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Just sent to me by link, tonight, by an old friend. While it may be posted elsewhere on this forum, it seems worth putting it there, again, now.

Title: My perspective on auditing
Author: Stacy Brooks <[email protected]>
Date: Wed, 12 Jul 2000 19:09:24 -0400


We get calls nearly every day here at the LMT from people who are having
doubts about whether or not they should continue to be a Scientologist.
Without question, the subject they ask me about most often is the tech of
auditing. What do I think about the Tech? Do I think it works?

When anyone calls me for advice about whether auditing is beneficial or
harmful, I always preface my response by saying that there have never been any
clinical studies done to determine the effects of auditing. I have my
opinions, but my opinions are based purely on my own experience and nothing
else. Certainly they are not based on any scientific evidence, because there
isn't any. Hubbard never did any scientific testing, and no one else ever has
either. The only available information is purely anecdotal. Ten Scientologists
could write about their experiences in auditing and they would all have
totally different perspectives, I am sure.

What I have to say here is my opinion.

Since I left Scientology I have had a chance to learn more about the various
schools of therapy that have been developed. Now I understand that Hubbard
borrowed from a number of different schools when he put together the lower
levels of auditing. Dianetics and the Grades are basically a simple form of
regression therapy. The theory of regression therapy is that by going back and
revisiting moments of trauma, one can resolve confusions that were created by
the trauma and thereby free up more of one's mind for creative endeavors.

My view is that not everyone in the world needs therapy, and that of those who
feel they do, different kinds of therapy work for different people. Some can
benefit from simple regression; others may need medication, and still others
may find that transactional analysis, or perhaps Jungian analysis, or perhaps
something else helps them. I do not believe that any one form of therapy will
work on everyone.

I think Scientology does many people a great disservice by insisting that "the
Tech" works on everyone in exactly the same way and that if they are not
having gains it means there is something wrong with them. I don't think that's
true. Some people say they have made gains from their Dianetics or Grades
auditing, and I won't dispute that. But many others have told me it didn't
work for them. I don't dispute that either.

Auditing, at the lower levels where it is simple regression therapy such as
Life Repair, Self-Analysis Lists or Grades, may be beneficial for some people.
Scientology auditors have no formal education to prepare them as therapists -
even the highest trained auditor studies nothing but L. Ron Hubbard's writings
and is forbidden to study anything else. But even so, perhaps it can be
beneficial, just as Transactional analysis or Jungian psychotherapy can be
beneficial for some people. Conversely, if a person gets involved in a form of
therapy that is not right for them, it won't help them and may even make them
worse.

In the lower levels of auditing, an auditor guides the preclear, using an
E-meter, to areas of trauma or difficulty. By talking about these personal
difficulties, some people feel some relief from painful memories. The
preclear's personal reality is important in this auditing. Whatever is true
for the preclear is what is addressed.

This is what attracts many people to Scientology. They hear auditing is a form
of therapy that is tailor-made for each individual's particular problems, or
"case," as they call it in Scientology. This is a very important aspect of the
initial attraction. Many people are thrilled at the idea that such a thing
exists.

As I said, some people say they have made gains from their Dianetics or Grades
auditing, and I won't dispute that. However, there is at least one major
aspect of the lower level auditing that concerns me.

What happens in an auditing session is that the auditor asks the preclear, or
pc, to locate a moment of trauma in his or her life. The pc is indoctrinated
to believe that similar traumatic or painful experiences (such as all the
times when you hurt your knee, or all the times when you missed your mother)
are linked in the mind. If the pc tells the auditor about a certain moment of
trauma and there is nothing earlier holding it in place, then once the pc has
revisited that moment, the upset connected with that moment will vanish. But
if there are earlier similar moments of trauma, it will be necessary for the
pc to revisit those earlier moments before the trauma connected with that
particular "chain" will vanish. The auditor decides whether or not there are
earlier similar experiences by the behavior of the needle on the E-meter. If
it is free-floating, the chain is finished. If not, there is something
earlier.

Now let's see how this plays out in an auditing session.

