Pierrot
Patron with Honors
No problem about a mis-read - we all do it. Do you really feel you have bad karma with women? It surprises me that you should say that.
At first I wrote it as a joke, to fill in, without having anything better I could think about.
But since you ask and there is no much action in this thread on a Friday evening, why not take it up as some kind of a Freudian slip of sorts.
Unless I'm in an agreed upon monogamous relationship I'm surrounded by more women proposing than, due to the schedules of my activities, I can handle. Oh well - even when I'm in a relationship they do, and actually do more, lol. When in - in a relationship, I mean - be it one stands or longer, women kind of stick, originate that's it, and wish to "keep" me.
On my end, there is a moment I start "looking for" again. Don't misread me, every relationship is/was honest, I keep my promises, we have fun, and they all would "take me back" if I wished, but at some point my attention starts to wander off, there are other women, and I recognize it as a "bad" indicator.
So my conclusion was I find my ideal woman's, ideal partner's, characteristics in many women. There isn't one that has them all. It's not that I wish her to love from Led Zeppelin, Yes to Rachmaninov or Mahler, going thorugh Indian and African Music, have special expectations or that kind of things. I keep it very simple and anything goes.
The other conclusion I had is Love is contextual, which don't last for ever. So maybe somewhere I'm looking for something which is too much of an absolute. An incorrect estimation of effort. You know - meeting that special one, looking into each other's eyes and that alone would cause the vanishment of any and all Universes. A timeless moment of Truth.
And from my Man's observation I noticed women aren't complicated. I'd say (even though the etiquette doesn't allow them to state it openly) women are very SEX oriented, more than men actually. At first I thought it was European women, then playing around with African bands I noticed that it was not so. On a trip in the States it was the same.
Is that a bad karma? the simplest and most fun moments in this Lifetime was when I was living alone having great relationships with nearly a different women every day or night, all in the open, nothing unsaid. But I was not really satisfied. Would be my somehow 17th century Romantic search of that soulmate outdated? what you, a woman, would say?