PLEASE HELP I WANT TO LEAVE RIGHT NOW.
Here is some data about my situation:
I am 19 years old and is staff in a european Org. I have been on staff for about 1 and a half year now. I have signed the Sea Org contract. But I have not arrived in the Sea Org, and I DO NOT plan on going to.
I made earlier today the decision to leave. I have been thinking about it ever since i made it. I can not fall asleep. I am sure that leaving is the right decision. But how do I do it!?!?
I have done the purification rundown, staff status one and two. I am working an executive post in the Org. I got many personal wins from using Dianetics, and the people (especially the other staff members there) are very nice.
The reason of my decision to leave is that the church has started to try an control every personal aspect of my live. Its like they do not want me to think for myself. I can not take it anymore.
I have been trained in how to scare and really intimidate people who are against Scientology. Black PR, Dead Agent, Filming people, Yelling at people etc. And i have done things I wish I hadn't.
I want out!
I have been very lucky to have some of the best friends I could wish for outside Scientology. They still stand by me. I have not had to disconnect anyone. And my whole family supports me.
I feel like i am being used to do degrading work for NO PAY at all. And even though I work every single day without any pay they still demand that I donate to IAS etc.
Also I found out that some of the tech is simply is not working. I get sick and have to get a useless PTS handling.
I can not take that we are treating LRH like a god. Celebrating him all the time. Clapping at him after everything we do.
I want to go back to school and get myself an education and live my life.
Can you please help me??? I want to get out. And I want to get out NOW.
Is there any way to get out nicely? Without upsetting people? How?
Please help.
Here is some data about my situation:
I am 19 years old and is staff in a european Org. I have been on staff for about 1 and a half year now. I have signed the Sea Org contract. But I have not arrived in the Sea Org, and I DO NOT plan on going to.
I made earlier today the decision to leave. I have been thinking about it ever since i made it. I can not fall asleep. I am sure that leaving is the right decision. But how do I do it!?!?
I have done the purification rundown, staff status one and two. I am working an executive post in the Org. I got many personal wins from using Dianetics, and the people (especially the other staff members there) are very nice.
The reason of my decision to leave is that the church has started to try an control every personal aspect of my live. Its like they do not want me to think for myself. I can not take it anymore.
I have been trained in how to scare and really intimidate people who are against Scientology. Black PR, Dead Agent, Filming people, Yelling at people etc. And i have done things I wish I hadn't.
I want out!
I have been very lucky to have some of the best friends I could wish for outside Scientology. They still stand by me. I have not had to disconnect anyone. And my whole family supports me.
I feel like i am being used to do degrading work for NO PAY at all. And even though I work every single day without any pay they still demand that I donate to IAS etc.
Also I found out that some of the tech is simply is not working. I get sick and have to get a useless PTS handling.
I can not take that we are treating LRH like a god. Celebrating him all the time. Clapping at him after everything we do.
I want to go back to school and get myself an education and live my life.
Can you please help me??? I want to get out. And I want to get out NOW.
Is there any way to get out nicely? Without upsetting people? How?
Please help.