Your auditor asks you to recall a time when you lost a friend. You tell him in
as much detail as possible about a time when your best friend moved to another
state. The auditor thanks you, and then asks you for an earlier similar time
when you lost a friend. From this you know that the auditor did not see a
free-floating needle and therefore knows you still have earlier traumas
connected with this question. Believing that this is the way the mind works,
you dutifully search your memory for an earlier time when you lost a friend.
You remember a time when you were six and you and your neighbor had to start
school at different schools. You remember crying and begging your mother to
let you go to the same school as Sally. You hadn't remembered that in a long
time. You hadn't realized you still had so much trauma connected with Sally.

You think you're finished with that chain of traumas. But your auditor asks
you again for an earlier similar incident. You can't remember anything earlier
than that and you tell your auditor so. Your auditor is very understanding and
tells you to let him know whatever comes into your mind. You want to do what
your auditor says because you trust him, so you try to remember another
similar experience. You close your eyes and let your mind float a little bit.

You see a picture in your mind of someone lying on the ground. Your auditor
says, "What's that?" Then you know that there is some validity to the picture
you just saw, because the auditor saw a response on the E-meter. Now you look
more closely at this picture. You start to add details to the picture you saw.
The auditor asks you when this experience happened. The year 1864 comes into
your mind. You say this to your auditor. He acknowledges you and helps you
fill in more details of what is happening.

Soon you can describe a full-blown scenario to your auditor. You are on a
battlefield with lots of other soldiers. You are looking down at a young man
in a blue uniform with blood all over his chest. You kneel down and cradle his
head while he dies. "I'll miss you," he says, and you start to cry as he dies
in your arms.

Oh! You tell your auditor tearfully, now you understand why losing friends has
always been such a terrible thing for you. Your auditor smiles at you
approvingly and tells you that your needle is floating.

In Scientology they call this "going whole track." The Whole Track is a
reference to the entire history of the universe that goes back millions and
millions of years.

In auditing, the preclear is utterly dependent upon the auditor to confirm
that these incidents are real. It all depends on what the E-meter is doing. If
the meter says the incident is real, then it is. Gradually it becomes easier
and easier for the preclear to believe that these past life incidents really
happened. The preclear's boundaries gradually fall away completely, until
there is no limit at all on what might have happened. It doesn't matter, after
all. No matter what the preclear says, the auditor always smiles and says his
needle is floating.

Now you have had hundreds of hours of Dianetics and Grade auditing. Your idea
of what is real has completely changed. You know you are different from other
people, because now you know that you have lived for millions of years. You
know it is true because you've relived so many experiences in your auditing.
You feel set apart from other people who have not yet discovered the truth.
You want your family to experience the truth too, but you can't tell them.
They wouldn't believe you. They have to experience it for themselves. You're
spending your time with other Scientologists now, because it's uncomfortable
to be around non-Scientologists. They don't understand. Scientologists are the
only ones who know what reality really is.

Now when your auditor asks you for an earlier similar incident, you don't have
to be coaxed into finding a picture. You know what to do. Now, as soon as the
auditor asks the question, a picture appears. There is no longer any
difference in your mind between something that happened yesterday, and
something that happened 300 years ago, or 25,000 years ago, or a million years
ago.

All Scientologists believe that these incidents they find in their auditing
really happened to them. They believe that they have memories going back
thousands of years, millions of years, even billions of years. This is
encouraged by the auditing process, in which the preclear is repeatedly told,
"What is true for you is true for you." In practice, this means that the
auditor validates as real anything the preclear comes up with in session, no
matter how far-fetched it may be.

Moreover, the preclear is not allowed to discuss all of this with anyone but
his auditor. Husbands and wives are not permitted to talk about what happens
in their auditing sessions. Friends are required to report on each other if
someone talks about an incident from their auditing. So the preclear is left
without any way of keeping himself anchored in the real world. There is no way
to verify whether or not something is true or imaginary.

Preclears who do not give their auditors incidents prior to this lifetime are
required to undergo a Whole Track Remedy before they are allowed to go onto
their upper levels. So this belief in a personal history stretching back
millions of years is a required part of the preclear's reality in order to
progress up the Bridge to Total Freedom.

