X-Member-Hooray
Patron with Honors
Profile:- Day staff member in Australia 79-83 then more involvement as a public person in 86-77.
I mainly worked in Division II and IV. I trained and became an auditor and course supervisor. Things were sort of, going ok until the Ethics Mission came along.
I have only recently come on this site and already gotten a number of answers from issues that have bugged me for many years. While on staff I tended to think I was the only one who thought a certain way and sincerely came to believe there was something terribly wrong with me, and I was an evil, bad person to the point that when I left the cult I loathed myself, and it took many, many years to recover and fully realise what a negative effect the cult had on me. I have recently had a major operation and even then I was mistrusting about the Specialists and overly worried about the effect the anaesthetic would have on my body, all from Scientology indoctrination. Rather than just getting on with it like the other patients around me.
To start my story my Aunt became involved with the cult and I had some free time as I was looking for a job. My Aunt convinced me to checkout the Org and then receive some free auditing from a student doing an interneship. She made out that Auditing was the greatest thing in the world. I ended up in tears while I had this auditing as I found trying to word clear Scientology terms way too difficult to understand and the list of words seemed never ending. I chose not to continue this auditing. However not long afterwards she convinced me to go back and do volunteer work which I did as I was staying at her house. That was the beginning of a chapter in my life that I completely and totally regret.
Yes you guessed it, before I knew both Fdn and Day Org were clambering over me trying to recruit me with full gusto. I had only just started seeing a man who I eventually married. As it turns out he had recently been body routed about two months previous and was now the Personal Procurement Officer (PPO) in HCO. He was madly trying to recruit me along with the ED. I could see him perspiring and desperately glancing around the room, looking almost afraid that he would get persecuted if I did not sign the contract for 2.5 years. I was really struggling to get a job and was told how I would acquire the skills to operate competently in the work force and how auditing and training would make me a far greater and more competent person. Being an absolutely gullible twit and only 19 years of age I signed on the dotted line. In hindsight I think why wasn’t I told all the implications about being on staff. I knew the pay was from donations and varied each week, but did not realise that it could be sometimes months with zero pay or perhaps $10.00 pw if things were on a high. I was also not aware that I was obliged to train every week night so I had to earn an income over the weekend. I also was dumb enough not to realise I was expected to become a Scientologist, whereas I was of the thinking that I could just dabble and take on board the aspects that resonated positively with me.
I had recently commenced the comm course, and I thought it was novel and a bit of fun, but really disliked the way most of the staff tended to stare at me, and looked overly attentive and acknowledged me a bit too much if I said anything. Even to this day I wondered about the effectiveness of TRO, bullbaiting and the endless Do birds Fly? Or Do fish swim? Even at that early stage I thought these people are off their rockers, but then they were nice people and very friendly and hey it was a totally new experience and I would learn from it. I felt really foolish for signing the contract for 2.5 years, but felt I had to honour my commitment, and commence work as an Expeditor in Division II.
I mainly worked in Division II and IV. I trained and became an auditor and course supervisor. Things were sort of, going ok until the Ethics Mission came along.
I have only recently come on this site and already gotten a number of answers from issues that have bugged me for many years. While on staff I tended to think I was the only one who thought a certain way and sincerely came to believe there was something terribly wrong with me, and I was an evil, bad person to the point that when I left the cult I loathed myself, and it took many, many years to recover and fully realise what a negative effect the cult had on me. I have recently had a major operation and even then I was mistrusting about the Specialists and overly worried about the effect the anaesthetic would have on my body, all from Scientology indoctrination. Rather than just getting on with it like the other patients around me.
To start my story my Aunt became involved with the cult and I had some free time as I was looking for a job. My Aunt convinced me to checkout the Org and then receive some free auditing from a student doing an interneship. She made out that Auditing was the greatest thing in the world. I ended up in tears while I had this auditing as I found trying to word clear Scientology terms way too difficult to understand and the list of words seemed never ending. I chose not to continue this auditing. However not long afterwards she convinced me to go back and do volunteer work which I did as I was staying at her house. That was the beginning of a chapter in my life that I completely and totally regret.
Yes you guessed it, before I knew both Fdn and Day Org were clambering over me trying to recruit me with full gusto. I had only just started seeing a man who I eventually married. As it turns out he had recently been body routed about two months previous and was now the Personal Procurement Officer (PPO) in HCO. He was madly trying to recruit me along with the ED. I could see him perspiring and desperately glancing around the room, looking almost afraid that he would get persecuted if I did not sign the contract for 2.5 years. I was really struggling to get a job and was told how I would acquire the skills to operate competently in the work force and how auditing and training would make me a far greater and more competent person. Being an absolutely gullible twit and only 19 years of age I signed on the dotted line. In hindsight I think why wasn’t I told all the implications about being on staff. I knew the pay was from donations and varied each week, but did not realise that it could be sometimes months with zero pay or perhaps $10.00 pw if things were on a high. I was also not aware that I was obliged to train every week night so I had to earn an income over the weekend. I also was dumb enough not to realise I was expected to become a Scientologist, whereas I was of the thinking that I could just dabble and take on board the aspects that resonated positively with me.
I had recently commenced the comm course, and I thought it was novel and a bit of fun, but really disliked the way most of the staff tended to stare at me, and looked overly attentive and acknowledged me a bit too much if I said anything. Even to this day I wondered about the effectiveness of TRO, bullbaiting and the endless Do birds Fly? Or Do fish swim? Even at that early stage I thought these people are off their rockers, but then they were nice people and very friendly and hey it was a totally new experience and I would learn from it. I felt really foolish for signing the contract for 2.5 years, but felt I had to honour my commitment, and commence work as an Expeditor in Division II.