I do recall a lenghthy conversation that he and I had over lunch one day in D.C. It was all about flying saucers, UFOs, and aliens. He kept asking me what would their purpose be ( in coming to earth).
Chlng
Oh, he believed in a higher power, all right. He spent the last years of his life avoiding it, on the run and in hiding.
I think LRH had enough experience to see that its INTENTIONS that are running things in the cosmos. One of the old OT levels I believe was "Spot some things that are
intending something..." (or something like that.) You cannot go through life and not see that some things are definitely controlling other things. I believe he decided he'd rather be the one
doing the controlling rather than at effect point. One of Aleister Crowley's tactics was assuming the GOD viewpoint. This was to be done with absolute presumption of one's rightness to do so. If you go into areas of track where there is no one any longer intending or controlling things, like after a revolution or interplanetary catastrophe, you at first see the chaos. Then someone
always steps up to plate to claim themselves the new power and tries to establish the LAW....or re-establish it. The LAW handed down by themselves, or Moses, or some Sumerian lizard GOD or whatever....I'm talking about some dynamics having dominion over other dynamics. Is this natural order or is it POSTULATES of survival of the fittest?
Looking into the Excalibur procedures as described by L. Kin or the processing of higher and higher goals on an heirarchical chain (Aspectics), it becomes evident that control drifts down form a line of
command intention. These intentions are standing and often timeless.
I was impressed with the David Mayo Sunday talk regarding Scientologists not believing much in a higher power but who arrived into the subject with a goal to become more like gods. He pointed out the downside to this and
his belief that in life there was such a thing as
"Goodness". It struck me that this idea has credibiliity
. To me this is almost tangible. Even if the overt/ motivator sequence is only a
mechanism we agree upon to keep civilaztions good and intact... there is such a thing as
GOODNESS!
I can tell you that one time a long long time ago, I was recruited by a group who set themselves up as CAUSE over the
forces of life. These were a Babylonian breed who existed paratially in and somewhat
out of our timestream. I did not gain much tenure in that capacity. Like Mickey Mouse in
The Sorcerer's Apprentice I was in
way over my head. It was someplace I really didn't want to BE. I fled the group.. There is a soul-sickening degredation that follows the likes of the necromancer around and leaves him caked dull with the essences of life who's self-determinisms are usurped and the life forces that have been cannibalized.. (
like LRH?)
You cannot set yourself up as the CONTROLLER and the point of CAUSATION forever without incurring the penalty of not being able to drink a breath of life from the TRUE higher power.
I experienced tremendous grief as I felt my own life force darken and go null. But something unexpected by me was to follow at length. It fell silently ... a washing away, a bestowing of benevolence and goodness upon me which left me amazed.. I can only describe it as a decsending GRACE.... I was left whole again. All of my ARC breaks with life were washed away from me....
like it never even happened. I did not incur any karma and there were no amends. I became like
new. I will never, ever,
ever forget this saving grace granted to me. I can only describe it as
GOODNESS.