flashgordon
Patron with Honors
I was so thrilled to hear I was going to get auditing when I joined the SO, and a SHSBC student took me in for confessional auditing.
If I had know before it would mainly consist of me talking about either masturbation istelf or what I had imagined whilst doing it, I think I would have skipped the auditing alltogether.
Of course you feel better afterwards, but is it really necessary?
You get to the stage where you can see yourself doing things you know you are to have to confess to in session.
Yes, and my most hated question I can think of in session was always the famous:
'"has a withhold beed missed"
Which would of course always set off on the auditor missing your most recent masturbation activities. (yes, I'm male...)
I think this is where $cn really goes into the realm of mind conntrol, as you get into the habit of controlling your thoughts in order not to even THINK something you 'shouldt', so its really a kind of mind-police.
Just imagine if we had to undergo confessionals and sec-checks as normal citizens.
I can imagine the state and police would love it, but just think about that one.
Is that really the kind of world you want to live in?
Now I'm older I also can laugh about my inhibitions and having to tell all in session.
I hadn't even had real sex at the time.
I must admit I'd love to see my folder and read all that stuff again.![]()
I didnt think about it at the time, bet I bet the course supervisor of the SHSBC was even reading all that stuff too.
Makes you cringe doesn't it.
And then when you say you want to leave you see you folder/s hanging around everywhere for everybody to look into, and its ok cos you're just a scumbag anyway.
So much for the auditors code!
You're not a scumbag. The real scumbags of the world never get into Scientology. Most people who go into the church are good people wanting to help themselves and others.
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