I told you I was trouble
Suspended animation
Thinking of you Glenda ... and hoping things have started to settle down for you and all around you.
You are being very brave and stoic, I don't know that I would cope as well as you.
Hi Glenda,
I'm curious....I know the earthquake hit at night....
But have to ask....did you see any animals exhibit any unusual behavior, prior to the quake? You know, people say that....that animals can pick up on something like that happening before it happens...
Just thought I'd ask.
From the pictures we are seeing here in the States...that was one strong earthquake! I've been through many in LA....and for some reason, they didn't bother me much. But then again....I never had a building fall on my head....or see the ground drop and crack open either....
I keep intermittently crying. I am angry. I am confused.
Mountains have shifted. Literally. The seabed has shifted. Literally. There's a building in Wellington on the brink of collapse. It all feels so unsafe. So surreal. Even though I am not close to these events, these are my people, my homeland.
It's not shaking where I am. There are tiny tremors, but mostly I'm not feeling them. Sometimes the curtains move a little or the light swings a little. I check if the windows are open and if it is just the breeze making stuff move.
I was with a friend yesterday. She feels the same way. Unsafe, insecure. We sat in the car, sipping our weekly "treat" posh coffees, talking about it. That helped.
I wonder why we all live here. It is home I guess. But I have had serious thoughts these past couple of days of finding a place where the earth doesn't move.
You know how people bitch and are complicated with each other? It doesn't mean a fucking thing. And you know how people play head games and shift goal-posts? Doesn't mean a damn thing. Sitting on a hill in the middle of the night, hoping like fuck a huge wave didn't bash into my little part of the world, I thought about a lot of things. Thankfully no big wave barreled into my little corner of the world. But those of us sitting on that hill, glued to our electronic devices, hungry for information, were all deep in deep thoughts.
As my friend in the car said yesterday, "we gotta just try to keep busy." She's right. Too much thinking about the enormity of what has happened, and the big consequences created, is not healthy.
My t-shirt drawer is a complete mess. I'm going to go and tidy it up. And I have a whole bunch of craft stuff that is kind of messy too. Time to sort that out.
Another think that does scares me about earthquakes is called Liquification.
That is when "sand" or soil, i guess...becomes that is saturated with water....and basically turns liquid with the quakes vibrations.......and can't support any structure built upon it.
We are seeing some photos here in the States of the NZ quake....and that on of the green pasture area...with the cows....sure looks like it could be some type of liquification....
But I think this might be more related to Coastal area...and sand and beaches.
Aw, Glenda.
I get it.
The T-shirt drawer is a good idea. And a good time to get to detailed things, like window crevices that need an old toothbrush, or light fixtures that need soaking and stuff like that.
At least the moon isn't going anywhere. In fact, did you know it was brighter last night than in 70 years? This is also as close as it gets to the earth all year long. http://www.latimes.com/science/sciencenow/la-sci-sn-2016-supermoon-20161111-story.html
You said you had a cat, if I remember right. It's time for kitty to show YOU what to do. Dogs and cats not only predict earthquakes fairly well, they get over them pretty well, too. She/he's your buddy and has perceptions in ways that you don't. So watch the animals. If they show things are okay then by golly, they are.
And anyway, other places have droughts and other problems. NZ is one of the most fantastic places in the world.
I promise, Glenda, everything will be okay. Breathe. Just breathe.
Here's a FAVORITE You-tube vid I listen to when I'm taking a luxury bath with candles:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wv5t8NDczB0
Glenda,
I watched some shocking pics on the news tonight and thought about you!
I don't know what to say... just my best thoughts that you will feel soon more secure and recover of this trauma.
It's not good news on our fair shores at the moment. I'm going to make some changes in my life soon. More changes. I can't live this shallow meaningless life any more Lotus. I thought it had meaning - until the middle of the night, sitting on a hill, praying for the best outcomes possible after a huge earthquake in my country. I think I opened up something deep inside myself. I am just so sick and fucking tired of cruelty and trite crap.
