Yeah, well I think you hit the nail on the head there about why we part company at this point.
I desperately needed OT2. I mean I needed that. It wouldn't have been there without LRH's Bridge. There have been many other things that were good in Scn, life changing, but this one I needed.
At some point you may find it worthwhile to examine what (in this lifetime, in Scientology) led to your mental state of "desperation" prior to doing, and during, "OT 2."