Hatshepsut
Crusader
I agree with Alanzo 100%. I was saying that the person JUSTIFIES his not having full OT abilities based on a feeling that being basically good he knows it is an overt to use the powers for the wrong reasons and therefore with holds the powers from himself. I did not actually mean that this was a valid and acceptable technical reason why one did not have the powers. Hubbard thought of virtually every loophole that a person could complain about and ask for his money back or make the tech wrong and he supplied a pat answer for each of these which became part of the official tech.
I watched the entire 2 hour Jason Beghe vid on XenuTV last night. He said he had a really botched L-10. That is the Doingness RD that looks for the biggest whole track overt I believe. While one is doing it as a pc one is with the data that the only reason a being withholds himself from his god-like abilities is that he has harmed some dynamic in the past.
I saw a few good staff members get knocked off their pins and become unstable at the time of the List 1 Rock Slams.In 1979 , the D of P from the Miami Org was sec checked by missionaires sent up from Flag. His family had 2 Class XII auditors in it.. RTC wanted Money, money, money. If stats were down they would find the WHO.
If there were ever evil psychs on the whole track this woulda been our achilles heel. No doubt about it. And here was SO doing a good dramatization of stirring up that charge. Excavating for that hidden evil purpose.![]()
As I watched Jason Beghe talk about his let down and his refunds for himself and his wife I could see that he was constantly referring to the tech. This fellow knew his stuff once and now wanted nothing to do with it. He had BPC!! Lots. He was asked to dig around and mess up his case lookiing for what is handled on L-10 amongst other things. Remember Lisa McPhereson died after her L-11... and went beserk.
Jason looked directly into the camera and shaking his head in disgust stated point blank that the C of $ 's prized Ls levels "messed him up".!!![]()
This is very sad.There are supposed to be 4 flows. That's the mechanics of it. In accepting that if we had never done anything bad to anyone else FIRST we would have no charge, were we evaluated for? Is this ABSOLUTELY the truth? :confused2:
This was certainly my assertion when I first started to roller coaster. I went straight for what I did to pull it in. I wanted to get at it. I wanted Integrity processing. I wanted HRD. I wanted FPRD. I wanted to the bottom of itC'mon lets go for the gusto!! I unmocked my prepaid OT levels and my Briefing Course, and my PDC course and my levels training to use those monies to buy reviews. I was experiencing hits from another dimension and I did not know why some bigger beings outside time would mess with me. I wanted ANSWERS. My hidden standard was that.. 'I did the overt' and I was going to find it. Dig dig dig ....
I never got to that hidden big overt which I felt sent my case into a decline spiralling downward. I was PTS for sure but where was my bad deed that precipitated it?? I would not let go of my hidden standard no matter what. But was this idea I held close to me accurate. Was it the real WHY?
It seems to me that if one being hits another being hard enough POW, it causes the hit being to feel wrong. Or at least made wrong or guilty. Now that's a control mechanism. For me to spend all the tips I'd saved for 5 yrs just to find why I pulled it in...well.
Look at all those 6 month security checks! Didn't it get conceded finally that this had been an arbitrary.What the hell is going on with all this guilt finding.
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There has been so much raving about the Psychs on the track. In the False Purpose RD original flyers that I received back in 1982 it was stated that a discovery was made.
These EVIL guys had implanted beings with intentions to harm or destroy some of their dynamics. It was realized that beings would then cut their own power in order to stop themselves from doing harm . This is because a being is basically good.
So I ASK you. When did we stop getting the benefit of the doubt. Wasn't it right about the time that RTC wanted into everyone's pocket and became the dramatizing black hand that it was. I mean if they were so hot on this topic why wasn't Expanded Dianetics left the way it was.
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In 1979 , the D of P from the Miami Org was sec checked by missionaires sent up from Flag. His family had 2 Class XII auditors in it.. RTC wanted Money, money, money. If stats were down they would find the WHO.
There are supposed to be 4 flows. That's the mechanics of it. In accepting that if we had never done anything bad to anyone else FIRST we would have no charge, were we evaluated for? Is this ABSOLUTELY the truth? :confused2:
C'mon lets go for the gusto!! I unmocked my prepaid OT levels and my Briefing Course, and my PDC course and my levels training to use those monies to buy reviews. I was experiencing hits from another dimension and I did not know why some bigger beings outside time would mess with me. I wanted ANSWERS. My hidden standard was that.. 'I did the overt' and I was going to find it. Dig dig dig ....
What the hell is going on with all this guilt finding.
So I ASK you. When did we stop getting the benefit of the doubt. Wasn't it right about the time that RTC wanted into everyone's pocket and became the dramatizing black hand that it was. I mean if they were so hot on this topic why wasn't Expanded Dianetics left the way it was.
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I have pursued the 'star high goal' for too long and NOT just in the Johnny come lately tech of Scientology. I've made it out a couple of times.. But I'm back in the human loop again. I wanna know WHY. That is my QUEST.
But I understand where you're coming from.