Thank you everyone for the greetings! I am having that same feeling I had when I first joined $cio decades ago. You all seem to be good people as it was with everyone 'on lines' way back when.
I am reminded again that the main problem with Co$ is NOT the people in it: there were for the most part good people and some became my best friends. We had great times and much fun. Sadly, we were all brainwashed and just kept doing what we were told, mindlessly until each of us either blew or died. That is, save for a very few that sadly have become lifers. The problem with this cult (it took me 25 years to say that word) starts with hubbard and continues now with miscavige and, like back then, a handful of hopelessly lost puppets.
Having been part of the illusion I can honestly say that we cannot just stand by and let the Co$ continue, unmonitored, untaxed and falsely represented as a church, continuing to ply their hypnotically repetitive brainwashing techniques and gestapo like enforcement on the uninformed and spiritual wounded and unguarded public.
Really, back then I was just looking for God and ended up being tricked by the devil himself. To this day I blame my desire to 'Obtain Absolute Power and Control over Matter, Energy, Space and Time' (you all know the blurb). That's God's job, not mine. How dare I desire to have the power of God?
Thank you all for being here.
Thank you everyone for the greetings! I am having that same feeling I had when I first joined $cio decades ago. You all seem to be good people as it was with everyone 'on lines' way back when.
I am reminded again that the main problem with Co$ is NOT the people in it: there were for the most part good people and some became my best friends. We had great times and much fun. Sadly, we were all brainwashed and just kept doing what we were told, mindlessly until each of us either blew or died. That is, save for a very few that sadly have become lifers. The problem with this cult (it took me 25 years to say that word) starts with hubbard and continues now with miscavige and, like back then, a handful of hopelessly lost puppets.
Having been part of the illusion I can honestly say that we cannot just stand by and let the Co$ continue, unmonitored, untaxed and falsely represented as a church, continuing to ply their hypnotically repetitive brainwashing techniques and gestapo like enforcement on the uninformed and spiritual wounded and unguarded public.
Really, back then I was just looking for God and ended up being tricked by the devil himself. To this day I blame my desire to 'Obtain Absolute Power and Control over Matter, Energy, Space and Time' (you all know the blurb). That's God's job, not mine. How dare I desire to have the power of God?
Thank you all for being here.
(snip)
ps: I truely know what you mean by that last paragraph!
Mary McConnell
I actually had a dream the nite after reading your post. It was the first time I have had a dream, that I am aware of anyway, concerning scientology. In it, I was out but for some reason, over at an org. There was a female staff member talking to me in a friendly way, chit chatting, but In it I am aware that the goal is to get me to come back into the org. She asked to use my hairbrush because she didn't have one with her.... as she was combing her hair, I noticed her second hand clothes and need for a hair cut. I felt compassion for her and her personal plight but I felt that endearing pressure to bond me into coming back, even though she was not pressuring me in the least. She was just talking to me like girls talk to girls... yet it scared me to see how ARC, for lack of a better term, was used in this way to such me into something so bad. The intent was not malicious on her part, it was a desire on her part because she believed in what she was doing in Scn. Yet, for me it was like being pulled into a dark tunnel and I had to set my mind straight to not allow the ARC to throw me off lest I wind up bck into that dark tunnel.
I woke up relieved that I'd escaped it in a cordial way but it really stirred me to see how effected I was, this many years later, at the thought of being lured into scientology despite all I disagree with. I felt powerless at one point and that was what really scared me. Almost as if I'd been hypnotized to respond despite not wanting to. So glad we are out!
ps: I truely know what you mean by that last paragraph!
Mary McConnell
Hey Zorg
You're really going to enjoy the posts here. There's an incredible wealth of data in the form of stories and opinions that will help you sort out your experience. At least, it did as much for me. Enjoy. As you read the various stories you'll see that you're not so different as the rest of us and life ain't so bad after all. I've been out for nearly 20 years and life gets better every year and I'm still sorting various pieces out.
This was a long explanation, but what do we get from getting people out of scientology? We have a group of individuals have become Houdini's of all mind traps.. folks who won't be fooled again. People who can deprogram , People who can spring mental traps.. We create, by freeing someone of scientology, a being who has the ability to break the strongest slave chains of all.
Those forged of lies.
What is Scientology?
Slave chains forged of lies
are stronger than fine steel
And those enslaved see
neither shackle nor lock.
The mission must be,
in order to set them free:
show them how their
chains were made
and where lies hid the key..
by Arnie Lerma
The Real Wall of Fire is Leaving Scientology,
Welcome, Great Zorg. I think you will find what you are looking for here.
(Quote)This was a long explanation, but what do we get from getting people out of scientology? We have a group of individuals have become Houdini's of all mind traps.. folks who won't be fooled again. People who can deprogram , People who can spring mental traps.. We create, by freeing someone of scientology, a being who has the ability to break the strongest slave chains of all.
Here is an excerpt from something Arnie Lerma wrote that really resonated with me. And the link it came from.
http://www.lermanet.com/scientologyhelp/main.htm
Hi.
Yikes! I started crying as I began to write this intro... wtf?
My mind and decades of my life have been destroyed by Co$.
I realized only 3 years ago that virtually EVERYTHING I had learned in $cientology was and is a lie. Then came the dizzy gut wrenching beginning of my return to reality. It has taken me years to continue snipping out the programming and $cio-speak: their weird brainwashing technique of replacing your language with their own.
I still work, less often now, at removing everything I've ever been programmed with: all those $%#@$#$% courses and retrains and misunderstoods and cramming and %#%$#^$%& TR's!!!
This is, I guess, no time to feel sorry for myself.
I do wish to apologize to everyone I've ever attacked, defending hubbard's greedy satanic cult. Sweet Mother of God in Heaven I was a basta*d!! I am sorry. I would undo it all, if I could. I can't. A million all-apologies.
I just wish I was stronger and could talk my friends out of this cult when I bump into them. They still prattle on about new missions opening, taking over the planet, getting back on lines, etc. What am I supposed to do?
Not much of an intro maybe, best I could (lol - I was going to type 'muster') come up with.
If it helps any, Zorg, I was a techie. I put in around 28,000 hours in the auditing chair. About a year ago I apologized for every F/N I ever indicated.