Wow! That was an eye opening story from the fear angle. I got to OT4. Didn't really have a fear of it, but my world was more of a desire to satisfy the great mystery of what it was (OT3). I looked at 1 and 2 as stops to get in my way to get to 3. Then just as I got to solo, the Sunshine R/D came out. Another stop. And was a POS it was. It was like an HQS course level process or something from Self Analysis. I will say that I was taken a little when I attested to finishing OT3 which is BTs gone only to move onto 4 which is BTs and drugs. I just attested to them being gone on 3 and now I'm back on 4 looking for more.
Yes indeed. Rilly.
I thought the Sunshine RD was a POS and I was only a Clear.
The location step of D/L puzzled me for years. I mean Time at least (supposedly) flows along at a constant speed and has done so since the beginning, so we can talk in terms of 'x' earth years ago or whatever. But in space there is no constant except the constant of continual change. Just counting up the number of directions in which one's body is moving while supposedly sitting still is enough to exhaust one. So how could one possibly locate a past location? Like, where was my cup of tea five minutes ago? On the desk with me? -No, because the earth has moved on from that location so it was in a spot in space five minutes ago. How can one possibly D/L it?
The only non-moving constant is in fact oneself. A thetan does not move in space. So "Where did it happen?" The only true answer is "Right here".
But that won't blow the charge, or is unlikely to.
After much pondering on this I decided the following. Since both space and time are illusions, and since space is a viewpoint of dimension - being viewed by oneself please note, and since the reactive mind resides in one's own mental space and not in the physical universe, then it sort of follows - and this applies to both Time and Space - we are locating things as they are located in the guy's reactive mind. Which is spread out over god knows how much space and time.
So one views from on'es present viewpoint of dimension to the viewpoint of dimension one had back then. Ditto for time. This is what allows those fantastic dates to read on the meter.
It is really not the physical universe date and location but one's mental universe date and location, and even though one could assert that it really is Phys Univ., it aint.
It's an objective process. The idea is *immediately* after attesting clear while one is going WOW! one needs to get extroverted. If you do the Sun RD a day or week or year after attesting clear it's redundant because regular life has already run a locational on you.
Meanwhile, back at the ranch, there must be more in the area of self-fulfilling prophecies buried in Scientology "standard tech."
Paul, In reference to your OP. I've spent some time considering this too. The sticking point for me accepting it as more than a chance occurrence has always been the many times when a PC or pre-OT is completely flummoxed/surprised/astounded at the result achieved. Instances where there's no way the PC was expecting that particular EP or result. Your thoughts?
Then why did I have my fear the whole time I was in Scientology, and only had it "handled" once I quit believing in "case" as defined by L Ron Hubbard?
Once my belief in Hubbard was gone, then his whole installed phobia of the OT levels was gone, too.
So if what you say is true, that Scientology handles "fear", then why did every Scientology process I ran for 16 years not handle it, but only made it worse?
I am quite unable to answer your question without having more data. I would need to go over your folders and do DofP interviews etc etc etc.
But just offhand - just a thousand mile thumsuck - seeing as how you blew a lot of charge on the realization that you never had any case in the first place, I would look into the possibility that you are a natural, always was, Clear.