In my opinion, this insistence on letting go of any boundaries for what is
true and what is imaginary, and the requirement that one is not allowed to
compare notes with anyone else about what is coming up in the auditing
sessions, is all part of a gradual indoctrination that prepares people for
what they will be required to accept as reality on the upper levels.

Let me recount my own experience. On my lower level auditing I had found
earlier similar incidents that seemed to be past life experiences. I wasn't
sure if they were real or imaginary, and there was no way for me to find out.
Certainly I couldn't ask my auditor, because if I told my auditor that these
incidents didn't seem real to me, I would be sent back to do even more of this
kind of auditing and that was the last thing I wanted to do. I just wanted to
keep going up the Bridge to Total Freedom until I got to some part of it that
made sense to me.

I did my auditing back in the old days - in the mid-1970s - when people were
still required to do a step called R6-EW and the Clearing Course in order to
go Clear before moving on to the OT levels. Instead of making more sense,
these upper levels were even more confusing than the lower ones. At least on
the earlier levels I was told that the auditing had something to do with
experiences that were personal to me. Starting with R6-EW and continuing on
the Clearing Course, I was given lengthy instructions about what I was
supposed to audit. No longer was I addressing my own reality. Now I was told
that everyone had been given identical horrific implants that I would be
auditing out from now on. It had nothing to do with me any more.

I stumbled my way through the end words of R6-EW and the bizarre "implant
sequences" of the Clearing Course. Somehow I managed to tell the examiner
after one of my solo sessions that it seemed like I was mocking the whole
thing up. What I meant was that none of what I was auditing seemed in any way
real to me, and I didn't think the E-meter was really reading on anything but
my imagination. But soon I was called to attest to the State of Clear, and I
discovered I had voiced the "Clear Cognition." That was it? I thought to
myself, although of course I didn't say that to anyone. Here I was at this
tremendous milestone in my life, attesting to the State of Clear, and I felt
exactly the same as I had before - except a bit more confused.

I did what many of the people I have spoken to also did. I went along with
what was happening because I didn't want anyone to know it wasn't making sense
to me. Shouldn't I feel elated, exhilarated, different somehow? But I didn't.
I resolved to continue on to the next levels. Maybe if I just kept going it
would start to make sense.

But OT 2 was an even more bizarre assortment of implant sequences, punctuated
with moments during which bright lights were supposed to have been part of the
implant and I was supposed to contact my memory of these lights until I got
a big meter read.

Anyone who is familiar with False Memory Syndrome may be feeling by now that
auditing is a classic example of it. That is certainly how I feel about it
now. I think all of this telling me what happened to me millions of years ago
and then getting me to "remember" these things until I "confirmed" it by the
E-meter is nothing more than coercing me into creating memories to further
someone else's agenda.

The only way I could get the meter to read was to heave a big sigh, which is
what I did every time I thought about these lights. That way I could report
that I was getting a meter read. It was the best I could do. None of it had
anything to do with me whatsoever. That was how I felt.

But I thought the best thing to do was keep quiet and get to OT 3, the famous
Wall of Fire. There the secrets of the Universe would be revealed to me, and
all of this lower level stuff would fade into insignificance.

When I finally was admitted to the OT 3 course room I thought to myself,
"Finally! Now it will finally all make sense to me!"

Oh, how wrong I was.

Reverently, I took the dog-eared legal-sized file folder from the course
supervisor. Struggling to contain my excitement, I opened the pack and read
LRH's handwritten explanation of the history of the universe. This is what I
discovered:

Xenu, the head of the Galactic Federation, which consisted of seventy-six
planets, had a terrible overpopulation problem - up to 250 billion people per
planet. He decided to solve it by mass implanting. So he rounded everybody up
and shipped them to this planet, which was known at that time as Teegeeack
(pronounced T-G-ack). He blew everybody up by dropping H-bombs into volcanoes.
Then he had all the people who had been blown up in the Pacific area taken in
boxes to Hawaii, and all the people who had been blown up in the Atlantic area
taken in boxes to Las Palmas. Then everyone was subjected to several weeks of
implanting, during which all these disembodied creatures were implanted with
everything we currently think of as reality. The implant was designed to kill
anyone who tried to solve it. Only through LRH's courageous technical
development was it now possible to overcome it.

