The Sea Org is covered by so many threads and posts here ... so lets' look at the typical life of being on staff.
Imagine being in a constant state of 'degrees of deprivation', where you work 20 hr days and get no to little pay. Where you have no idea how you are going to pay your rent and other monthly bills, or feed your kids something besides cereal for dinner, get your laundry done without money for the machines at the laundromat, have money to get to work... and you are told you are not allowed to 'moonlight' ( work elsewhere, especially with non-staff scientology companies ) until your job production stats are up.
Where you are thrown into a post and told to 'make it go right' and fingure out how you are going to get the 'valuable final product of your job' even though you have no experience or time to train on what that job is because it's always like a state of emergency at the org, with every senior and senior's senior yelling in the ears of a junior to "get stats up!!"
Where even if you do your job and do get you own targets done by Thursday at 2pm ( weekly deadline in all churches ) and have gotten your own 'stats up' you suffer anyway financially if the org income is low, which is usually is. Then, on Friday, you start all over again, new targets, new stats to achieve. The stress is unbelievable.
The personal and family neglect I saw happen around me was appalling. But you can't say anything... without risking an interview with the Org ethics dept.
There is so much more and it's all so much worse, but this is a typical staff member's life as I remember it.
Then, few years of it had drain all your way of coping - you realize you can't do it this way anymore.
So you are now with debts, a 5 years contract, no more money to go up your bridge, starving, looking to share an apt with someone who won't pay his due and there is nothting left to sell....
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If you have children, may be you would have given up to ensure them a decent living and routed out.
But otherwise, one day, a Sea Org recruit mission comes in.
Wow! It's amazing that there is finally an easier way to help save the planet , take responsibility and have the opportunity to go up your bridge, All the room and board are covered, even though all expenses , clothes and you can make more money with selling books. WoW.
You would share a room with someone and it's like being part of a huge theta family!
Okay, you sell everything to pay you debts , you fly to flag.
You think you will be given a nice tour to get familiar with the facilities etc..
But you are conducted in a bedroom at FH - 6th floor.
Well it's cool, staying a night at the FH!
You enter the room, and the ceiling is almost collapsing, the plumbing pipes are leaking everywhere, the carpet is ...is..I can't find the word... the foulish smell, Urgh...
there is 2 large beds, no cover sheets, there are urine rings on the matresses, and you have to share beds with people
It looks like a place under demolition
An after war site.
You are about to cry (as a +or- 20 years old girl )
But they tell you - ''hey, it's only for tonight - tomorrow you will get a nice room!''
It's the most beautifull theta place on the planet - they say!
So you are in a hurry to finally move
in HOC ''the heart of Clearwater''
Apparently way better Hacienda
OMG!
It's even worst and you can hear the coacroaches walking on caboard boxes under your bed!
6 persons in the bedroom
Air conditionning is not working - it's may - hot and raining
The plumbing is leaking
and you know there is no way it will be renovated.
you have been introduced to EPF and encountered your first RPF'ers
running like slaves in the garages , not even looking at people into their eyes!
children cleaning the marble floor of the Crystal Ballroom hall
with a toothbrush
The first few days
you hear people yelling and threatening more
than you have heard in a lifetime,
You encounter surreal things you wouldn't imagine
like teens and children giving orders to adults
and you are expected to call them ''sir'' and obey
Some are arrogant and let you know they are
choosen because they are ''pure'' for serving LRH
AS they are young, they have not commited sins
neither infested with atheir parents education
They know every move you do in a day
because there are guards all around
and they particularly watch the new arrivals batch of slaves.
There is muster few times a day to count people.
You realize you are in a military camp
No one complain
After all, it's a deadly urgent mission
to save the planet - it's a war!
1984 come back in your mind - you know you found it live!
You can't stay there!
Thank's to the Clearwater taxi driver's
who are compassionate and very much helpfull
for people trying to escape.
They know the tricks and they give good advices.
30 years later
you still know it has been the lesson of a lifetime.
The were the old gold days at the Flag land base.
A very much dark place with people who appears humanoids.
Many are called = few are choosen!
We won't come back
* SO would never complained about their conditions - there is no way to ask or be critical otherwise the rpf needs slaves.
* many SO will never complain, even when they get out of it . I never did so , no sibling, parents, neither friends or any psych knows what I experienced (emotional) there neither my escape. I had not been abused as many other had been. But, I was and still am to ashamed of having been trapped in a Big brother slave cult.