I have a good therapist. I'm seeing her on Friday.
You know what is missing in this world? Love. People are so afraid of love. And by God the games they play to act that out leave me speechless sometimes. There's a bit more going on here with me than just the huge earthquake. I admit. I think my faith in humanity has taken a nose-dive this week. I really don't know.
Thanks heaps for the above vid. I'm going to have a bath (with relaxing stuff in it) tonight and listen to this, then go to bed early.
My cat Fummy died a couple of years ago. I haven't got another cat because I'm too scared to love like that again. I realise that probably sounds pathetic but there you have it.
I was with a Ministry of Ed appointed person this afternoon who ensures policy is implemented re: safety, etc. We were talking about things. It helped. I'm not the only one who is feeling vulnerable. Cold comfort - but comforting nonetheless.
Enough. I'm going to go fold all my linen neatly. Some of it needs freshening up so I will wash it. I might get rid of some of it. I have no idea why some of the stuff in my life is in my life. After that I think I will alphabeticalise (sp?) all my books - categories first, then alphabetical. I might cull a few. I don't need all these books. Then I think I will start researching monastic life options. Even that feels problematic - I don't subscribe to beliefs and rules easily. Not after that other shitty spiritual experience I had.
It's not good news on our fair shores at the moment. I'm going to make some changes in my life soon. More changes. I can't live this shallow meaningless life any more Lotus. I thought it had meaning - until the middle of the night, sitting on a hill, praying for the best outcomes possible after a huge earthquake in my country. I think I opened up something deep inside myself. I am just so sick and fucking tired of cruelty and trite crap.
I have a good therapist. I'm seeing her on Friday.
You know what is missing in this world? Love. People are so afraid of love. And by God the games they play to act that out leave me speechless sometimes. There's a bit more going on here with me than just the huge earthquake. I admit. I think my faith in humanity has taken a nose-dive this week. I really don't know.
:confused2:I wish I could construct some sentences that made some sort of sense. I'll try...
I'm heavily restricting myself looking at the images that come in from down south, though I am reading the "best science" stuff I can get my hands on. This is serious shit and anyone that shoves their heads into the sand and says otherwise, well... enjoy the sand.
The ocean bed has risen at least a metre down on parts of the southern coast near the epicentre. Rocks that used to be under the sea are now acting as great perches for birds. Rivers now have dams formed by huge rock/mud slides, causing major issues with water volumes building.
We're working on "probability scenarios". These have been worked out by scientists collecting all available local info, and in collaboration with international scientists/data.
The most likely scenario (+99%) is that the usual pattern of aftershocks will continue. That means aftershocks will continue to decrease in frequency over the next 30 days. This includes the potential for aftershocks of between 6.0 and 6.9 (95% within the next 30 days).
Scenario two sucks! It is unlikely but is 30% likely in the next 30 days. An earthquake smaller than Monday's mainshock and between M7.0 to M7.8. Potentially on a mapped fault or an unmapped fault. Basically the bigger quake early on Monday morning could trigger another fault.
Scenario three: truly sucks (less than 1% likely in next 30 days)
"A much less likely scenario than the previous two scenarios is that recent earthquake activity will trigger an earthquake larger than Monday's M7.8 mainshock. This includes the possibility for an earthquake of greater than M8.0, which could be on the 'plate interface' (where the Pacific Plate meets the Australian Plate). Although it is still very unlikely, the chances of this occurring have increased since before the M7.8 earthquake." [Source: GeoNet - the official source of geological hazard information for New Zealand.]
So, thus far the early pattern is typical aftershock patterning. But we need to get out to 30 day range to gain confidence that will be the likely scenario. We are on day four, about to go into day five in a couple of hours.
Wish us love and luck. God bless the folk living in the heart of this stuff (down south). Kia kaha (stay strong) my people.
p.s. oddly I felt slightly better after dissecting the above info. Facing demons is never easy but there is something strangely empowering knowing what you are up against.