember the dashed hopes and the disappointment when it finally hits home that all is not as we thought.
The loss of innocence and the exploitation of the young is horrendous to me now.
I don't think you should be ashamed of those dreams, it was an (apparently) noble purpose. Just the wrong vehicle.
And your thread title is great!
Thank you. It means a lot to hear that. I can't believe what a great community this is.
And I totally forgot to mention that at 6'6" I still totally stand tall.