Scientology the Lazy Man's religion
This was a post I wrote over 4 years ago. It explains why I got into
Scn and stayed for so long. If you click on the link, you'll see a wonderful
and inspiring reply to my post from Kristi Wachter.
http://www.whyaretheydead.info/krasel/Cerri_Kristi.html
Newsgroups: alt.religion.scientology
Date: 13 Jul 2004 19:16:20 -0000
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Subject: Gardening
Every once in a while in this unindoctrination process I just take a
break from it all.
I've been on a break for a bit. You may have noticed that the Comp
lists don't come out quite as fast and furious as before That's
because I started getting interested in other things.
One of thing main things I got interested in was gardening. I had no
idea how much work and how much fun gardening was. I always
thought you just bought some plants, stuck them in the ground,
watered them every so often, and voila! A garden.
I was truly surprised to find out that there are all kinds of do's and
don't, as well as planting, watering, feeding, pruning and weeding.
Don't even mention the subject of aphids to me!
I've gone so far as to subscribe to a gardening newsgroup!
Aside from the beautiful flowers and lovely view that gardening
provides, it is also a wonderful time for reflection.
The past 4 years have been wonderful and horrible. Wonderful because
I have gotten rid of so much of the Scientology mindset. Wonderful,
because I am not afraid to listen, look and learn about new things
any more. Wonderful because I have established wonderful
relationships with "Wogs". ;-)
I love my wog friends and I love my friends that still consider
themselves Scientologists both in and out of the Church.
I no longer consider myself a Scientologist, but I also know that I am
not and will never be a Wog. Actually, I take that back. I can't
say I will never be a wog, because 4 years ago, I would never
have thought that I would no longer identify myself as a Scientologist.
There is still much about me that is a Scientologist, and I think
those are some of the good things
. I've really worked hard at
getting rid of what I thought were the bad Scientology behaviors.
However, I have learned to never say never. I also have
no idea if the unindoctrination ever ends. I think it might
and then in its place I may start to evolve more and more of
my own ideas.
My viewpoint on many, many things has changed drastically but it has
not been easy. The hard part is dealing with how fucking stupid
I've been for so long. It's really hard on the self esteem.
It's tough to confront that you've been that stupid for that long. It
can be truly depressing. So I got to thinking about it. I was
wondering why did I agree? Why did I allow myself to go
along for so long. Why did I fail to see though the lies? Why
was I oblivious to what is obvious to most everyone
else?
Scientology was a promise of what I thought "could be" .
I agreed because I had this spiritual quest that gave me all the
answers. And I think that was the hook for me. "All the answers".
Scientology is the lazy man's religion. It requires no thinking, no
researching, no further looking. It's all bundled up for you in a
nice neat package, thanks to "Source", or LRH
And I bought the package and refused to look, research or think
because I was too lazy to even bother.
I guess what I am doing now is I am finally bothering. Instead of
taking everything Hubbard says as gospel. I look it over and say is this a good
thing or is this fucked up Indoc stuff. Quite a bit has been tossed to
the compost. ;-)
Oh well. It's been a definite learning experience. Too bad it took
me so long to catch a clue, but I sure am happy that I finally did.
The ARSCC is by far one of the more fun and interesting group of
people that I have ever known. I even enjoy the ones that piss me
off. Even though I disagree with the views of some members, I still
read and listen to them because I want to make sure I never fall in to
a "I know it all point of view again". It occurred to me that to only
have dealings with people that completely agree with you all the
time is a bad thing.
Actually, being with people that agree with you all the time is lazy
and lazy thinking has the potential of leading you to cult thinking.
I love ars. What I treasure most about the ARSCC is that its members
are all so very different. So many different points of views, so many
different characters, and behind the scenes intrigue. It's totally
addictive. To admit otherwise is being a fraud ;-)
Thanks to each and every one of you for your contribution and
assistance. My life has been bettered by being in this wild and
crazy place.
Ok time to do more weeding ;-)
--
Cerridwen
Believe those who are seeking the truth. Doubt those who find it.
- Andre Gide
NOTE: UPDATE: Jan 7, 20101 I'm a hard core wog.