I'm confused. Are you now saying it is time to get back on the fence? Surely you, and therefore the board (as your creation) had an agenda when you wrote the first post? And now it doesn't? What's changed? Personally I think everyone has an agenda. Its human nature. We do things for a reason. I have an agenda. Currently its to be contrarian (in case you didn't notice). Perhaps you meant that the board doesn't have any affiliations. Perhaps not. I'm not that fussed, but I am confused as to the change between the two quoted posts.
Neo
Nothing has changed Neo.
ESMB and me are two different entities. ESMB is a board I created for a specific PURPOSE but without an agenda.
I (as an individual) have my own ideas about Scientology.
There is a difference.
I'll be perfectly honest here. If I started ESMB 5 years ago and made it to fit my OWN personal agenda, there would have been no freezone allowed, lots of exposing Scientology's crimes, lots of angry posts about how bad Scientology is. I was still angry. I felt betrayed and deceived. I wanted to end the Church.
Three years on from that (when I did start ESMB) I felt differently and I realised that I've felt differently nearly every year of being out and that my "agenda" is constantly changing and "settling". I also realised that NOBODY else will feel exactly the way I do about the church on any given day about any given aspect of the church. So ESMB wasn't built around my own agenda.
I saw that a board was needed where people can comfortably and safely communicate about anything concerning Scientology and that included practising Scn away from the church. I'm talking about
discussion topics here, not topics dear to my heart. They aren't the same thing.
When it comes to me, personally, I still have my own ideas that occasionally I like to voice. Although I have come to realise that out of everyone here, I have the
least freedom of expression and speech because people don't differentiate between me as an individual and me
AS ESMB. If "Emma" says she doesn't like the FZ, then ESMB is anti FZ. If "Emma" says that Hubbard wasn't all bad then ESMB is an apologist board. If "Emma" says that DM should be "shot" then ESMB is an activist board. You see what I mean?
I have had to keep most of my personal opinions to myself and quite honestly haven't said a great deal over the last two years about my personal feelings towards Hubbard, Scientology, the FZ etc because of that.
I was asking Emma a question because I have a genuine concern as to the statement "ESMB is not an activist board". Which is a completely different statement than "ESMB is more than an activist board". I went on Today Tonight out of a spirit of activism. Emma set it up for me to do it. What has changed? Did I risk my neck for nothing? Why is me asking these questions a cause of concern to people? This is as much my community as it is yours.
I must have said that "ESMB is NOT an activist board" at least a dozen times over the last two years. I'm sorry if you missed it previously. Does that mean that I haven't been an "activist" or been involved in "activist" activities over the past 8 years? NO. I do what I want when I want to. I think you know just how "activist" I've been behind the scenes Neo. I know you know what has gone on and what I've been involved in. I've trusted you with certain bits of information.
I'm sorry if you feel you risked your neck. I certainly never held a gun to your head and demanded you do anything. I set up an opportunity for you that you took and I thought you were very proud of what you did. I know I was proud of your courage.
I started ESMB to be a service to people leaving Scientology. It was never based on my opinion of Scn or what I think should happen to Scientology or the tech. They are completely disrelated.
And I feel the need to be contrarian, not out of fun (but thank you for the snide comment) but as stated above, out of a genuine concern. Yours is not the only point of view on this board Carmel. If you learnt to take other view points then maybe you would get how people can benefit from being different. Or at least see where they are coming from.
Neo
Be as contrarian as you like. You won't get any agrument from me about expressing your opinions, as long as they are YOUR opinions and not just attempts at covert digs because of some perceived unresolved, offtopic, disrelated personal situation.