So here goes. Just decided a few days ago. Can't get off the internet after finally allowing myself to look at it. And you know what? I didn't get ill, go insane, or die when I visited these supposedly "evil" sites. I DID find a lot of info they didn't want me to see. And I DID experience a tremendous amout of waking up and relief. And that feeling of "How could I have been so STUPID?"
I haven't told family or friends yet. I'm still getting calls for events, and having discussions with the people who call me.
But I can say I'm definitely out now.
One, two, three, four! I'm not brainwashed anymore!
I'm free now to think whatever thoughts I want. Gone is the cringing fear of mind-rape ethics interviews.
My biggest fear is getting declared. I was in for 8 years, off and on staff, then requested to leave. They wouldn't give me a sec-check, said no one was available to do it, but I was still expected to be on post month after month. So I finally just left. They threatened me with a declare, but I still wouldn't come back. Finally they said they would do the sec-check but that I needed to purchase 25 hrs of auditing as "set-ups". I said no. I haven't heard back yet.
Is getting declared as terrifying as I've been mind-controlled into believing it is? Will I get harassed?
Snuffy