thetaCannon
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As I read people's testimonies here about Freezone auditing or their experiences with the Bridge, I find myself more and more convinced that the end result of Scientology and Dianetics is not a desirable one.
At first, I would scan "believer" posts for traces of rare wisdom that might just reveal Scientology's cosmic paradigm to be useful after all. Just the opposite, I now find myself skipping over posts by believers because they spout such utterly pointless SHIT!
So, I want to say a big THANK YOU to ESMB for getting me to the point where I finally feel the possibility of being cured of L. Ron Hubbard's godly sway.
Yes, I do still find it "interesting" that auditing processes "work" in the sense that they give temporary relief and have novel mental effects... and I still think they warrant being distilled out into a set of proper experiments to see what exactly is happening and why.
But reading so many people credulously spout these fractured and far-fetched statements (so many of them conflicting, no less) about pre-MEST memories and GPMs and whatever else, is all doing a very effective job of curing me of what little faith I had in Scientology's ability to IMPROVE rather than just CHANGE people. Truly, they all just sound like a bunch of babbling idiots.
And so, I reach the conclusion that where Scientology is involved, change really does not equal improvement. And that's really thanks to ESMB moreso than any anti-COS website, book or blog.
I still struggle at times because I actually really love The New Grammar and Scientology 8-80, and find a lot of Hubbard's practical wisdom to be really useful (or at least instructive on what an asshole might do, in case you want to avoid that).
But a few gems is not enough to excuse the massive rip-off and mind mushing bullshit that makes up the rest of his life's work.
Thanks again to all the very sane and lucid people who post here and make the believers look like insufferable wankers.
At first, I would scan "believer" posts for traces of rare wisdom that might just reveal Scientology's cosmic paradigm to be useful after all. Just the opposite, I now find myself skipping over posts by believers because they spout such utterly pointless SHIT!
So, I want to say a big THANK YOU to ESMB for getting me to the point where I finally feel the possibility of being cured of L. Ron Hubbard's godly sway.
Yes, I do still find it "interesting" that auditing processes "work" in the sense that they give temporary relief and have novel mental effects... and I still think they warrant being distilled out into a set of proper experiments to see what exactly is happening and why.
But reading so many people credulously spout these fractured and far-fetched statements (so many of them conflicting, no less) about pre-MEST memories and GPMs and whatever else, is all doing a very effective job of curing me of what little faith I had in Scientology's ability to IMPROVE rather than just CHANGE people. Truly, they all just sound like a bunch of babbling idiots.
And so, I reach the conclusion that where Scientology is involved, change really does not equal improvement. And that's really thanks to ESMB moreso than any anti-COS website, book or blog.
I still struggle at times because I actually really love The New Grammar and Scientology 8-80, and find a lot of Hubbard's practical wisdom to be really useful (or at least instructive on what an asshole might do, in case you want to avoid that).
But a few gems is not enough to excuse the massive rip-off and mind mushing bullshit that makes up the rest of his life's work.
Thanks again to all the very sane and lucid people who post here and make the believers look like insufferable wankers.