What was the last straw for you?

Free Being Me

Crusader
As a staff member, I didn't see $ci expanding, I didn't see people yearning for $ci or even willing to talk about the subject (late 90's) at least positively. I was working full time and staff at night. I was getting burned out physically. Really looking at the grade chart and costs, going up the bridge seemed like a wealthy vanity. I think the last straw was realizing that Hub wanted the entire world to be an on policy $ci world, KSW with ethics and justice as Hub's dream of an ideal society. I began wondering what kind of world this would be like. I blew my post and was declared.
 

Ulf K. Maier

Patron Meritorious
For me it was...

the CMO IXU folder cull project at ITO, "readying" executive trainees to their trip to and final briefing at Gold Base.

At first, I thought it was all hunky dory, and " this is what is takes to go over the rainbow", etc. Gradually, it dawned on me, after seeing the checklists, the sec checking, the physical folder culls, life histories, blah blah blah, that RTC just had way too much to keep secret. I understood about the need for security for the upper level materials, but for the SO execs themselves? "What could they be hiding?" I asked myself.

Well, I had to leave ITO after this, as there was no way I could get asked about thinking that thought in a sec check and continue in Scientology, much less go up to Int. I went back to my Cl V org after that, and it was never the same. They tried to give me an HCO sec check, and I told the auditor where he could stick the cans.

I left altogether some months later and never once looked back.
 

SirRalliart

Patron with Honors
As a staff member, I didn't see $ci expanding, I didn't see people yearning for $ci or even willing to talk about the subject (late 90's) at least positively. I was working full time and staff at night. I was getting burned out physically. Really looking at the grade chart and costs, going up the bridge seemed like a wealthy vanity. I think the last straw was realizing that Hub wanted the entire world to be an on policy $ci world, KSW with ethics and justice as Hub's dream of an ideal society. I began wondering what kind of world this would be like. I blew my post and was declared.

I was in the same boat, but I went the opposite way. I blew my 11-year career with a Fortune 100 company and went on staff full-full time. I consider that the biggest mistake of my life! I was $90K in Credit Card debt and quit a $65K job to make far less than the poverty level. I must've checked my intelligence at the door.

Within 2 years I blew right through my 401K, filed bankruptcy and got married and divorced. Why I stuck with it for an additional 10 years beyond that is beyond me. Hell, I was even on Food Stamps for a while. A SNR C/S on Food Stamps???? C'mon, man!
 

crm1978

Patron with Honors
Anyone wanting to sell books might want to hurry because if scn goes belly up they might not get much for them.One thing I would bet on is that sadly the price will be much less then you paid and that you and me and many others will have that we been had feeling for some time:angry:
 

Auditor's Toad

Clear as Mud
Our local library refused all scn books as they already had way too many coming in and were having to put them in the dumpster.

Our local Goodwill flat out said " NO ! Not those ! You can NOT unload those here! "

My guess is the cult is picking up a bad smellto their name at an increasing fast pace.

:thumbsup::clap::happydance::dance2::fly::itstrue::bravo::mindblow::headspin::winner::wiggle::alien2::alien2::alien2::alien2::alien2:
 

dianaclass8

Silver Meritorious Patron
Our local library refused all scn books as they already had way too many coming in and were having to put them in the dumpster.

Our local Goodwill flat out said " NO ! Not those ! You can NOT unload those here! "

My guess is the cult is picking up a bad smellto their name at an increasing fast pace.

:thumbsup::clap::happydance::dance2::fly::itstrue::bravo::mindblow::headspin::winner::wiggle::alien2::alien2::alien2::alien2::alien2:

Many years ago I bought a whole set of the blue vols for only $4 at my local library...
 

dianaclass8

Silver Meritorious Patron
2 thoughts;

1) That's quite a deal, considering what Scn'ists usually charge on EBay for that.

2) I actually really like the Blue volumes.

Yes, I got a lot of books at the library for real cheap...I also bought a bunch of Fundamentals of Thought for only .75 Cents at one of those .99 cents and up stores...and to think that I never donated for the library project...he he he :biggrin:

I like those vols too...
 

