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RE: Airyfairy - theetie wheetie - Hubbard definately did not want anyone becoming interested in metaphysics or alternative practice. Why, we'd want to spend out money elsewhere if we did! and so his attitude that they were all WRONG has infected me for so long and with such depth that I still have an issue with admiting my own spiritual beliefs and find myself always hiding int he "practical" and "professional" and "strategic".

Lionheart, maybe it's time for you to weigh in with what you think. I've been checking the thread often and will keep doing so.
I wanted others to offer their wisdom to this problem. Thanks to FreeToShine for your input!

I hope others chip in in response to my account of my experience.
Like I said, before Scn I had tended towards the mystical experience of Christianity. Then I bought into the hippie attitudes of the sixties.
Once I got into Scn, both these tendencies were suppressed because Ron taught me that they were feeble, showed a lack of confront, blah, blah blah. Now I see that Ron was simply implanting my inner world with
his definition of life and his perception of evil. They were not
my ideas of how life was for me.
But like the rest of us, Ron offered me some solutions to problems in my life, so I bought into the whole caboodle, including his concept of theetie-wheetie. Although I can still remember some vague discomfort when I used the label on people.
So I became the tough "tiger" that Ron wanted me to be and suppressed my mystical tendencies. They would pop up every now and then in my auditing and I remember having some "theetie-wheetie" cognitions that were perhaps a little unusual for the average scientologist.
Then Ron made the mistake of writing The Way To Happiness booklet!

I know he wrote it as a PR exercise to counter the exposure of the GO's Operation Snowhite, just as he had written "What is Greatness" to counter his fair game policy.
Nevertheless, his PR booklet on happiness contained some dynamite ideas that would chip away at his KSW "tigers". "Theetie-wheetie" ideas like respecting others religious beliefs, not doing to others what one wouldn't want to have happen to self, treating people with consideration, compassion, etc.
It wouldn't have had any great effect and would have just been pulled out like "What is Greatness" every now and then to show what a humanitarian and friend of mankind Ron was.
Except the evil SP David Mayo took up what the book said as a real, genuine statement of scientology's position. He was known for often reading "What is Greatness" to himself whenever things got tough for him on his post as Ron's right-hand tech man.
So he committed the Suppressive Act of creating the Happiness Rundown specifically designed to allow people to follow "theetie-wheetie" modes of behaviour, based upon Ron's precepts in the booklet.
Because of his unchallenged position as the senior tech person, his Rundown was trialled and developed and implimented throughout the CofS. It was trumpeted as the greatest Scn action ever developed and "tigers" like me were routed on to the new training course.
At last! It was ok to have my earlier attitudes from before Scn. And we co-audited the rundown. Even worse for Ron, we audited out all the false Scn concepts that had been overlaid on our basic spiritual and ethical natures that Ron had worked so hard to suppress in us!
At last it was ok to be "theetie-wheetie" again and see the basic goodness in the world.

Because of the nature of Mayo's tech, I no longer carried Hubbard's vision of the world and the evil inherent in it!
It's another story really, but this had an effect at the group level and resulted in the schism of 82 where the "tigers" (RTC) threw out almost all HRD auditors and PCs and the dedicated stare Hubbardites took over the CofS. This was an inevitable consequence of the Rundown.
But on the personal level I had stronger than ever theetie-wheetie ideas about the world and it turned out to be a much more powerful thing than Hubbard's tiger had ever been.
At the centre of me there was a strength I had never known, based upon love and compassion and joy of the miracle of life!
The CofS declared me a Suprressive Person and although a painful thing to go through, David Mayo had actually sprung me free from the cold, heartless dead thing that was the scientology personality.
I then studied metaphysics, spiritual schools and other releasing type techniques.
Gosh! I'm not sure any of this is any help to you, Human Again! :confused2:
I suppose what I am saying is first step is don't deny the so-called "theetie-wheetie" aspects of your self. Don't use the put-down scn term or any derogatory alternative like "airy-fairy" either. If we use a derogatory term, then that is a supression or resistence to the things that might be the very core of us!
So I would suggest thinking about these sides of your self in a positive way. Maybe coin a positive descriptive word for them.
If you deny these aspects of yourself to yourself, then you will certainly be reluctant to talk to others and your clients about them.
So I would love, admire and allow whatever your attributes are. The truly spiritual is so suppressed and controlled by Scn that it takes a positive change in our attitude to undo this conditioning.
I hope that helps and that others can help you too. If you want I can give the steps used in Mayo's techniques. These days, I wouldn't recommend any sort of auditing based upon Hubbard tech, but the basic steps could probably be used as points of contemplation towards a freeing up of one's spiritual, noble nature.
