Perhaps I'm being overly harsh. I acted out of compassion and a desire to help, as well. The longer I was there, the more I believed our failures as an org were due to "out KSW", meaning "knowing the correct technology". I really wanted to become the org Establishment Officer so that I could correct "hatting" problems and we could do better, earn more, have more of an impact on society, etc. I could see that becoming a method by which I could be transformed into an ogre.