Now I learned the terrible truth: my body was a mass of individual disembodied
space creatures, or body thetans, as they are called in Scientology, stuck to
me. I would have to audit each one of these body thetans and get them to
leave. It was going to take a long time, but there it was. Hubbard said,
basically, that it was a good thing someone had finally had the courage to
chart this dangerous path for everyone else. It was a heroic thing he had done
for all of us.

I sat there for a long time after I read this startling revelation. It was a
profound turning point for me. I will describe what went on in my mind as well
as I possibly can. Here I had finally made it to the Wall of Fire, I had just
been given the Secrets of the Universe. This was Reality! I distinctly
remember feeling like I was in a state of suspended animation; as if I were
watching myself to see how I was going to react to this news. I almost let the
thought form: "You've got to be kidding!" But I caught it just in time and
squelched it. I did allow myself to think that I didn't understand what he was
talking about. But having already installed L. Ron Hubbard in my mind as the
unerring dispenser of Truth, there was no way for me to reject the
information. I remember feeling completely numb and making sure to arrange my
expression so that the course supervisor would not realize how stunned I was.

Mercifully, it was soon time for dinner. I remember walking toward the galley
(the dining room), which was in the basement of what is now Celebrity Centre
in Los Angeles, trying to digest what I had just learned. As I walked over a
small bridge I suddenly stopped dead in my tracks, frozen by the thought that
I was crawling with millions of disembodied creatures. I had to restrain the
urge to wipe my hands over my whole body to get them off!

That was in 1976. From then on until I left Scientology in 1989, auditing was
completely and utterly about getting rid of as many of these BTs as possible.
No one ever mentioned my own problems again, unless it was to security check
me to find out my crimes. But as far as any kind of therapy for me,
psychologically or emotionally, that was over. Now I was supposed to be above
all of that. That was all for the uninitiated. I had no case; I was Clear.
Emotions and problems were for people who were still encumbered with such
degraded human issues. If I had any problems or difficulties of any kind,
there were only two possible reasons. Either my ethics were out and I had
hidden crimes, or I had BTs who had waked up and were enveloping me in their
degraded emotions, and they needed to be audited out. I couldn't have any
problems or difficulties myself, remember - I was Clear. I effectively ceased
to exist as myself. I was nothing more than a mass of BTs.

Solo auditing was always bizarre for me. Sitting in the room all alone,
holding both cans in one hand, watching the E-meter dial for a read that would
tell me where my next BT was - I only got a few reads during my OT 3 auditing.
You get to attest to OT 3 Completion when you can't find any more BTs. Well, I
attested very quickly, glad to be done with this strange auditing level. I was
ready to move on to something else.

To my great dismay, I discovered that the rest of the Bridge to Total Freedom
was all about BTs, BTs, and more BTs.

OT 4 is the OT Drug Rundown, during which you locate BTs who have been
affected by drugs. You have to get each BT to zero in on the particular drugs
that caused the problem and audit those drugs out until the BT can blow.

On each of these levels you are assured that you have gotten rid of all your
BTs. You attest to being free of all BTs and you are really happy to have rid
yourself of all the little parasitic creatures. Then you route onto your next
level and you are told, "Actually you do have more BTs. We just didn't want to
tell you until you were ready to hear it."

The day before you were perfectly certain that you were free of the little
disembodied thetans. Now you suddenly discover that in fact you have millions
more; you just weren't aware enough to perceive them until now.

OT 5 is Audited New Era Dianetics for OTs, or Audited NOTs for short. On NOTs
you learn that everything is made up of BTs. EVERYTHING. Your toes, your
thoughts, your love for your daughter, the moon, your fork, your shoes, your
teeth, your bones, your molecules - literally everything - is made up of BTs.

