Perhaps there are some people that will 'blame the church' for the rest of their lives, but surely that's their perrogative, and if it makes them happy then fine, but to 'blame', in my eyes, is to hand over one's own personal power I feel, however I still find it imperative to talk about it, for the moment anyway, try to remember, and above all, heal the trust that has been broken within me. It's the feeling of being lied to to such an extent and being used, abused and let down. It takes time to accept and people will go through whatever they have to go through at their own paces. That's all from me, I hope this helps answer at least one of your questions.

and my apologies as this wasn't intended to be so long.
P.S.

I feel also that deep down, people feel more let down by themselves for allowing it all to happen in the first place, compromising their own reality and going along with stuff that they knew to be very wrong. They .. we allowed ourselves to be treated as slaves, used, abused, threatened, lied to and on and on, so my take on that is until there is an 'acceptance' of what's happened, there's going to be a need to post.