Lemme add a few reflections on SRAs in CofS
I outlined a few of my experiences with them in the FSO OOT thread, here:
http://forum.exscn.net/showpost.php?p=5338&postcount=20
As a result of seeing how the top RTC/CMO and even FSO execs operated through the use of force, threat and anger, it didn't seem right to me, at all.
I joined CofS staff because I wanted to help people. When I first became a supervisor, I had to be constantly corrected on being "tough". The "What is a course?" PL for Supervisors said that the successful Supervisor is "tough", not a "kindly old fumbler".
Well, I wanted to be kind and didn't take to being tough. I eventually got used to it, and developed a "supervisor presence" I think, but
So all the screaming didn't sit well with me. As a good little CofS staff member, it got me thinking about "what Ron would do?" so I looked up every single reference I could find about screaming, getting mad, properly handling of juniors etc. That's why I could rattle off so many of the references off the top of my head - I really researched this.
What I concluded was that Ron did use screaming and anger "to impinge", and most definitely endorsed it's use to "get things done". I still thought that most of what I witnessed was crazy and not done well.
But some of those execs seemed to be able to get things done, and our org was not even close to getting enough done to be able to support itself, so maybe, just maybe, those crazy vicious execs were partially right - maybe we needed more of that in our org.
So although those execs had been crazy and excessive about it, I could use my anger in some cases to "blow through" "counter-intention" and "other-intention" to get things done. As well as perhaps to handle confusion of emergencies to organize things quickly.
So at my org, I tried a couple judicious, very mild compared to what I had seen, SRAs. And you know what? My stats went up! Way up! I got lots done! Blew through "CI" like nobody's business.
So I thought I would be recognized as an upstat for finding and correctly applying LRH policy to handle a situation and increase production. I was not. I was complained about and got removed from post.
"But, but, I was applying policy and got results!"
"But people are complaining." So I was treated rather roughly, because obviously if I was getting mad at people it must mean that my ethics were out...
So I didn't do it any more. I hadn't really wanted to be like that anyways.
One of the people was actually a dear dear friend of mine. I went and found her and we looked at each other for a moment then gave each other a big hug and I told her I was sorry.
The other person was also someone I was pretty close to as well. I ended up apologizing to them as well.
Thus ended my great SRA experiment.
I was put on a post where all I had to do was help people and didn't any longer have to worry about being tough or even "getting things done" really. Just helping the person in front of me, which is all I'd wanted in the first place.
I felt much better. But I continued pondering my SRA experiences. Why hadn't I been recognized for the great production I'd accomplished? Well, to start the rest of the staff members at my org mostly just wanted to help people to, and screaming at them no matter how judiciously, isn't helping those people. And most of them had never seen how their management operates, so tended to ignore the "get mad" policies about giving people nightmares if they contemplate squirreling and attacking.
Which is how it should be. Decent people will tend to protest harming of people.
This got me pondering even further; if even other staff members protested it, what must it look like to outsiders? Perhaps not everyone who criticizes Scn/CofS is really a criminal as Hubbard says, but maybe some are really decent people who see what appears to be harm, so protest against it?
What else might that apply to besides SRAs? How about the near utter neglect of staff - despite the millions of dollars brought in by CofS? Enforced disconnection? Or even discouraging young people to join staff instead of going to college? Lack of health care for SO members? Or taking all of grandma's retirement fund so she can "go free"?
I realized that there were many other things besides SRAs that I had originally not liked about CofS but had over time become acclimatized until they no longer bothered me so much -- unless I really thought about them. Mostly they just didn't register much any more.
I started re-evaluating what CofS was really like, if I stopped ignoring the things I didn't like and just looked at it freshly from an outside viewpoint. I decided that from an outside viewpoint, despite the attempts of many decent people within CofS to help people, overall CofS was the coldest, most vicious organization I'd ever been around in my life by a large margin.
At that point, I was pretty much out the door, though it took a while before I finally left. I just couldn't countenance the amount of hurt I'd seen brought to people over the years.
It is taught in Scn "Never fear to hurt another in a just cause." Well, to CofS a "just cause" is anything that slows down the expansion of CofS - like spending the money to provide healthcare or retirement for SO rather than on more promotion.
I like better the -- admittedly often ignored -- medical ideal of "first, do no harm". I suspect that if CofS had adopted that ideal it would have turned out a loooot healthier than it did.
OK, done rambling for now...