You have an auditor with you for Audited NOTs. Your auditor tells you to
locate another BT and ask it, "What are you?" You do this silently, and the BT
then answers your question, silently, of course. As I said before, it can
answer literally anything. It might say, "your third fingernail on your left
hand," or it might say, "your refrigerator," "the light bulb," "the anger
you're feeling toward your mother," anything. The rug, the window pane, the
North Star, a Kleenex. Remember, what's true for the preclear, or pc, is what
is true, and now the pc is the BT. You never invalidate the pc.

You get the BT to keep answering the question, "What are you?" until the
auditor can tell by meter read that the BT has given you the right answer.
Then you are told to ask the BT another question, "Who are you?" When the BT
answers, "I'm me!" it causes the needle on the E-meter to fall dramatically
and the BT blows.

Again, you audit OT 5 until you can't find any more BTs. You attest to having
no more BTs, and then you go onto Solo NOTs. First you do OT 6, which is the
Solo NOTs Auditing Course. On it, you learn how to audit your own BTs on the
NOTs processes.

Then you begin OT 7, Audited NOTs. On this level you sit in an auditing room
all alone, holding both cans in one hand, locating BTs by meter read, and
auditing your BTs on the NOTs commands, "What are you?" and "Who are you?"
just as I described above, until they blow. The way you know when a BT has
blown, by the way, is that your needle starts to float on the dial, signifying
that there is nothing there any more. You will continue to find BTs and audit
them until your body begins to look translucent, signifying that all of your
BTs are gone.

By now you know that the entire physical universe is composed of BTs. You know
that the reason it is so important to get everyone on the planet into
Scientology and on the Bridge to Total Freedom is that it will take every
single person auditing all day long, every day, for many, many years, to audit
out all the body thetans that compose the physical universe. You now share the
most important secret of all, because only now that you are on OT 7 do you
know that the true goal of Scientology is to make the physical universe
disappear.

And that is why nothing can stand in the way of Scientology's forward
expansion. That is why anyone who tries to stop Scientology must be ruthlessly
moved out of the way. Truly, it is a matter of the greatest good for the
greatest number of dynamics! How can we be concerned about the fate of one
individual critic, or one individual Suppressive Person, when the fate of the
entire Universe is at stake?

Now when you read Keeping Scientology Working you truly understand what LRH
meant when he said: "The whole agonized future of this planet, every man,
woman and child on it, and your own destiny for the next endless trillions of
years depend on what you do here and now with and in Scientology."

Now it is perfectly clear to you why LRH set up the Guardian's Office, now
known as the Office of Special Affairs, and said "The goal of the Department
is to bring the government and hostile philosophies or societies into a state
of complete compliance with the goals of Scientology. This is done by high
level ability to control and in its absence by low level ability to overwhelm.
Introvert such agencies. Control such agencies. Scientology is the only game
on Earth where everybody wins. There is no overt [meaning crime] in bringing
good order."

This is what goes on in the mind of a high-level Scientologist.

Many people have been auditing on OT 7, alone in a room for hours every day,
auditing out their BTs, for as long as fifteen years. It is impossible to
imagine what this can do to someone's state of mind. Indeed, it is my belief
that this auditing of thousands upon thousands of imagined disembodied
creatures, this picking apart of the very fabric of one's reality as I
described above, can bring about a state of such acute dissociation that it
can induce a kind of psychosis of irresponsibility.

I have never experienced anything like the ruthlessness of Scientology since
they have labeled me and the people I work with Enemies of Scientology. We are
now targets of their Fair Game policies, which instruct them in how to go
about destroying our reputations, our sanity, and our lives. It is like being
pursued by the Terminator. These people will never stop their attempts to
destroy us.

But it begins to make sense to me when I realize that through the process of
auditing as I have described, these people have been stripped of all sense of
themselves; they have lost all sense of responsibility - indeed, all contact
with their own emotions, their own thoughts, even their own hopes and
aspirations. They have become addicted to the irresponsibility that comes with
living a fantasy. They have truly come to believe in a bizarre future, in
which the ultimate goal is a Scientology world, a world in which everyone who
disagrees with Scientology will be done away with, quietly and without sorrow.

This is not a world in which I want to live.



