SuperPowers
Patron with Honors
I'm trying to keep track of the all the ESMB topics and the multitude of ideas, opinions and whims. It seems to me that Scientology (and its Church) is something one loves to hate, and possibly hates to love.
Scientology (but also other religions) could be seen as a operating system of an individual. When an urge to leave the group is carried out it could mean that one is left with all kinds of artifacts to keep or get rid of.
I myself decided to let the material artifacts (books, meters, diploma etc) hit the garbage collection. It is not easy to keep these items on the book shelf as a constant reminder of something that caused so much hardship.
But what about the immaterial stuff: the ARC triangle, the Tone Scale, the Communication Tech, Study Tech, and so forth? I decided to reclaim my native language which was supplanted with a language invented by the devine Mr Hubbard. For instance, if I like and understand a person I won't say "We have such a tremendous ARC!", nowadays I would just say: I like him or her a lot, what a nice person! I think there is a lot of hype in the teachings of LRH. He was that Devine Source of Life Knowledge, so it was he who had that special gift and expectations to live up to!
However, there ARE pieces of knowledge which I didn't come across until Scn and some of it was groundbreaking at that time, like parts of the study tech. But again, there is the peculiar cultish implementation of the Devine Advice "Look Up The Word" written in every book, and at the start of every course!
So I had a rather rough time after the cult separation. I have been depressed, things have looked dark and meaningless from time to time. There are people who kill themselves in such dark hours but I didn't wanna go that road, so I contacted a nearby medical center and I was fortunate enough to be offered Psychotherapy (CBT). And that was a relief to me. Here was a listening person with real life experience. I learned a lot, how to tacle the emotional stress. At first the therapist and I talked about anything but not Scn, which I was mapped "taboo". Little by little I found Scn to be The Topic to talk about, there was no way around but to get the cult years experiences off my chest. There were the good stuff, and there were the bad stuff. It has taken a lot of time to sort things out. And I feel more free now.
I guess there are many here among of us who dwell in the aftermath of a cult experience which doesn't wear off quite easily. Especially if there are wins.
But all in all, Scientology is a cult which many of us loves to hate, and possibly hates to love. Maybe "Stuck in an incident called Scientology", is a suitable description of leaving such a cult.
If you can't speak freely when in a cult, realize you're not going to be free. Speaking your mind out is the best way to free yourself.
Scientology (but also other religions) could be seen as a operating system of an individual. When an urge to leave the group is carried out it could mean that one is left with all kinds of artifacts to keep or get rid of.
I myself decided to let the material artifacts (books, meters, diploma etc) hit the garbage collection. It is not easy to keep these items on the book shelf as a constant reminder of something that caused so much hardship.
But what about the immaterial stuff: the ARC triangle, the Tone Scale, the Communication Tech, Study Tech, and so forth? I decided to reclaim my native language which was supplanted with a language invented by the devine Mr Hubbard. For instance, if I like and understand a person I won't say "We have such a tremendous ARC!", nowadays I would just say: I like him or her a lot, what a nice person! I think there is a lot of hype in the teachings of LRH. He was that Devine Source of Life Knowledge, so it was he who had that special gift and expectations to live up to!
However, there ARE pieces of knowledge which I didn't come across until Scn and some of it was groundbreaking at that time, like parts of the study tech. But again, there is the peculiar cultish implementation of the Devine Advice "Look Up The Word" written in every book, and at the start of every course!
So I had a rather rough time after the cult separation. I have been depressed, things have looked dark and meaningless from time to time. There are people who kill themselves in such dark hours but I didn't wanna go that road, so I contacted a nearby medical center and I was fortunate enough to be offered Psychotherapy (CBT). And that was a relief to me. Here was a listening person with real life experience. I learned a lot, how to tacle the emotional stress. At first the therapist and I talked about anything but not Scn, which I was mapped "taboo". Little by little I found Scn to be The Topic to talk about, there was no way around but to get the cult years experiences off my chest. There were the good stuff, and there were the bad stuff. It has taken a lot of time to sort things out. And I feel more free now.
I guess there are many here among of us who dwell in the aftermath of a cult experience which doesn't wear off quite easily. Especially if there are wins.
But all in all, Scientology is a cult which many of us loves to hate, and possibly hates to love. Maybe "Stuck in an incident called Scientology", is a suitable description of leaving such a cult.
If you can't speak freely when in a cult, realize you're not going to be free. Speaking your mind out is the best way to free yourself.