Jachs

Gold Meritorious Patron
Yes, I got a lot of books at the library for real cheap...I also bought a bunch of Fundamentals of Thought for only .75 Cents at one of those .99 cents and up stores...and to think that I never donated for the library project...he he he

I like those vols too... [/QUOTE]



Youll have to let Scio know, so they can enforce the Price engram policy (think there is Pain and unconsciousness in that engram- whats the command i wonder?) and declare the libraries as suppressive.

Price engram , whenever you have a contra command dictating to get a discount, its not you its your Reactive mind, Ron said so, must be true, he was the sanest OT.Laid in by the pychs just after OT3 and pain and sex.

Those devil sychs.
 
My final straw was not having any communication from my parents except "have you gone down to the org??". This was after being in the SO as a 15 year old kid (horrible time) being in the RPF, labeled as a PTS type C for over two years and not being able to talk to my family at all!!, having org members come to my home over and over and over again reg'ing me for $$$, and trying to handle my dad not being a dad through the church and nothing being done, especially after they told me they are aware of the situation, and had been for years. Plus several other sits too.
 

Moosejewels

Patron Meritorious
OMG. I can so relate to that. There were so many times I felt Hubbard seemed quite creepy. Then I heard everyone gush about him, and thought something had to be wrong with ME. I went with my 'overts' instead of my reactive mind as the reason I was seeing something wrong with our mighty leader :notworthy:

but, yeah, I "handled it" in "my universe" too. :faceslap:

I can recall an incident where I was lookng at that standard LRH photo that was hung on any and every org wall. The one with his chin resting in his hand and that creepy sneer peering at all of us un-knowing marks in the academy. I had just, perchance, seen some photos of he and his "handmaidens and other messenger corp members". I was thinking, what is this great man doing hanging around with all these very young cuties. He's the head of my "church." But at that moment I thought the photos and article I had seen were projecting an image of a pervert. :nervous:
Of course I immediately quashed that thought and was seriously concerned for my own welfare. How I could have such an evil SP kind of thought. What the hell's wrong with me. All these years later I look back on those thoughts. Hey. I might be an SP, but is it possible my insights back then may have been quite correct ? One of many straws that I experienced.
:confused2:
 

smartone

My Own Boss
A friend of mine was going through a terrible time and the org kept contacting her. I remembered thinking that it was strange that the org never offered to help her for free. There was no common kindness from the group at all. All they wanted was her money.
 

TN1972

New Member
For me it was a trip home to visit my father on my birthday. Being away from it for a weekend let me see it for the insanity that it was. When I came back I took steps to move back home with my dad.

I was a senior in high school and moved away for Scientology. My father didn't come with us, so it was 'easy' to go back to him.

I say 'easy' because that decision to come back home to graduate from High School is when the real insanity started.
 

LoneWolf

Patron
The Last Straw

I needed to take a LOA from the BC, so I got on the LOA routing form. I thought this would be simple since I was on a routing form. I don’t remember the exact sequence of terminals but I went thru the Crs sup, D of T, Qual, Ethics and back to the D of T. Below each terminal listed on the routing form were the exact steps that were to be done. Everything was going great until I got back to the D of T. I was waiting in the office when this young SO chick came out and asked me what I needed. I showed her the routing form. She looked at it and said, “Come with me.” So, like a good boy, I followed. By the way, this was not the D of T. I had never seen her before. She went to the BC and talked to the crs sup. Next thing I knew, my twin and I were in the film room watching the Orientation Film. Ok, so big deal –although this was not on the routing form. After the film, my twin returned to course and I went back to the D of T per the routing form. The same SO babe was in the office talking to the D of T excitedly about how she was going to be heading up “sector 15 of the planet” and in charge of this and in charge of that. When she saw me, she asked why I was not on course. I showed her the routing form. She asked what my cognition was from the Orientation Film. I said I didn’t have one. Long story short: I had to watch the film 4 more times trying to keep my twin awake and wondering WTF! She asked me for any realizations. I said I needed to get back on course. I finished the day and the next morning I got on a Routing Out of the Org RF. This was an amazingly short form. The last terminal was the captain of ASHO. He asked me why I had to route out and to see my success story (which was required on the routing form). I had written a big VGI lie and told him I was going to Flag. Amazingly he bought it and I was OUT!
 

freethinker

Sponsor
I got a reply letter from ED Int (unsigned) that said the reason I had to join WISE was in the Ethics Book. It had not been there before the Basics edition, so I googled WISE.

