Type4_PTS
Diamond Invictus SP
Who should I be angry with?
With Hubbard, for creating a very effective mind-control cult that got so many good people to act in this way.
Who should I be angry with?
CHAINS! FUCKING CHAINS!
If it wasn't Scientology I would not even believe that shit.
But as Zinj says: Scientology, it's always worse than you think.
Oh, and welcome btw.
Interesting. Using your logic, maybe I should be angry with the old person chained up in the basement.
Hello everyone. I have been lurking for almost two years. This board has helped me in ways you will never know. So thanks you to all. My spouse and I are both OUT and DONE after many, many years in, lots of money spent, many years on staff, OT levels, donos, and lots and lots of mind control indoctrination. We have family left in so are underground.... for now. I know many of you understand. We have been decompressing and digging our way out of the Scn way of thinking and it's tough. Viewing the world from the Scn filter SUCKS and we are working hard to view the world through our own filter, not some crazy con man's brain. We have lots of stories to tell and over time we'll unload more and more. It's a little scary posting like this but I know it will be fine. I'll leave you with one small story that I had forgotten until recently. And it made me sick.
I was gathering up LRH policies for my hat pack and went down to mimeo area in the bowels of the PAC complex (1979-80). I was not in the SO but worked for one of the many Scn schools in LA area and back then there was no security to stop me. I was innocently trying to get my hat pack put together. I got down to the mimeo room, the hallways were dark and cool, tons of crappola stacked all along the sides of the hallway. When I got to mimeo I could hear the loud noise of the machines going so I knew I had found it.
All of a sudden an old woman
came out to help me. She was at least 70, tiny, gray haired, dressed in rags with shackles around her ankles connected by a chain. She looked absolutely horrible and sad, there was no life left in this poor woman. I was shocked. I couldn't believe it. She asked what I wanted, I told her and she shuffled off with the chains dragging across the floor to get my policy letter.
I should have called the police right then and there. But do you know what I did ? I thought to myself......wow, she must have done something really bad to deserve being treated this way. That is the mind-fuck that I was under and stayed under for all those years. I wish to God I had called 911 ! I have to forgive myself. That is what I realized I have to do as part of my decompressing and self-deprogramming. I can't believe I actually thought this poor sweet woman deserved being treated like an animal. Just awful. In the meantime I do everything I can to encourage people to Run, Forrest, Run ! if they even get near a Scn org or person. Thank you for listening. I am glad I am here.
All of a sudden an old woman
came out to help me. She was at least 70, tiny, gray haired, dressed in rags with shackles around her ankles connected by a chain. She looked absolutely horrible and sad, there was no life left in this poor woman. I was shocked. I couldn't believe it. She asked what I wanted, I told her and she shuffled off with the chains dragging across the floor to get my policy letter.
You are not one of them and really need to lurk moar.
You're about the only one on this board I would take that from. Fair nuff. I'll lurk moar,
Thanks so much to all of you for your replies and warm welcome. I realize the story I posted may seem impossible to have happened to some, but I know what I saw. I was on course at the complex, a familiar face there, there was no security, just went down there, no problem. What's even more impossible to me is that I forgot about it, shut it out of my memory for all of these years. I remembered it during one of the many long discussions I have had with my husband recently about all of this. (He affectionately calls me his deprogrammer !) As the onion layers peel off and memories return I will submit more stories. I have been helped tremendously by reading all of your stories and experiences and we are reading Jeff Hawkins, BFG, etc. Being able to communicate freely here is wonderful. I've been in a great mood all day since I hit the submit button !
Hello everyone. I have been lurking for almost two years. This board has helped me in ways you will never know. So thanks you to all. My spouse and I are both OUT and DONE after many, many years in, lots of money spent, many years on staff, OT levels, donos, and lots and lots of mind control indoctrination. We have family left in so are underground.... for now. I know many of you understand. We have been decompressing and digging our way out of the Scn way of thinking and it's tough. Viewing the world from the Scn filter SUCKS and we are working hard to view the world through our own filter, not some crazy con man's brain. We have lots of stories to tell and over time we'll unload more and more. It's a little scary posting like this but I know it will be fine. I'll leave you with one small story that I had forgotten until recently. And it made me sick.
I was gathering up LRH policies for my hat pack and went down to mimeo area in the bowels of the PAC complex (1979-80). I was not in the SO but worked for one of the many Scn schools in LA area and back then there was no security to stop me. I was innocently trying to get my hat pack put together. I got down to the mimeo room, the hallways were dark and cool, tons of crappola stacked all along the sides of the hallway. When I got to mimeo I could hear the loud noise of the machines going so I knew I had found it.
All of a sudden an old woman
came out to help me. She was at least 70, tiny, gray haired, dressed in rags with shackles around her ankles connected by a chain. She looked absolutely horrible and sad, there was no life left in this poor woman. I was shocked. I couldn't believe it. She asked what I wanted, I told her and she shuffled off with the chains dragging across the floor to get my policy letter.
I should have called the police right then and there. But do you know what I did ? I thought to myself......wow, she must have done something really bad to deserve being treated this way. That is the mind-fuck that I was under and stayed under for all those years. I wish to God I had called 911 ! I have to forgive myself. That is what I realized I have to do as part of my decompressing and self-deprogramming. I can't believe I actually thought this poor sweet woman deserved being treated like an animal. Just awful. In the meantime I do everything I can to encourage people to Run, Forrest, Run ! if they even get near a Scn org or person. Thank you for listening. I am glad I am here.