Grasshopper
Patron
Why can't you just get up and leave? Here are a few reasons: (my case)
Physical:
- The int base has wire fence around, motion detectors, armed security guards. If you just walk out, you are being held back by force.
- If you tell them that you want to leave, they watch you and you are not allowed to leave the base (fences, guards).
- If you are not in your own country, you don't know anything about how to get to an airport, less about other transport (not many possibilities around the int base unless you have a car).
- If you are staff at int and you joined at a young age so you don't have savings from previous jobs, inharitance stc. you have no money to travel or settle.
- Your passport is confiscated.
Mental/emotional:
- When you arrive to the state of mind that you want to leave, you are f...uped mentally. It feels very insecure "out in the wog world".
- You made a promise when you joined and you have to face it now that you break it. That "'they" didn't keep their promises, is not an excuse.
- You wanted to save the world and believed in it, now you are into your own thing, you are being selfish.
- You have friends in there (though less and less due to the control-freaky report mechanism.
- You have spent 15-20 years in there - what will you do in the wog world, how will you survive?
Now, when you all battled it out in your head, you overcame the obstacles of all kind, then you just go, no matter where and how. You just LEAVE.
So, that' why. You can only escape by tricks, and count on your good luck.
Physical:
- The int base has wire fence around, motion detectors, armed security guards. If you just walk out, you are being held back by force.
- If you tell them that you want to leave, they watch you and you are not allowed to leave the base (fences, guards).
- If you are not in your own country, you don't know anything about how to get to an airport, less about other transport (not many possibilities around the int base unless you have a car).
- If you are staff at int and you joined at a young age so you don't have savings from previous jobs, inharitance stc. you have no money to travel or settle.
- Your passport is confiscated.
Mental/emotional:
- When you arrive to the state of mind that you want to leave, you are f...uped mentally. It feels very insecure "out in the wog world".
- You made a promise when you joined and you have to face it now that you break it. That "'they" didn't keep their promises, is not an excuse.
- You wanted to save the world and believed in it, now you are into your own thing, you are being selfish.
- You have friends in there (though less and less due to the control-freaky report mechanism.
- You have spent 15-20 years in there - what will you do in the wog world, how will you survive?
Now, when you all battled it out in your head, you overcame the obstacles of all kind, then you just go, no matter where and how. You just LEAVE.
So, that' why. You can only escape by tricks, and count on your good luck.


Been there, done that. That's why I was content to remain outer org s.o. and steer clear of ever being permanently posted at pac or flag. It was an absolute no-brainer that I, too, would eventually end up there; I mean all s.o. roads lead eventually to the rpf or rpf's rpf .
My conscious mind was going, "coward, wimp, dilettante, phoney." My small, quiet, background voice (which I was not too attuned to in those years) was going, "