I listened to Mike's interview, was pleased that he spoke as freely as he did and I thought he did a great job. I was surprised he made so many comments against David Miscavige. It was also the first time I'd heard the back story about the part Mike played in the first Panorama TV interview and didn't realize he was ordered to be Tommy Davis' flunky at the time. As Mike spoke, I tried to imagine how he might have felt while in this particular situation, lying for DM, protecting him and then being spoken to and treated so nastily in return. Trying to imagine how he might feel now, maybe wishing he had it all to do over again.
I guess I expected it to be as heavily edited as the things we see on television. I don't know. Anyway, I decided to comment on Marty's blog, as encouragement to Mike and to anyone else entertaining the thought of speaking out.
Here's the comment I made:
NeverMe | October 16, 2010 at 12:34 am |
Good job, Mike. I can’t begin to imagine the regret you and so many others now feel for protecting a psycho like David Miscavige. I do understand the fear behind it, though.
The mental instability, paranoia and sickness inside the dude is growing by the minute. I hope that after others listen to this interview, they’ll gain courage and are moved to speak out about their own abuse or abuse they witnessed at the hands of David Miscavige and his flunkies. I mean, EVERYBODY can’t be lying, can they? It’s the only pitiful defense they have.
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Here was Marty's response shortly after I posted my comment:
martyrathbun09 | October 16, 2010 at 1:15 am |
What is with all this blame, shame and regret business on the blog tonight? Weird
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Another reader/non-scientologist like myself then responded to Marty's comment:
stella | October 16, 2010 at 2:19 am |
Marty — it is a celebration of our common humanity! Seriously, only a psychopath never feels a sense of shame, regret or genuine humility. Particularly those of us who have lived past adolescence and are here to tell the stories and to show the scars. We are all, as fellow human travelers, scientologist and non-scientologist alike able to embrace the remarkable human ability to learn and to grow, and to survive, no matter what!
Kudos to Mike for his raw, vulnerable, real telling of how it is and was for him, as well as yours and the many many others who speak on this forum. As a non-scientologist, it is daily inspiration to me. As F. Scott Peck said in the first sentence of his book, “The Road Less Travelled” “Life is hard.” And yes it is, but ain’t it also grand? This blog is a tribute to the grandness of the human spirit. IMHO.
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Now, I have to say that Marty's response confused, surprised and disturbed me. I scanned all the previous comments and didn't see anything else that he could be referring to. And his comment immediately followed mine. I would rather ask him what he meant but I've asked questions on the blog before and received no answers. Soooooo ...... I wonder, what could he have meant?
Does his comment truly show that he didn't understand what I meant?
Or does his comment mean that he doesn't feel any of the things he mentions in his response - blame, shame, regret - and couldn't understand why anyone else would, either?
Or is this some scientology thing? Where as a scientlologist, you become ABOVE those kinds of feelings and you aren't motivated by them? That I would have difficulty with, though. We're human beings first and feelings like shame and regret help keep us grounded and humble.
However, I loved Stella's response. She put MY feelings into words much better than I was able to.
Any thoughts or insight? I genuinely would like to know...... Thanks.