Title: Re: My perspective on auditing
Author: Bob Minton <[email protected]>
Date: Thu, 13 Jul 2000 18:25:06 -0400



On Thu, 13 Jul 2000 19:54:17 GMT, Monica Pignotti <[email protected]> wrote:

>Excellent post! As someone who has also been through this experience,
>it is my opinion that you have captured this bizarre experience of
>going up the bridge that a handfull of us have in common better than I
>would have ever thought possible. I hope that current Scientologists
>will read this because deep down, each one of them knows that this is
>what is going on. The message that we have to keep trying to get
>across is that there is a way out of this unreal nightmare and that
>they don't have to stay trapped in a world that becomes increasingly
>more bizarre, the further one progresses on the bridge (or maybe I
>should say regresses). For those of you who have not yet reached the
>upper levels, I urge you to read this to see what is in store for you
>if you continue and to ask yourselves if this is the kind of world you
>wanted and expected when you began in Scientology. If it isn't, then
>realize that you do have a choice and that there is life after
>Scientology. If you take some time out and give thoughtful
>consideration to Stacy's words, you'll save yourself from having to go
>through what we went through and that is what makes speaking out worth
>while.
>
Monica, yours is truly a thoughtful response to Stacy's post.

I trust you have now accepted "the addiction to irresponsibility" concept that I
referred to in a follow-up post on February 26th which you were then quick to
poo-poo.

This addiction to irresponsibility that Scientology breeds in its adherents is
an extremely important concept for all of us to understand. Stacy sums it up
brilliantly with this part of her post:

>But it begins to make sense to me when I realize that through the process of
>auditing as I have described, these people have been stripped of all sense of
>themselves;

(just wait for a post about O/W write-ups out of LMT, Lisa's in particular, to
understand how naked and desolate a human being becomes in Scientology)

>they have lost all sense of responsibility - indeed, all contact
>with their own emotions, their own thoughts, even their own hopes and
>aspirations. They have become addicted to the irresponsibility that comes with
>living a fantasy. They have truly come to believe in a bizarre future, in
>which the ultimate goal is a Scientology world, a world in which everyone who
>disagrees with Scientology will be done away with, quietly and without sorrow.

Peter Alexander, in this thread, said that Scientology stifles creativity. In
fact Scientology makes the the creative, less creative; the able, less able;
the responsible less responsible. In fact, Scientology is a failure at
everything it promises judging by the FACT that of the millions Scientology says
have tried it, only a 100-200,000 adherents of Scientology exists in the world
today.

Critics of Scientology believe in giving everyone choices and a chance to be
creative by writing their own script for their own lives. If an individuals
critical thinking skills have not been fully suspended, their self-directed
script will always be incompatible with the STANDARD script written by Hubbard.
Therefore, by definition Scientology must vehemently oppose creativity, ability,
responsiblity, freedom and those who espouse them.

Unfortunately the Scientology script is like a serial where the PCs
accomplishments are short lived because there’s always another BT to slay.
Oddly enough, people in the Scientology trap vehemently fight to stay in it
for as long as it takes to get the bait, or, failing that, as long as it
takes to become convinced that getting the bait is a fantasy. The only thing
that a Scientologist can truly receive in the Church of Scientology is a future
of absolute slavery to Hubbard's failed script.

Monica, I think we are together as critics in exposing Scientology for what it
is---hatred of human ability in a glossy package that promises total freedom and
delivers abject slavery.

Like Stacy said, Scientology's is not a world in which I want to live.

Bob Minton
 

Human Again

Silver Meritorious Patron
Wow, thanks for sharing this great post.

My God Iwish I had known what was going on on the OT levels while I slaved away trying to help more people get up the bridge!

I would like to think of a way to share this with all the SO crew.
 

Rae

Patron with Honors
Great post..I had never seen it. Thanks for bringing it back..interesting that it was just the right time for me...just what I needed.

Rae
 

EP - Ethics Particle

Gold Meritorious Patron
Curious synchronicities...

Great post..I had never seen it. Thanks for bringing it back..interesting that it was just the right time for me...just what I needed.

