I felt somewhat "better" after it, but not that much really.
I have done quite a few fasts, toxin cleanses, and intensive deep cellular cleanses over the years (colon cleanses with lots of psyllium and bentonite, herbs, plant nutrition, with no eating of ANY solid food for 7-14 days). After doing these I feel MUCH better than anything I EVER felt from the "purif".
I recently went back to a total vegan diet with no meat, no dairy, no artificial anything (almost 2 months), stopped smoking weed (going on 6 weeks), stopped coffee, knocked off ALL processed foods of any kind, got back on a decent exercise regimen, and along with daily meditation and "extroverting activities outdoors" (I live in the mountains), I pretty much feel better than EVER in my entire life. I think Gib had it right above. Exercise will help ANYBODY. For the life of me I can't guess how some coffee-guzzling, chain-smoking, meat-eating Sea Org executive, who yells with great emotional volume as a matter of routine, can
possibly imagine that he or she is on a "spiritual" path of any sort. :confused2:
These people are intensely deluled.
As a note, when I was a Flag Rep I received surveys to do from INT. The surveys were designed to find out what "buttons" and images the public had deeply and chronically associated with ideas of "cleanliness", "purity", and "health". The picture of the "bubbling brook" on Purif Promo came directly from these survey results. Scientology promo is filled with images designed to create an appropriate "reaction" or "response".
The
detoxifying I have done with
other programs such as the
Clean Me Out Program FAR EXCEEDED anything I got from the so-called "purification rundown". I think that the Purif is just more goofiness parading as "science". Hubbard pushed Adelle Davis in some policies (she died of cancer), and Hubbard had NO IDEA of what leads to health. His simplistic statement that the "spirit heals the body", while ignoring all physical realities, is mindless (and I am someone who probably considers that to be true more than most). :confused2:
On the "feeling" and "maintaining the feeling", whether with the purif or with auditing, what most people fail to notice or recognize is that these experiences all involve a CONTEXT and are RELATIVE. They CAN'T be "constant" because they involved a
comparison. The feeling of a blow-out SEEMS major, because compared to feeling "caved in" or "stuck tightly inside" before, well, the CONTRAST manifests as some "major change". But if you are feeling bright, light and sparkly all of the time, there isn't any longer any experience (or need) for "blow outs".
I have zero concern for "blowing out" or "line charging". THAT was a "phase" in my life. It was "back then" when I was somebody else. But, I went through that, and I moved on. Maybe auditing would affect me if I did some more, now, but FIRST, I would have to have the desire to CHANGE something in myself, to achieve something, to handle some problem or ruin in alignment with Hubbard's model of reality. Simply, I had NO INTEREST AT ALL. My model of reality is SO FAR different now than what it was when I was involved with Scn that I doubt anything would "bite". My needle would simply F/N . . . . . .
(except on questions like "do you have any bad thoughts about Scientology, LRH or David Miscavige"?)
I haven't at all abandoned a desire to "improve", and I follow my own path these days. This path is so very far removed from almost anything within Hubbard's mindless paradigm. Sure, I would love a world without war, insanity and crime, and I often visualize such a reality in my meditations, BUT, Scientology has no workable methods to ever possibly achieve such a thing. It is a PR SLOGAN. It is BAIT. It is a
pretentious ideal bandied about and used as a
lure for good-hearted people.
I suspect that most people get dramatic gains, when they do, because they highly resonate with the positive PR and idealistic hype of Scientology (for awhile at least). The person's OWN decency and ideals align with Hubbard's lies and pretense for at least awhile. And, there is no doubt that auditing can and does direct a person's attention at areas that have bothered him or her (at least in this life, and metaphorically, and imaginatively, in so-called "past lives").
ANYBODY will benefit from "self-examination" at some point in his or her life. Things like ARC SW, Life Repair, the grades, and the various flows of Dianetics cause self-examination to SOME degree. A major problem though is that as one clears out some of the garbage, one concurrently absorbs a large amount of NEW GARBAGE in terms of the Scientology concepts and views about a great many things.
I actually have the view that some Scientology processes can and do "work" on some people, especially early on with the lower bridge, but the auditing results also suffer from
diminishing returns over extended time. As the gains from the auditing decrease, as the big moments of blow-outs and key-outs diminish, the BELIEF SYSTEM
implanted from the indoctrination MUST take over (or one will leave). Also, one can imagine almost anything into (subjective) existence. THAT is part of the reason for the "effectiveness" of Scientology auditing. It actually involves forms of
visualization where one is
tricked into
using his or her creative imagination without knowing what is actually happening. Hubbard learned all this when he dabbled in magick and the occult. He USED this information against, and to manipulate and deceive his followers.
P.S. Yes, I also remember the elastic around the ankles and wrists on the vinyl suits. It got VERY hot inside the suits.