As a staff member, I didn't see $ci expanding, I didn't see people yearning for $ci or even willing to talk about the subject (late 90's) at least positively. I was working full time and staff at night. I was getting burned out physically. Really looking at the grade chart and costs, going up the bridge seemed like a wealthy vanity. I think the last straw was realizing that Hub wanted the entire world to be an on policy $ci world, KSW with ethics and justice as Hub's dream of an ideal society. I began wondering what kind of world this would be like. I blew my post and was declared.