Terl
Patron with Honors
I'm not sure why I am posting this, I guess I just need to tell someone and to get some opinions.
A family member, who is a Scientologist, let's say she's my aunt, recently brought up the idea of her auditing me because she needed to audit someone for the course she's on. Last she knows of my involvement with the COS was that I was interested in the technology and would probably study it on my own time rather than take any courses, which at the time was true. Since then, (it's been probably 3 years) I've shifted from "interested in" to "opposed to". I managed to get off the subject of her auditing me by saying that since we had a personal relationship, it would be difficult to be comfortable and honest with her about things in the type of relationship an auditor and PC have. She seemed to understand this and get off the idea.
Lately she has been hounding me to watch the new Dianetics intro video. Finally this afternoon I let her show it to me. It was fine enough, but afterwards her passion in auditing me was reignited. Perhaps because of the video and perhaps because I wanted to do her the favour, I agreed to it. I mean, it's not like I have to pay for it and it might be fun to do together.
Then once I agreed to it the floodgates opened and she was talking to me about MY doing the course and auditing HER as well. So not going to happen. I just sat there making "Mmm.." sounds until she realised I was not interested. Then she wanted to schedule something this week and revealed 2 huge deal-breakers.
1) The auditing would take place at the local mission.
2) Someone will be in the room with us observing the sessions.
In my vision, the vision I agreed to, her and I would meet on our own time, probably at her house, and she would audit me alone. I said I wasn't sure what I was doing this week and wasn't wanting to schedule anything, she said why can't I schedule auditing and work other stuff around that, to which I laughed. I told her I didn't like the idea of having someone in the room with us and I hinted at not wanting to go to the mission. It didn't seem to do the trick and we finally parted ways with her saying she would call me tomorrow to set something up.
I can't help but feel like she is trying to get me back into Scientology again and this is her way of doing it. I wouldn't mind being her PC for a short time and seeing what happens just out of curiosity, but I have 0 intention of setting foot in the mission and being a part of the Scientology world even briefly. I would probably vomit if I did, actually.
How should I tell her?! I don't want to make things awkward between us but I feel very uncomfortable flat out telling her no, especially after agreeing to it which I should not have done and would not have done had I all the facts....
A family member, who is a Scientologist, let's say she's my aunt, recently brought up the idea of her auditing me because she needed to audit someone for the course she's on. Last she knows of my involvement with the COS was that I was interested in the technology and would probably study it on my own time rather than take any courses, which at the time was true. Since then, (it's been probably 3 years) I've shifted from "interested in" to "opposed to". I managed to get off the subject of her auditing me by saying that since we had a personal relationship, it would be difficult to be comfortable and honest with her about things in the type of relationship an auditor and PC have. She seemed to understand this and get off the idea.
Lately she has been hounding me to watch the new Dianetics intro video. Finally this afternoon I let her show it to me. It was fine enough, but afterwards her passion in auditing me was reignited. Perhaps because of the video and perhaps because I wanted to do her the favour, I agreed to it. I mean, it's not like I have to pay for it and it might be fun to do together.
Then once I agreed to it the floodgates opened and she was talking to me about MY doing the course and auditing HER as well. So not going to happen. I just sat there making "Mmm.." sounds until she realised I was not interested. Then she wanted to schedule something this week and revealed 2 huge deal-breakers.
1) The auditing would take place at the local mission.
2) Someone will be in the room with us observing the sessions.
In my vision, the vision I agreed to, her and I would meet on our own time, probably at her house, and she would audit me alone. I said I wasn't sure what I was doing this week and wasn't wanting to schedule anything, she said why can't I schedule auditing and work other stuff around that, to which I laughed. I told her I didn't like the idea of having someone in the room with us and I hinted at not wanting to go to the mission. It didn't seem to do the trick and we finally parted ways with her saying she would call me tomorrow to set something up.
I can't help but feel like she is trying to get me back into Scientology again and this is her way of doing it. I wouldn't mind being her PC for a short time and seeing what happens just out of curiosity, but I have 0 intention of setting foot in the mission and being a part of the Scientology world even briefly. I would probably vomit if I did, actually.
How should I tell her?! I don't want to make things awkward between us but I feel very uncomfortable flat out telling her no, especially after agreeing to it which I should not have done and would not have done had I all the facts....