clearcat
Patron with Honors
I have been in Scientology for over ten years. I have seen people die, people leave their partners and go broke. This is my story.
When a close friend of mine died of an accident in 1984 I started to search for answers. 5 years later I found Scientology. I went on lines and started a program with study, reading LRH books and auditing. I found answers to my questions, I learned a lot of practical things I could use in every day life.
In 1990/91 I went to FLAG to have a break from the misery of my marriage and wanted to do the Key to Life course. After arriving there I changed my mind and went on the Clear Certainty Rundown which I finished and attested to the State of "Clear" in January 1991. I went back to my country, got divorced and worked part time in one of the Orgs while having a full time job during the day.
When you start working on staff in an org you are an expediter and they put you where ever someone is needed. Sunday nights after 10pm was Cleaning Station, and I found myself cleaning floors on my knees. I don't have any problems with physical work, but it was quite degrading. I worked 3 units of 2 ½ hours plus study time per week, and my pay checks per week were usually around $7,50. Most of the full time staff were moonlighting, otherwise they could not have survived on the small pay they were getting. I still admire these dedicated people.
After 3 months I resigned and went on with my own life. In 1994 I decided to move to the US. I met a lot of people at FLAG, went to all kinds of events and committees. Then I met another Scientologist and we fell in love. He was an Ex-Sea Org Member, one of the friendliest beings I have ever met. We had a great relationship and lived together for about 1 ½ years. After a year being into our relationship he told me that he had an out ethics situation that he was trying to handle and complete but he was not allowed to be on the base. I went in and talked to the MAA, to OSA, to the Chaplain. I wrote letters to David Miscavige, Guilleaume Lesevre, the Int'l Justice Chief.
I got standard answers with no answer, and finally one day a letter arrived for my friend with this SP Declare. End of story, end of our relationship, and I think it was already the end of my belief in Scientology's so-called "Justice System". Here was a person who was desperately trying to solve a specific situation, and got denied even the most basic humanity: Communication. He moved away, we were not allowed to talk to each other anymore and I was still trying to get help.
But still I stuck with it, went on with my life, was a good parishioner and participated in a lot of volunteer work. Next thing I know is that another friend of mine, OT8 left the Church. A bunch of Germans got declared all over sudden, another friend of mine, OT5 died of cancer, then the Lisa McPherson case, and finally I received an email with Virginia's and Mike's story. When I saw that Greg and Debra Barnes had the same problems when trying to apply KSW Series 1, and got declared, I finally woke up.
I started to look outside the Scientology world and "confronted the evil" that a parishioner is actually not allowed to look at. I found out, that all copyrights to L. Ron Hubbards works, originally put into Norman Starkey's hands as trustee were all transferred to a so-called "Church of Spiritual Technology" whose board members were people like Meade Emory who had worked as a IRS commissioner's assistant, and Sherman Lenske, a non-scientologist attorney.
I looked into the Management-Series Volumes and found that 129 references alone were revised after January 1986, when LRH died, and 55 were newly issued after that date. I continued to look, bought an old ethics book and compared it to the newest version. Boy, was I surprised about the wasp's nest of alterations I was digging into. Fortunately I was lucky of never buying into the reg's sales techniques. I stuck with my integrity on finances and only spend money for services, courses or materials when I was able to and wanted it. I know of people who have put themselves into a debt situation they could not control anymore and ended up with suicide.
I remember being on a chaplain's cycle with auditing when I was called to come in right away because the DofP wanted to see me urgently. It turned out the whole thing was about regging me for the Sea Org. I spend an hours in the DofP's office listening to all the reasons why I should join. I have not experienced such dramatic incidents as many of those who have left, but enough was enough.
I took some time to make a final decision - to leave this organization that puts on its FLAG to set people free. Truth is, you are in a mind prison. If you do not agree with their rules and beliefs 100% you have to go through security checks, wait for hours to see the MAA and in the end you are not free anymore because you are punished if you think outside Scientology. A free person has a choice, in Scientology you have no choice other than to run with it. If you don't, you will be punished and expelled.
I found later more alterations, and one of the most important one is that the "Code of Honor" is changed. One passage that stated earlier "Never regret yesterday. You are now and create your tomorrow" is changed now into "Never regret yesterday. You are now and your tomorrow is made." Get it? I am a free person, I always was and will be because I chose freedom and decide for myself and take the responsibility for my decisions. And I defined the famous Scientology term "SP- Suppressive Person" new: SP- Sane Person.
So there you have it...
