Thanks so much, Mr. Nobody, you make a lot of good points, and I think we are all in agreement - we're all spent from this war and ready to wave our white flags of surrender.
To be truthful, my posts aren't about changing Claire's mind or Mark's, but about standing up to what I consider a process of psychological mystification. In other words, I do it for myself. I write what I write to be clear about what is happening to me, to log my responses and to try to keep logical order of what is being said, to acknowledge a process.
Now, if we were to find ourselves in the same place two weeks from now, I would consider that pretty pathetic and I don't plan to do that (and if you see it, remind me!) But I feel, as someone said to me in a private post, there are lurkers who read this site, who may not share or even identify themselves, but who are watching our discourse, how we treat each other and how opinions are respected. So it may also be important for them that we confront these things the best way we can.
My basic premise is this: there are those of us who are born with certain imbalances that may lead to being disturbed, but for the most part, many people are driven crazy in this life, and they are driven crazy by other people. And most of the time, it's happens bit by bit, a little at a time, with subtle games and innuendos until you start doubting yourself and forget who you are - as I belief happened to Lisa McPherson. I am very sensitive to this energy, because it
is an energy, as I tried to explain earlier, and I can smell it like you smell gas when you leave an unlit burner on. My feeling is that many of us wake up having lost of a part of ourselves and we have no idea where it went. So I am vigilant about this in my life - and I "call back my spirit" immediately whenever I feel I am giving it away, or when someone is attempting to take it through abuse, however subtle. Like I said, people don't have to agree with me, but don't play games with me, either, or
it's on.
It is clear from the feedback in this thread, that there are some repetitive patterns of behavior going on, and some people have giving up. I understand that and I am new, so I am learning. My thing is, I felt a need to call it out since I arrived, because I don't ever want to have to deal with it again, at least personally. I can't speak for anybody else.
But it has been a fascinating, bumpy little journey so far and I'm having a great time. So thank you for the welcome and I'll take a seat next to you if you don't mind!
XB