catfood
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There is a phenomenon among some auditors, that I consider a huge problem.
Maybe it is not problem for anybody else, maybe just for a few persons in the world, but for me, definitely.
I have exceptionally hard case, that many auditor couldn't deal with successfully. My problems are also quite unusual, and its manifestations can seem strange to an auditor, because he has never met a person like me. I am not and have never been the average scientologist.
When for example I was church public I was called many times to attend the church events. I had sensible reasons why not to, but the ethics officers didn't get it and I even got a knowledge report stating how low my ethics level is, how unsupportive I am to the group etc. (And I tell you, I am probably more willing to help people than them.) They literally forced me by punishment to go to the events!
Or when I have heard that someone has just completed the SHSBC, I wrote to her hoping she would have a good idea what the solutions are for my case. When I sent her details about my unsuccessful auditing history, what did I get back? Making me wrong, saying that it is not okay to criticize highly trained terminals. Saying how irresponsible I am and furthermore she asked me to not contact her anymore, not allowing me a chance to clarify myself.
Of course the emotional tone of my letter when I specified how unsuccessful my auditing had been and how hopeless I was, was definitely not VGIs, but does it give an auditor right to invalidate me like shit?
Shouldn't they grant beingness to the pc and try understand him, no matter what his difficulties are? Should they suppose that a there is a possiblility that a BIs pc is negative because he has been badly mishandled?
Recently I have been looking for a freezone auditor, and I have been sending data about my case to them.
(http://www.forum.exscn.net/showthread.php?t=22727)
While many auditor responded normally, there was one who called me the worst evil in the world, to say the least. He didn't believe I had a communication problem, and thought I just wanted to exploit all auditors. He said he would let all his auditor friends know who I am. He put my e-mail address into spam right away.
Not suprising, that it has been upsetting me so much that I couldn't even fall asleep.
I don't say that he is all bad-intentioned, but he definitely haven't met a pc like me. But still, is it okay to dump such a blatant invalidation on me, in the name of help?
What is worse, I contacted another auditor, who knows this guy, and I told him about my problem. How did he respond? The same way as him, but only asking me to not contact him anymore.
Have you experienced such misunderstandings?
What do you think, does an auditor have right to invalidate someone immediately who doesn't fit in their picture of a normal scientologist?
Maybe it is not problem for anybody else, maybe just for a few persons in the world, but for me, definitely.
I have exceptionally hard case, that many auditor couldn't deal with successfully. My problems are also quite unusual, and its manifestations can seem strange to an auditor, because he has never met a person like me. I am not and have never been the average scientologist.
When for example I was church public I was called many times to attend the church events. I had sensible reasons why not to, but the ethics officers didn't get it and I even got a knowledge report stating how low my ethics level is, how unsupportive I am to the group etc. (And I tell you, I am probably more willing to help people than them.) They literally forced me by punishment to go to the events!
Or when I have heard that someone has just completed the SHSBC, I wrote to her hoping she would have a good idea what the solutions are for my case. When I sent her details about my unsuccessful auditing history, what did I get back? Making me wrong, saying that it is not okay to criticize highly trained terminals. Saying how irresponsible I am and furthermore she asked me to not contact her anymore, not allowing me a chance to clarify myself.
Of course the emotional tone of my letter when I specified how unsuccessful my auditing had been and how hopeless I was, was definitely not VGIs, but does it give an auditor right to invalidate me like shit?
Shouldn't they grant beingness to the pc and try understand him, no matter what his difficulties are? Should they suppose that a there is a possiblility that a BIs pc is negative because he has been badly mishandled?
Recently I have been looking for a freezone auditor, and I have been sending data about my case to them.
(http://www.forum.exscn.net/showthread.php?t=22727)
While many auditor responded normally, there was one who called me the worst evil in the world, to say the least. He didn't believe I had a communication problem, and thought I just wanted to exploit all auditors. He said he would let all his auditor friends know who I am. He put my e-mail address into spam right away.
Not suprising, that it has been upsetting me so much that I couldn't even fall asleep.
I don't say that he is all bad-intentioned, but he definitely haven't met a pc like me. But still, is it okay to dump such a blatant invalidation on me, in the name of help?
What is worse, I contacted another auditor, who knows this guy, and I told him about my problem. How did he respond? The same way as him, but only asking me to not contact him anymore.
Have you experienced such misunderstandings?
What do you think, does an auditor have right to invalidate someone immediately who doesn't fit in their picture of a normal scientologist?