Alanzo
Bardo Tulpa
Hey, I bet you didn't think of the little stick men until you had written down the paperclips and batteries, then put them in for my benefit.
Paul
Hey, I bet you didn't think of the little stick men until you had written down the paperclips and batteries, then put them in for my benefit.
Paul
At least this is what happened to me. I didn't care. It did not matter if I would live or die, I just had to NOT BE THERE.
So you have to confront yourself at the end, your integrity, your promise to yourself, and that's why it is not easy. Some people really have a hard time with that - I did too. It's like you fell into the sea, you learn how to "breath" under water, you develop a gill, but you see all these sharks who were supposed to help you, getting closer and closer with their big teeth showing, threatening... you look around, but this is your life! How can you leave? Then you start feeling the sharks getting closer, they bit into your flesh, you are losing blood... and you jump out of the water onto the land. It is not easy to breath with lungs again, but feels great with no pressure...
I know what you mean, WO.
For me, it surfaced a deep, deep embarrassment that I had ever been part of that stupid fucking cult.
How completely idiotic of me to swallow all that, and to spend that much time working for it for free, and to put off the rest of my life and future for it as long as I did.
It's astounding. Kind of hard to fathom right now for me.
I realized that as long as I NEEDED it, I was blind to everything around me that was SCREAMING this was a stupid fucking cult. When I didn't need it anymore, all those things became so VISIBLE to me, and then it all just collapsed.
And it is still collapsing, 7 years later. After interviews like this, another edifice just collapsed inside me.
I need to go do some yard work to burn off some more embarrassment.
A great interview.
Made me see myself in a whole new way.
The only 'help' Scientology ever offers is Scientology for all. All 'social services' Scientology offers are merely offered as a 'Bridge to the Bridge' as Scientology refers to it.
'Helping' is not in the Scientology philosophy; unless it's helping Scientology.
After all; it's Mankind's Only Hope
Zinj
I know what you mean, WO.
For me, it surfaced a deep, deep embarrassment that I had ever been part of that stupid fucking cult.
How completely idiotic of me to swallow all that, and to spend that much time working for it for free, and to put off the rest of my life and future for it as long as I did.
It's astounding. Kind of hard to fathom right now for me.
I realized that as long as I NEEDED it, I was blind to everything around me that was SCREAMING this was a stupid fucking cult. When I didn't need it anymore, all those things became so VISIBLE to me, and then it all just collapsed.
And it is still collapsing, 7 years later. After interviews like this, another edifice just collapsed inside me.
I need to go do some yard work to burn off some more embarrassment.
A great interview.
Made me see myself in a whole new way.