Three months later, after reading all that I could, it was clear that Scientology was rediculous.
 

Outethicsofficer

Silver Meritorious Patron
Outside of the abuse against my daughter when she was in the SO, the jaw dropping moment for me was after I plucked up the nerve to go online and find Hubbards death cert and then a picture of Hubbard in a state of degradation and that he had physical conditions ailing him...just the same as anyone else. And here he, the OT of all OT's, had all this going on...fuck me that was it. I was out of there! And you could not pay me enough to touch it again!


http://www.lermanet.com/scientology/l-ron-hubbard-coroners-report-complete.pdf
 

Idle Morgue

Gold Meritorious Patron
Debbie Cook's e-mail. :happydance:It landed in my lap and I was not even looking. Of course, there had been a string of outpoints I had already experienced over the past 5 years, however, it was my fault and I was responsible and perhaps when I was OT8, I would figure out what I was doing to create all the gross Organizational errors. :ohmy:

Well, after I read that e-mail, my suspicions were validated. I got on the internet and read everything I could get my hands on. I realized I had been totally duped. The Church of Scientology is a complete and utter failure, it is a destructive group specializing in doing people in. :yes:

I am very grateful for all of you out there to help us heal from this horrible experience. I read about Aleister Crowley and Lafatty Hubbturd's friend Mr. Pastor, the whole biography Scientology does not let anyone know about. I looked at all of the documented facts on the internet. I realized that my sanity and real spiritual freedom lays a head of me OUTSIDE the doors of Scientology.

I looked and looked and looked at the facts. I looked at the statistics of the Group of Scientologist's. I witnessed criminal behavior from the very top of the Organization. I see this group is very unethical overall. I see that the only thing they are really clearing is their buildings and people's wallets.

I read 'Inside Scientology' by Janet Reitman. :wow::wow:

This took a short period of time. I burned all of the materials - everything with Hubbtoad's name on it. I feel it is far too dangerous to allow anyone innocent victim to get this stuff and get tempted to get roped in like I did.

I felt it was an effective blow to destroy everything I owned written by RON the nut! It feels good to be completely away from the crazy cult and back into the real world. It is a beautiful world. I love life and am looking forward to my very bright future! :happydance::cloud9::cheerleader::party::love11::love8::love2::dance2:I get to be whoever I decide to be, have whatever I want and do whatever I deem to be in my best interests!
 

Outethicsofficer

Silver Meritorious Patron
Debbie Cook's e-mail. :happydance:It landed in my lap and I was not even looking. Of course, there had been a string of outpoints I had already experienced over the past 5 years, however, it was my fault and I was responsible and perhaps when I was OT8, I would figure out what I was doing to create all the gross Organizational errors. :ohmy:

Well, after I read that e-mail, my suspicions were validated. I got on the internet and read everything I could get my hands on. I realized I had been totally duped. The Church of Scientology is a complete and utter failure, it is a destructive group specializing in doing people in. :yes:

I am very grateful for all of you out there to help us heal from this horrible experience. I read about Aleister Crowley and Lafatty Hubbturd's friend Mr. Pastor, the whole biography Scientology does not let anyone know about. I looked at all of the documented facts on the internet. I realized that my sanity and real spiritual freedom lays a head of me OUTSIDE the doors of Scientology.

I looked and looked and looked at the facts. I looked at the statistics of the Group of Scientologist's. I witnessed criminal behavior from the very top of the Organization. I see this group is very unethical overall. I see that the only thing they are really clearing is their buildings and people's wallets.

I read 'Inside Scientology' by Janet Reitman. :wow::wow:

This took a short period of time. I burned all of the materials - everything with Hubbtoad's name on it. I feel it is far too dangerous to allow anyone innocent victim to get this stuff and get tempted to get roped in like I did.

I felt it was an effective blow to destroy everything I owned written by RON the nut! It feels good to be completely away from the crazy cult and back into the real world. It is a beautiful world. I love life and am looking forward to my very bright future! :happydance::cloud9::cheerleader::party::love11::love8::love2::dance2:I get to be whoever I decide to be, have whatever I want and do whatever I deem to be in my best interests!

What a great post, no mucking around for on your part well done. We too got rid of everything. The whole place felt better for it too!

James
 
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