Voltaire's Child
Fool on the Hill
We know that the cult chews people up. It's no surprise to anyone here, whether former SO, former Mission or Class V Org staff or former long time public, that staff are treated horribly.
I'm very sure that many here know far more than I do about this and have seen more.
All the same, though, it's hit me hard today. I was chatting with some good friends of mine about someone I used to know. I never was close to this person but what communication I did have with her was really nice. I know that she was dedicated. She, sadly, is no longer with us. That makes me sad. But what makes me sadder is that evidently she was literally hungry when in the cult. Now, bear with me. I know that a lot of people in the SO are given shitty rations and have reported being hungry, half starved. And I know that other staff and public often are in dire financial straits, too. This should not come as news to me that someone was hungry. But somehow it's hit me. I'm sorry, I'm just crying.
And what hurts even more? Some people who are still in the cult are making excuses for it. Does that come as a surprise? No.
I guess I'm just not inured to it. I guess that's good cuz then I'd be jaded. I don't want to be jaded.
Fuck. I'm signing off. I'm crying. I can't stand this.
I'm very sure that many here know far more than I do about this and have seen more.
All the same, though, it's hit me hard today. I was chatting with some good friends of mine about someone I used to know. I never was close to this person but what communication I did have with her was really nice. I know that she was dedicated. She, sadly, is no longer with us. That makes me sad. But what makes me sadder is that evidently she was literally hungry when in the cult. Now, bear with me. I know that a lot of people in the SO are given shitty rations and have reported being hungry, half starved. And I know that other staff and public often are in dire financial straits, too. This should not come as news to me that someone was hungry. But somehow it's hit me. I'm sorry, I'm just crying.
And what hurts even more? Some people who are still in the cult are making excuses for it. Does that come as a surprise? No.
I guess I'm just not inured to it. I guess that's good cuz then I'd be jaded. I don't want to be jaded.
Fuck. I'm signing off. I'm crying. I can't stand this.