When a close friend of mine died of an accident in 1984 I started to search for answers. 5 years later I found Scientology. I went on lines and started a program with study, reading LRH books and auditing. I found answers to my questions, I learned a lot of practical things I could use in every day life.
In 1990/91 I went to FLAG to have a break from the misery of my marriage and wanted to do the Key to Life course. After arriving there I changed my mind and went on the Clear Certainty Rundown which I finished and attested to the State of "Clear" in January 1991. I went back to my country, got divorced and worked part time in one of the Orgs while having a full time job during the day.
When you start working on staff in an org you are an expediter and they put you where ever someone is needed. Sunday nights after 10pm was Cleaning Station, and I found myself cleaning floors on my knees. I don't have any problems with physical work, but it was quite degrading. I worked 3 units of 2 ½ hours plus study time per week, and my pay checks per week were usually around $7,50. Most of the full time staff were moonlighting, otherwise they could not have survived on the small pay they were getting. I still admire these dedicated people.
After 3 months I resigned and went on with my own life. In 1994 I decided to move to the US. I met a lot of people at FLAG, went to all kinds of events and committees. Then I met another Scientologist and we fell in love. He was an Ex-Sea Org Member, one of the friendliest beings I have ever met. We had a great relationship and lived together for about 1 ½ years. After a year being into our relationship he told me that he had an out ethics situation that he was trying to handle and complete but he was not allowed to be on the base. I went in and talked to the MAA, to OSA, to the Chaplain. I wrote letters to David Miscavige, Guilleaume Lesevre, the Int'l Justice Chief.
I got standard answers with no answer, and finally one day a letter arrived for my friend with this SP Declare. End of story, end of our relationship, and I think it was already the end of my belief in Scientology's so-called "Justice System". Here was a person who was desperately trying to solve a specific situation, and got denied even the most basic humanity: Communication. He moved away, we were not allowed to talk to each other anymore and I was still trying to get help.
But still I stuck with it, went on with my life, was a good parishioner and participated in a lot of volunteer work. Next thing I know is that another friend of mine, OT8 left the Church. A bunch of Germans got declared all over sudden, another friend of mine, OT5 died of cancer, then the Lisa McPherson case, and finally I received an email with Virginia's and Mike's story. When I saw that Greg and Debra Barnes had the same problems when trying to apply KSW Series 1, and got declared, I finally woke up.
I started to look outside the Scientology world and "confronted the evil" that a parishioner is actually not allowed to look at. I found out, that all copyrights to L. Ron Hubbards works, originally put into Norman Starkey's hands as trustee were all transferred to a so-called "Church of Spiritual Technology" whose board members were people like Meade Emory who had worked as a IRS commissioner's assistant, and Sherman Lenske, a non-scientologist attorney.
I looked into the Management-Series Volumes and found that 129 references alone were revised after January 1986, when LRH died, and 55 were newly issued after that date. I continued to look, bought an old ethics book and compared it to the newest version. Boy, was I surprised about the wasp's nest of alterations I was digging into. Fortunately I was lucky of never buying into the reg's sales techniques. I stuck with my integrity on finances and only spend money for services, courses or materials when I was able to and wanted it. I know of people who have put themselves into a debt situation they could not control anymore and ended up with suicide.
I remember being on a chaplain's cycle with auditing when I was called to come in right away because the DofP wanted to see me urgently. It turned out the whole thing was about regging me for the Sea Org. I spend an hours in the DofP's office listening to all the reasons why I should join. I have not experienced such dramatic incidents as many of those who have left, but enough was enough.
I took some time to make a final decision - to leave this organization that puts on its FLAG to set people free. Truth is, you are in a mind prison. If you do not agree with their rules and beliefs 100% you have to go through security checks, wait for hours to see the MAA and in the end you are not free anymore because you are punished if you think outside Scientology. A free person has a choice, in Scientology you have no choice other than to run with it. If you don't, you will be punished and expelled.
I found later more alterations, and one of the most important one is that the "Code of Honor" is changed. One passage that stated earlier "Never regret yesterday. You are now and create your tomorrow" is changed now into "Never regret yesterday. You are now and your tomorrow is made." Get it? I am a free person, I always was and will be because I chose freedom and decide for myself and take the responsibility for my decisions. And I defined the famous Scientology term "SP- Suppressive Person" new: SP- Sane Person.
So there you have it...
I love your definition of SP, and may I now announce that I am in fact the biggest SP on this forum! 
.. which makes the rest of you.. ins......
- on that point I was a miserable failure.
Am still proud of it...
