Thank You SweetnessandLight, Lurker, und natürlich MrN.
After the dead of my father,... A person talked with me about his dead. It wasn't made first aid, the telephone was broken, cell phone? It needed a long time until the emergency doctor arrived. He couldn't do anything. My father was brought to forensics (regulary made in Germany, when "young" people die) . A doctor (friend of my fathers family) said, that he was very ill and a obduction wasn't made. I got informed, after this all happened. The mortician was a friend of the family...
February 2010 I got Fair Gamed in a very evil way. At this time I started a research about my fathers company. I wanted to know what happen. I wanted to bring light in the darkness.
But it could be another reason why I got Fair Gamed.:confused2:
I got attacked in the forest by three people. Better one person, the two other watched. My dog kept him at distance.
I got observed obviously.
When I walked with my dog, I met allways a man at one special place. I could walk at 10.00 am I met him, at 13.00 pm or whatever. After a while I saw that it were two men. One followed me and told the other when I was at the place. I started to walk other ways, but the man was there too. I thought I go mad. I fall in a deep black whole. I wanted that it stop. They spoke with one of my kids on the street. Neighbours called me. I ran there. I was very scared...
I thought of going to the Org and say please stop, here I am, do with me what you want. But please stop. But I also felt the need to go there, to get there help. It is a little bit crazy.... But I didn't go there. I searched for help an I got help at a German Anon page. Another Anon helped me and I informed the German secret service.
But OSA found me in the net. They contacted me, and I let my little Scientologist feed and it grow again. My reality changed. I trust the lies. I made for them stuppid post at WWP, I should get friend with some people and I gave informations.
MrN was there and saw what I did. He was a target, but he helped me.
The Fair Game didn't stop until now. But OSA is only a bubble.
RIP
Jürgen Börsting
Born 03. September 1952
gone 31. August 2008
to start a "New Cycle",
he stopped to take the medicine he needed and
didn't use the medical care he got offered.
I wish he lives the life he dreamed of. I miss you Papa....
Thank You SweetnessandLight, Lurker, und natürlich MrN.
After the dead of my father,... A person talked with me about his dead. It wasn't made first aid, the telephone was broken, cell phone? It needed a long time until the emergency doctor arrived. He couldn't do anything. My father was brought to forensics (regulary made in Germany, when "young" people die) . A doctor (friend of my fathers family) said, that he was very ill and a obduction wasn't made. I got informed, after this all happened. The mortician was a friend of the family...
February 2010 I got Fair Gamed in a very evil way. At this time I started a research about my fathers company. I wanted to know what happen. I wanted to bring light in the darkness.
But it could be another reason why I got Fair Gamed.:confused2:
I got attacked in the forest by three people. Better one person, the two other watched. My dog kept him at distance.
I got observed obviously.
When I walked with my dog, I met allways a man at one special place. I could walk at 10.00 am I met him, at 13.00 pm or whatever. After a while I saw that it were two men. One followed me and told the other when I was at the place. I started to walk other ways, but the man was there too. I thought I go mad. I fall in a deep black whole. I wanted that it stop. They spoke with one of my kids on the street. Neighbours called me. I ran there. I was very scared...
I thought of going to the Org and say please stop, here I am, do with me what you want. But please stop. But I also felt the need to go there, to get there help. It is a little bit crazy.... But I didn't go there. I searched for help an I got help at a German Anon page. Another Anon helped me and I informed the German secret service.
But OSA found me in the net. They contacted me, and I let my little Scientologist feed and it grow again. My reality changed. I trust the lies. I made for them stuppid post at WWP, I should get friend with some people and I gave informations.
MrN was there and saw what I did. He was a target, but he helped me.
The Fair Game didn't stop until now. But OSA is only a bubble.
It was a very great post you made. It reached my heart.Yes, I was there, I saw what was going on (not only what you did). Then you PM'd me about an unrelated post I made in another thread, saying you no longer think I was the asshole you once thought I were.
, I'm no longer the professional asshole around here? You just destroyed my reputation. A reputation I worked so very hard for.
You have to decide how much work it was. But it was and it is lots of work for me. But you were there and you are there, when I need you.Anyway, I told you what I had seen and what I thought about that. The rest is history. Well, more or less...
So, all in all, I didn't work too hard to help you, did I?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZjPFLdDyMcAnyway, you're right: "OSA is only a bubble". A scarecrow, which, once it's no longer feared, is pretty much powerless. What's left, are just a (small) bunch of deluded individuals, who are trying to make you feel uncomfortable. Anybody should be able to deal with those.
, MrN
You made a very good job. I need you less, but I am very lucky you are still there.ps: Yup, sunshine desinfects, and if I could help you to get some stuff off your chest, and make your life a little better, I think I've done my job - at least a part of it. My work will be finished, when I'm no longer needed.
The dogs name is Charly. He lived on the street in Hungary and should got killed. Nice people brought him to Germany and since them he is my good dog.
The dogs name is Charly. He lived on the street in Hungary and should got killed. Nice people brought him to Germany and since them he is my good dog.
So he can bark in German and in Hungarian!!
I wonder me what to do with my time. Now I have so lots of it. :confused2:
...and in the past weeks I (sometimes) choose a wrong way... But that is life...
Hi Nicole,
It sounds like you are feeling a little lost and lonely. I'm kind of going through that myself at the moment, so maybe I'm just projecting. But in any case, we all make decisions we regret, bad choices we wish we could take back. If you're ever tempted to do that with Scientology, though, just remember your dad, and what they took from you both. I was really moved to read about your story. I haven't been here for a long time and hadn't come across it before. Somebody, I can't remember who, put it very well when they said that with the internet we're never alone. Not you, or me, or anybody else. And that is a great strength really. As far as I'm concerned, if there is a person out there who has never made a bad choice, never done a bad thing, well maybe they would have the right to judge you. Nobody else does, and certainly not me. People tell me I'm a beautiful person, that I have courage and honesty, and that makes me cringe because I know what lurks inside myself, the darkness of what is hidden even to me. Sometimes my demons come out to dance, but only one person has ever seen that fully. So many of our battles are really with our own selves, and they are the hardest to win.
For what it's worth, I believe in you.
Best,
Purple