Helena Handbasket
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It's been a while since my original thread ( http://www.forum.exscn.net/threads/telepathic-sex.31175 ) on this subject. But it happened again, just this morning. It always comes when I am waking up, and I felt fabulous while it was happening. But then I felt depressed and apathetic for the rest of the day (because of course I didn't want it to stop).
Let me back up and give you guys the history of this:
From time to time I would experience a feeling just like my XBF was in the room, caressing me. It always felt great, but for years I've been trying to forget him so I could move on. (That was the advice all the experts gave me -- "let go and move on".) So I was resisting these encounters when they happened.
Then someone suggested there's a actual telepathic line between me and him that he's energizing. As in the real him, not just something I was imagining. I suppose he thought of the being he was playing with as an imaginary playmate of sorts, not realizing there was an actual someone (me) at the other end.
I wanted to encourage these encounters, so I thought "call me" at him about 70 times. Then they stopped -- I figure I scared him off. (And just when I decided I like them, darn it.) This is the reason I used to put "my social skills are so bad, I can't even maintain a fantasy relationship" at the bottom of my posts.
They stopped months ago, until like I said this morning. I decided to be very passive about it, neither encouraging him or discouraging him, for fear of scaring him off again.
Before I go any further, I know this stretches the bounds of what people may consider possible, but it is certainly within the limits of my beliefs.
I consider myself 95% responsible for our breakup. I just didn't treat him right -- although between Asperger's and other syndromes, I just couldn't do any better.
I just want to be able to talk to him again.
Helena, sitting in her handbasket
Let me back up and give you guys the history of this:
From time to time I would experience a feeling just like my XBF was in the room, caressing me. It always felt great, but for years I've been trying to forget him so I could move on. (That was the advice all the experts gave me -- "let go and move on".) So I was resisting these encounters when they happened.
Then someone suggested there's a actual telepathic line between me and him that he's energizing. As in the real him, not just something I was imagining. I suppose he thought of the being he was playing with as an imaginary playmate of sorts, not realizing there was an actual someone (me) at the other end.
I wanted to encourage these encounters, so I thought "call me" at him about 70 times. Then they stopped -- I figure I scared him off. (And just when I decided I like them, darn it.) This is the reason I used to put "my social skills are so bad, I can't even maintain a fantasy relationship" at the bottom of my posts.
They stopped months ago, until like I said this morning. I decided to be very passive about it, neither encouraging him or discouraging him, for fear of scaring him off again.
Before I go any further, I know this stretches the bounds of what people may consider possible, but it is certainly within the limits of my beliefs.
I consider myself 95% responsible for our breakup. I just didn't treat him right -- although between Asperger's and other syndromes, I just couldn't do any better.
I just want to be able to talk to him again.
Helena, sitting in her handbasket
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It's also frustrating.
