What were some of your most exhilarating moments while you were still IN ?

[KissMyStats]

I was thinking about routing forms earlier.

One for one, when I got that last signature on a routing form meaning I was done with the service and could walk out the door and not be scheduled for anything (course or auditing) even if just for a few days or weeks...........I felt like had escaped from prison. And this is when I was TOTALLY in. (in my own prison)

And when I decided I would never again ever pick up a pair of cans (except if I was going to eat what was inside of it) .....now that was exhilarating for me. Of course, in my mind I was out then.

Anybody else experience this feeling.....esp. at Flag when you know that nobody is after you anymore........at least for a short time until your next refresher. Ugh.

 

[Kutta]

I've posted about this before, but here goes again.

I'd been sent from SHUK to flag to train as a NOTs auditor. Didn't want to be there, hated it vehemently, hated being berthed like a rabbit in a cage, hated the massive cockroaches that crawled out of the air conditioner next to my bunk. I was sick to the stomach about leaving my kids, knew it would take sooooooo long, if ever, to get to be a NOTS auditor. My passport had been taken. I felt like a possum in one of those cruel, deadly traps that snap shut and leave the animal there to die.

One day it all got too much and I started crying on course and couldn't stop. Was sent to ethics and did an all night stint in the kitchen, almost passing out in the over 100 degree heat.

Next day I got my mojo back. Went to the little ethics officer and informed him I wasn't in that condition (whatever it was). Somehow it was decided that I would be sent back to the UK — just had to wait for my ticket to be organized.

So there I was in sunny Florida, knowing now that I was on my way back. Nobody appeared to know what I was doing; nobody kept tabs on me.

Yippee! While I waited, I went to the beach, got a suntan, cruised around the place, stole food from the afternoon tea trolley put out for public, slept whenever I felt like it.

Boy, was I exhilarated. I felt like I'd beaten the ogres, slayed the giant, won the war. It was a euphoric, triumphant feeling of power over almighty oppressors, the fuckers who thought it was a good idea to separate me from my kids and pack me off to the other side of the world.

I can still get off on remembering that awesome victory.

 

[I told you I was trouble]

Oh yeah ... I have a few of those memories too.

Finishing a routing form, even leaving the org for the day/night and just getting away from any scientologists used to do it for me.

Phew.

I used to feel noticeably lighter as I distanced myself from it all and when the day finally came to really make the decision that I was done with it completely I floated about for months, mainly due to ESMB and despite the sad losses that are now a daily part of life.

What a shit of a cult and what a complete fool I was.

Ah well, mustn't grumble.



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[Auditor's Toad]

The moment I made the decision I was done and there was nothing or nobody that could possibly stop me.

I knew I was done.

My only regret?

I didn't ask for a cert that said " I graduated from scn "

 

[Gadfly]

The first time I decided to leave the Sea Org and did.

That was like a mountain had been lifted off of my shoulders.

I was totally HAPPY and exhilirated to be OUT of THAT insane environment.

 

[lotus]

Anybody else experience this feeling.....esp. at Flag when you know that nobody is after you anymore........at least for a short time until your next refresher. Ugh.

Yep

Got exactly this feeling when escaping from Flag
and after I escape
and each time I read horror stories about sea org
I know I could not make it through the RPF and stay mentally sane


:wink2:

 

[Miss Pert]

Most exhilarating moment for me was when I got the final approval, after waiting for almost 3 months, on the fitness board that I requested so I could get the F*#@ out of Flag before completing my training.

 

[Smurf]

My only regret?

I didn't ask for a cert that said " I graduated from scn "

Seriously. Think of all the high-paying career jobs you missed out on not having that certificate.

 

[The Anabaptist Jacques]

I fell in love. She was beautiful. It was love at first sight.

Eventually, she cut out my heart, stomped on it, and kicked it across the floor.

And that was just the first date.

It went downhill from there.

The Anabaptist Jacques

 

[HelluvaHoax!]

I fell in love. She was beautiful. It was love at first sight.

Eventually, she cut out my heart, stomped on it, and kicked it across the floor.

And that was just the first date.

It went downhill from there.

The Anabaptist Jacques

lol

Jesus!

Did you at least make yourself known and find out what is needed and wanted?

 

[The Anabaptist Jacques]

lol

Jesus!

Did you at least make yourself known and find out what is needed and wanted?