Rae

I had a feeling that it would be timely for a fair few, Rae. :yes: Thank you all for the acknowledgment and affirmation. :thumbsup:

Mike, the EP's EP
 

sallydannce

Gold Meritorious Patron
Thanks so much for posting this EP.

The deep sense of losing myself when in (and during the process of coming out of) scientology has been profound for me. Reading this has really helped me piece together some stuff.

Bless ya EP!
 

EP - Ethics Particle

Gold Meritorious Patron
A real hero - again, in a new unit of time.

Thanks so much for posting this EP.

The deep sense of losing myself when in (and during the process of coming out of) scientology has been profound for me. Reading this has really helped me piece together some stuff.

Bless ya EP!

RVY (Robert Vaughn Young), ex-Scientologist and Stacey Brooks inspire the human spirit. I hope this link works. Google them if the below will not open, and my blessings to you, sallydannce, and all others here on this little blue marble in space. :) Love, EP

http://www.factnet.org/Scientology/Robert_Vaughn_Young.html
 

I told you I was trouble

Suspended animation
That is incredible ... thank-you for posting this EP ...
When I finally was admitted to the OT 3 course room I thought to myself,
"Finally! Now it will finally all make sense to me!"

Oh, how wrong I was.

Reverently, I took the dog-eared legal-sized file folder from the course
supervisor. Struggling to contain my excitement, I opened the pack and read
LRH's handwritten explanation of the history of the universe. This is what I
discovered:

Xenu, the head of the Galactic Federation, which consisted of seventy-six
planets, had a terrible overpopulation problem - up to 250 billion people per
planet. He decided to solve it by mass implanting. So he rounded everybody up
and shipped them to this planet, which was known at that time as Teegeeack
(pronounced T-G-ack). He blew everybody up by dropping H-bombs into volcanoes.
Then he had all the people who had been blown up in the Pacific area taken in
boxes to Hawaii, and all the people who had been blown up in the Atlantic area
taken in boxes to Las Palmas. Then everyone was subjected to several weeks of
implanting, during which all these disembodied creatures were implanted with
everything we currently think of as reality. The implant was designed to kill
anyone who tried to solve it. Only through LRH's courageous technical
development was it now possible to overcome it.

Now I learned the terrible truth: my body was a mass of individual disembodied
space creatures, or body thetans, as they are called in Scientology, stuck to
me. I would have to audit each one of these body thetans and get them to
leave. It was going to take a long time, but there it was. Hubbard said,
basically, that it was a good thing someone had finally had the courage to
chart this dangerous path for everyone else. It was a heroic thing he had done
for all of us.

I sat there for a long time after I read this startling revelation. It was a
profound turning point for me. I will describe what went on in my mind as well
as I possibly can. Here I had finally made it to the Wall of Fire, I had just
been given the Secrets of the Universe. This was Reality! I distinctly
remember feeling like I was in a state of suspended animation; as if I were
watching myself to see how I was going to react to this news. I almost let the
thought form: "You've got to be kidding!" But I caught it just in time and
squelched it. I did allow myself to think that I didn't understand what he was
talking about. But having already installed L. Ron Hubbard in my mind as the
unerring dispenser of Truth, there was no way for me to reject the
information. I remember feeling completely numb and making sure to arrange my
expression so that the course supervisor would not realize how stunned I was.


You too???

I thought that was my story ... :omg:

I bet there are quite a few of us that went through this charade.
 

Alanzo

Bardo Tulpa
I like this sentence:

"But having already installed L. Ron Hubbard in my mind as the
unerring dispenser of Truth, there was no way for me to reject the
information
.
"
 

EP - Ethics Particle

Gold Meritorious Patron
Words; telling and true...

I like this sentence:

"But having already installed L. Ron Hubbard in my mind as the
unerring dispenser of Truth, there was no way for me to reject the
information
.
"

To all,

Do not fail to scroll down on the link and read RVY's multi-part chronology of his losing battle with prostate cancer. If you can do that with a dry eye, you are cut from different cloth than I.

Mike
 

sallydannce

Gold Meritorious Patron
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