afaceinthecrowd
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Thanks for the link Div 6.
After reading all Face had to say I believed it was a suicide.
Monica knew him well too and also says it was a suicide.
Monica knew Q better than I did.

Thanks for the link Div 6.
After reading all Face had to say I believed it was a suicide.
Monica knew him well too and also says it was a suicide.

ahem...
it's very clear you have little understanding of my nature or my writing on this board
i want you to pay very close attention to my next post on this thread
it's just for you; you're the one who pushed me to it
i'm in the library and cycling through the 15 min express computers so it might take two posts to complete it. you'll know it's finished because i'm going to sign it
when you see it's finished you just smack down on the reply with quote button and UNLOAD on it and it's author just as HARD as you can because you should truly be able to have the proverbial field day with it
but...
the usual avenues of publication were not open to me
so...
i used a shall we say parascientific route
grounding it in but a single fizz U occurence in the ER of UW hosp in seattle at about 2:00AM in early sept of 2007 to establish a comm line and define it's parameters, i passed on my findings on an "OT" level
in september of 2010 MGH in boston announced they had found exactly what my findings predicted could be found exactly where my findings predicted it could be found producing exactly the result my findings predicted, a major beakthrough in early detection of cancer
no...
they never heard of me or my research
no...
i get no accolades or grants
i wanted two things...
time is up again, almost done, back soon
no...
you won't believe this and i wouldn't ask it of anyone
i just wanna punch up jim croce's number on the jukebox and "wave my diamond pinky ring under evvabody's nose"
especially freebeing's
in the sprig of 2006 my best friend died of cancer. i've written up a brief account on this board before telling also how my auditor training served him so very well.
he died at home and his wife, his son who was just then graduating with honors from a top college, his sister from back east and i gave him 24/7 TLC and it was like you know intense
what i didn't write before was it gave me an opportunity to do some cancer research. i am well versed in scientific method which was strenuously applied
times up, back soon
but...
the usual avenues of publication were not open to me
so...
i used a shall we say parascientific route
grounding it in but a single fizz U occurence in the ER of UW hosp in seattle at about 2:00AM in early sept of 2007 to establish a comm line and define it's parameters, i passed on my findings on an "OT" level
in september of 2010 MGH in boston announced they had found exactly what my findings predicted could be found exactly where my findings predicted it could be found producing exactly the result my findings predicted, a major beakthrough in early detection of cancer
no...
they never heard of me or my research
no...
i get no accolades or grants
i wanted two things...
time is up again, almost done, back soon
OT powers and early cancer detection with no laboratory or proof.



I feel for your friend, which is more than you can do for Lisa McPherson. SHIT HAPPENS
people who say "who gives a fuck" tend to come up short on close friends don't they FB
(signed)
william birdwood
you're a writer and should recognize this literary device. i set up my crocodile tears for FB with a humorous example of flawed reading comprehension skills. thalia paired with melpomene you know
about your crocodile tears. They don't work and it's hilarious you admit to using them as a matter of influence.
So much for the scio 'handling' smear. 
Well, it'd be a little difficult to elect her to Congress, given that she's a Brit.
(Unless you have dual citizenship, Smilla ... ?)
TG1
hey GB!
i'm here, not there. CoS abuses suck massively. i love arnie's work. i'm impressed with his seamless personal integrity. i tossed a tough and honest challenge and he didn't flinch or budge.

I'm not a Brit - where did you get that idea?
Seriously, Smilla -- somewhere here long, long ago I understood you lived in the UK. Make that misunderstood. I'm sure I'd never be able to find what I read (or misread) that gave me that idea. For years now, I've imagined you staying up all night tapping on your keyboard posts here to ESMB. Seriously, Smilla -- somewhere here long, long ago I understood you lived in the UK. Make that misunderstood. I'm sure I'd never be able to find what I read (or misread) that gave me that idea. For years now, I've imagined you staying up all night tapping on your keyboard posts here to ESMB.
Well, then, (secret handshake), howdy there, fellow American.![]()
but...
the usual avenues of publication were not open to me
so...
i used a shall we say parascientific route
grounding it in but a single fizz U occurence in the ER of UW hosp in seattle at about 2:00AM in early sept of 2007 to establish a comm line and define it's parameters, i passed on my findings on an "OT" level
in september of 2010 MGH in boston announced they had found exactly what my findings predicted could be found exactly where my findings predicted it could be found producing exactly the result my findings predicted, a major beakthrough in early detection of cancer
no...
they never heard of me or my research
no...
i get no accolades or grants
i wanted two things...
time is up again, almost done, back soon
"L Ron Hubbard is not source. YOU are."That is what Hubbard tried to convey in the beginning. than he got dissapointed at the results and placed himself in theposittion as Source.

"L Ron Hubbard is not source. YOU are."That is what Hubbard tried to convey in the beginning. than he got dissapointed at the results and placed himself in theposittion as Source.
The SO had power over me because I believed at the time that some knew better than I did. Eventually I learned to question and even deny my own judgement as flawed and deferred personal judgement to Hubbard or others.
My experience taught me never to do that again. I'm willing to take well-meaning advice or information under advisement, verify and evaluate it, but I no longer believe anyone knows better about my goals, life, situation, concepts of right and wrong than I do. No preacher, friend, or anyone else can make better decisions than I can. It's my life and where it's gone wrong is where I allowed others to think for me and/or didn't stand up for myself.
<snipped and condensed>CB, I wish for you that you would credit yourself personally for your many good traits, compassion and imagination and one day realise what a wonderful person you are, and always would have been, and how much more you could (even now) be if not for scn. Scn sucked the very life force out of many of us and for some, continues to do so.
You are a good person and should take credit for that. L Ron didn't do that for you. YOU did that for you.
I have a bookmark that says, "It is never too late to become the person you were meant to be."
L Ron Hubbard is not responsible for you being a good person or your achievements or motivations in life. You would have had ups and downs just living, anyway, like we all do. You would have been who you are and achieved as much or more, anyway. That's all I'm saying. I wish all Indies and FZers would see that. (Some do)
My bold.
That's why half the supposed gains are from training. Training meaning reading the books and listening to the lectures gives you LRH's data on whole track events, imaginary incidents that you are to believe (mock-up in your mind) as true, but actually gets indoctrinated into your mind as true. Thus when you go in session, these mock-ups (also could be called imaginations given by LRH to you = evaluation on what to think) get recalled in session and of course your own imagination enters in because why the auditor never disagrees with you, the auditor just similes and says "got it", "thank you".![]()
The SO had power over me because I believed at the time that some knew better than I did. Eventually I learned to question and even deny my own judgement as flawed and deferred personal judgement to Hubbard or others.
Just like certain Indies who quote Hubbard instead of thinking about, judging a question against their personal experiences and lives and answering a question for and as themselves. They deny their personal judgement altogether by doing so and in so doing, deny their actual personal opinions as negligible and unimportant. They believe Hubbard was better than them, could run their lives better than they could - so no longer even try to think for themselves. Sad.
My experience taught me never to do that again. I'm willing to take well-meaning advice or information under advisement, verify and evaluate it, but I no longer believe anyone knows better about my goals, life, situation, concepts of right and wrong than I do. No preacher, friend, or anyone else can make better decisions than I can. It's my life and where it's gone wrong is where I allowed others to think for me and/or didn't stand up for myself.
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Well, he did end up with a gay son, Quentin.