Oh man, you leave me speechless. Of course I'm your friend! I'll email you privately.
I'm with you on some of the FZers and Indies not being cultists. There are a few groups that are an exception to that, though, and religiously follow cult procedures and doctrine. Were you here when an Indie group had an SO style nursery with unqualified nannies, overcrowded conditions and one of the children died?

That was in their Thailand group, but the same group also has/had an LA group. They also wouldn't help a young girl who had literally broken out of isolation and in about six months in the SO had her mind broken, even though she had no signs of mental illness before that. No, no, for all their brags about Scientology being so wonderful, not one person would help her or her family UNLESS THEY PAID FOR THE VISIT. I made quite a few calls there. They were flippant, told me, "Life is a game!"

I'm sure that poor young lady didn't feel that way.That's not a church, that's a business. It has no compassion for the young, the old, the infirm, those down on their luck. I'm too busy to look up the links to that right now.
Those are cults, not churches. Churches get tax breaks to help the needy and do charitable good works. Cults pretend to do so, but use their status to underpay and abuse staff and usurp any donations for extravagant, lavish living. Cults fit the defined characteristics of a cult. The Church of Scientology fits all of them.
On the other hand, some of the FZ and Indie groups and individuals are friendly, helpful, truly compassionate and don't use cult indoctrination and cult practices. They shouldn't be grouped together with the Church of Scientology Cult that way. The other groups may have some similar beliefs, but they refute the beliefs or practices that are abusive and cultish that the Cult of Scientology does not.
As for me, I've already gone public on television a couple of times and at protests some years ago and prefer to stay private these days. On ESMB, I have expressly asked not to be outed on the Board. Most people here know who I am, but I've had a touch and go family situation and also a relentless malicious stalker for years who may or may not have worked for COS so don't want to be public anymore. I've told my stories and my stories are too old to be legally actionable anymore. Yours probably are, too, but that doesn't mean they don't matter. Do what you feel is best FOR YOU.
And there are plenty of people left who would know and remember you, btw. I've never told a soul who you are, never would, but I know who we all worked with there.
So you weren't an angel all your life after all?

Well, you were always a good person anyway and trying to do the right thing. You're honest and good. That matters.

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