I told her what I needed and she said she didn't want it.

The Anabaptist Jacques

 

[Feral]

Finishing the routing form was not enough for me when leaving FLAG, I'd heard of people getting chased to the airport because some random out tech was found after they left.

The point where I breathed a sigh of relief, my "it's done" point was the sound of my seat belt on the plane on the runway at Tampa airport.

"CLICK".

It wasn't exhilaration, it was more like I relaxed, slumped even. I was no longer on "alert", like the Germans had passed and not seen me hiding just off the track kinda thing. I was off the hook, not just for another six months but for as long as I could hold the fuckers off.

 

[KissMyStats]

Finishing the routing form was not enough for me when leaving FLAG, I'd heard of people getting chased to the airport because some random out tech was found after they left.

The point where I breathed a sigh of relief, my "it's done" point was the sound of my seat belt on the plane on the runway at Tampa airport.

"CLICK".

It wasn't exhilaration, it was more like I relaxed, slumped even. I was no longer on "alert", like the Germans had passed and not seen me hiding just off the track kinda thing. I was off the hook, not just for another six months but for as long as I could hold the fuckers off.

Oh, yeah, the seat belt clicking thing. Another point of exhilaration. And the takeoff and being in the air. The relief was palpable. I felt safer with the airline personnel in their military like uniforms than the SO staff in theirs.

 

[KissMyStats]

Just thought of another one.

When my petition to join the SO was disapproved because I had a toddler. I was so worried he actually might let me join, deep inside I did not really want to, but had so much pressure, another story. (I was already on staff.) When I got the disapproval I had to hide my exhilaration and act like....oh darn. Thank you ED Int !

 

[Oneflewover]

I fell in love. She was beautiful. It was love at first sight.

Eventually, she cut out my heart, stomped on it, and kicked it across the floor.

And that was just the first date.

It went downhill from there.

The Anabaptist Jacques

Sounds like a keeper....

 

[Mick Wenlock]

The Christmas Party at FOLO EU in 1978. I over ordered the booze, the different nationalities had gotten their favorite foods (with the Italians leading the way) we started at 6pm on Christmas Eve and ate and drank and danced until 4 am. Vanella fell off her dinner chair about an hour and half into the meal and she was the first of many... it was so raucous, the cops came and Guillaume and I gave them a beer each. Nancy (my wife) got to eat all the steak she could handle (I swear she is part velociraptor) and I got to play Santa Claus while roaring drunk.

It was awesome...

 

[xseaorguk]

the first thing that comes to mind is that feeling I got after working hard on staff all day and studying in the evening, yes, the feeling I got when eventually laying down in my bunk bed, with a wonderful feeling that BED had never felt so good.
It was also somewhere, where I had my own 'space' and was just for me alone (although it was in a larger dormitory).
I remember that it was pretty exhilarating at the time.
Can anybody else relate to that?

I also remeber when I said I wanted to leave, and it was taking weeks on sec checking and stalling ops, and I suddenly realised that I could just walk out the gates at Saint Hill.
When I did, and hitchhiked to London I felt as though I was in control again, and that felt wonderful!

 

[Gadfly]

No doubt about it. LEAVING some part of Scientology, whether as a staff member, Sea Org member, or the whole shebang, can be VERY exhilirating.

Thank God for overts, withholds and motivators. Without them many of us might never have left! (sarcasm)

 

[lotus]

No doubt about it. LEAVING some part of Scientology, whether as a staff member, Sea Org member, or the whole shebang, can be VERY exhilirating.

Thank God for overts, withholds and motivators. Without them many of us might never have left! (sarcasm)

True

 

[Voltaire's Child]

I was thinking about routing forms earlier.

One for one, when I got that last signature on a routing form meaning I was done with the service and could walk out the door and not be scheduled for anything (course or auditing) even if just for a few days or weeks...........I felt like had escaped from prison. And this is when I was TOTALLY in. (in my own prison)

And when I decided I would never again ever pick up a pair of cans (except if I was going to eat what was inside of it) .....now that was exhilarating for me. Of course, in my mind I was out then.

Anybody else experience this feeling.....esp. at Flag when you know that nobody is after you anymore........at least for a short time until your next refresher. Ugh.

When John and I decided we weren't going to do staff anymore and were going to leave, we were newlyweds. He used to call me at work and we'd sing "it's beginning to look at lot like Christmas."