But you must remember this, there is a tape called the Free Being which is as space opera as you could wish, and in it was the seed of all my suspicions. When Hubbard talks about an OT ripping the air cover and giving the planet a spin, relocating the equator at the poles, and thus quick freezing all of the Mammoths - he used the word could. An OT could have ripped the air cover off. Not did. Could have. It bugged me for years.
So Lotus, the vegetable wanted to be a non-GMO super veggie. Which reminds me:
Mimsey,
May I throw in a personnal experience ? not intending to lecture people on anything, but just to give an example of a personal ''spiritual'' experience!
I ever mentionned, here on the board, having encountered lord of Death, for real. I suffered terribly, over humane capacity of standing such pain, in a long agony for 2 long days!
I remember I yelled and screamed to god to take me and to people to kill me...and I was wandering between this earth realm and out there other realm...I still recall every things I experienced at the time, either with or without loss of consiousness
When I have been taken to an hospital and seen in emergency by 5-6 surgeons..It was too late,...since I was dying as some major organs have ruptured and already failed.
They took me in the operating room to give a try, but told me they didn't think they could make it..neither me would stolerate it...
I said: Do your job, and I'll do mine, I am strong!
I recall having said to the young lady surgeon who smiled at me..'' I am glad to spend the last minutes of my life with you, since you have a beautiful smile and I know you will take care of me''
2 days later I woke up...and the surgeon couldn't explain how I survived this. She told me I had been so calm and resilient
I knew why...and told her..
Because I've learned to breath...for 10 years of meditation...
and I had an angel looking after me!
In my wandering I encountered an angel, a real one..It was a young lady, white hair, she looked like a fairy..and she hold my hand..and flow a lot of love and compassion to me...
she never talk a single word...she just smile and hold my hands in all my recall...I could see her soul and she could see mine...we would communicate without a word.
When the angel wasn't there..
Each breath I would say: I breathe, thus I am alive...and some times it would bring me out of the suffering...another place..
And I could survive one breathe at the time...
A few hours later..someone came in my room..I saw her legs and dress..it was the angel....but I was awake...and didn't understand what was happening...
She sat down..took my hand..smiled at me..didn't say a word...And again I felt all this strong energy and love she flowed to me...
I told her I remember she has been my angel and held my hand...I asked who she was...
The girl was a resident surgeon (26 years old)...and she saved my life.
She saved my life another time..for an emergency and infection ..she didn't say a word to me...nothing...and I told her..she would remain my angel for the rest of my life and her eyes watered
The day after, a muslim lady came to bathe me...I was so weak..she didn't say a word..but was so gentle..she took care of me as if I was a newborn...and I smiled at ther...to thank her...Same with a nurse..who would came to look after me and do some difficult procedure with so gentleness..to ensure I was comfortable... She would take my hand..and smile to me...
It took 4 months to get out of this situation and about 2 years to fully recover.
I was certain I had encounter God , when I was in between, and really encounter the true nature of the spirit..which is pure unconditional love, understanding, pure light!
This ended up any quest for GOD, truth and spirituality betterment. It's right her, right there...when the brain circuits and inner struggling shut down a little bit, especialy in moments of unwanted vulnerability!
When I die next time, I want to go to the same places I went...with peace, confidence, love and with a smile...an angel holding my hand...
I don't want any guru, book, but I would like Bach to make peaceful music to beautify my last mental images...
I promess that L. Ron Hubtard..wasn't there...neither any $cientologist to give me any process..(thank god) and none of any $cientology I did was of help..
only love and breathing had saved me! So now...my ''spiritual quest'' is very selfish..I want to not forget to breath , to love and smile till my next last day comes!
This last day of my life was the most intense and important. So each day I tried to not forget to keep being prepared and at peace the most as I can!
It's only a personal experience, but it has impacted my whole life since I got a second chance and I wont waste it with spiritual woo woo!:wink2:
I know life already gave me all there is to have and to know. It's just a matter of doing my very best at being my TRUE SELF (also trying to see others true self) and not letting hamsters (wheels) to take over! It's a tough job!
