When I left the first time I knew better than being transparent and telling anyone at the org I was going. My husband and I both wanted to go (He was also an auditor but mostly worked in a different section of tech. I forget the dept. He was in charge of the the validation end where pcs are checked in the booth to see if they are floaty.)
Anyway, I just blew and he blew. We had very few belongings but we still believed in Scn so we took our admin and tech vols, plus a few meters we had with us. I had been fortunate that during the time I was c/sing and auditing they had given bonuses for stats. My pcs always fn'ed and those I c/sed did well too. So I got bonuses. I was able to buy a nice meter and books and so on. We took all that with us. I still have the meter. It did not fare well with time and does not work. It's trash. The books are with him in another state.
So we left and we had to anyway since his mother was dying and I ended up caring for her. I was quickly declared a squirrel and an sp and so on. A year or so passed, at least, and some guy from the intelligence CIA part of Scn contacted me to say everything was going to be swell. All I had to do was infiltrate the AAC since Mayo knew me, see what intel I could gather. If I did that, the SP thing would be lifted and FL bill expunged. Even though I had departed I did not know what was happening in the church. I only knew that I believed in the tech and didn't want the freeloader bill or the SP declare.
So I went out to AAC and after only a day or so there, realized they were GOOD FOLKS and that I would not spy. I stayed at a very nice lady's house (Hannah) who was married to an heir to Warner Bros or else she was the heir. I forget now. I met folks. Everyone was very cool. The CoS handler contacted me to find out what was up. I told him that I was leaving CA, that I couldn't spy and that I guess I really was an SP. He came to a hotel room where we were to meet and got me to sign things that would hold me to secrecy. I was afraid of him (physically he was actually a bit weird looking too) and I signed. He sent me back to my state of origin or I payed for it. I don't recall. Actually I think I paid for it.
I got home and called an AAC contact from GA to let him know there was another mole in AAC and that it was not me. He hung up on me and acted as if I was lying. I soon found out why. The CoS had planted lies to deflect what they were doing to the AAC and basically spread the rumor that I was a spy. While I admit that at first I was supposed to be a spy I deny I ever really spied. Since almost instantly I realized it was BS. Within a few days of being home I began to receive hate mail from AAC AND from CoS folks. (The CoS mail mostly was from those at the Venezuela org which I helped to set up and found and those letters hurt the most actually, more than the AAC letters since I had only known the AAC folks for a couple of days anyway).
In 1988 or so I did try one more time to fix things and went to the Celebrity Center. They tried to recruit me. Another long story but I ended up having to escape from the CC building! There were security cameras everywhere and it was not easy to do. I had to abandon most of my belongings to pull it off. I'll tell about that soon.
Being persona non-grata to both the free zone and the CoS meant that I had almost no ties to anyone and so I was able to wean off the tech and forget about it. But even all alone it took years to realize that everything, absolutely everything in SCN is bogus.
I have no contact with anyone anymore and this forum is my first contact in years.