I have to be honest (those who've read my posts know this already): I'm still afraid of the CoS.
I want to join the Anon cause, but I am still afraid of the CoS and what they do to people through their "Fair Game" policy. I know I'm not up to the task of fomenting either a good defense or offense for, as Admiral Akbar says, "repelling firepower of that magnitude."
I have a good job & a good life, and would hate to be smeared & attacked in any way. I don't really have a cadre of allies to help me out if the sh*t does hit the fan. I feel I could be easily "taken out" by their criminal methods.
So: am I on target? Overly paranoid? Or simply chicken-sh*t?
WTF kind of religion inspires fear like this in its membership?? Other than terrorist-based ones, that is ...
I will tell you what my father told me, the first time I remember feeling overwhelmed with fear about something I couldn't control, and couldn't possibly fight.
I had just finished watching a made-for-TV movie called "The Day After", about what nuclear attack would mean for the people who survived it. I was about 13, and it really shook me to the core that everyone I knew or loved could be killed and there was nothing I could do to stop it, end the threat, etc. People don't seem to worry about that any more. I think that's a good thing, though the threat might loom again if proliferation to unstable governments continues.
I went to my room, and I couldn't sleep. I think I was actually in shock. My Dad came in and sat on the side of my bed, and gave me a big hug. It was one of the few times he showed me affection. He said some words which I don't remember, but which had the following gist: there are things you can control, and there are things you can't control. You can't live in fear of the things you can't control, it will paralyze you, and make you less able to handle and enjoy the things that you can.
When I first got out of the Church, I decided I couldn't control them, and I couildn't stop them from f*ing with me, and I couldn't stop them from destroying my marriage. I decided not to fight with them, and to live my own life, without ever taking them to the mat, or worrying about them doing anything to me. That was 13 years ago. I think there were some things I could have controlled at that time that I abdicated control of, because I was overly afraid of what would happen to me, and the adverse effects that might happen to my other family members because they were connected to me.
Today, I lead a productive, happy and pleasurable life, and I still don't tangle with the Church. I don't feel a need for vengeance, and I am not consumed with hatred. I have some regrets, some very heavy losses. There are still things which I would like to change. It's not because I lack courage, or willpower, or because of FEAR. It's because I want to live my life, I don't want to spend it fighting anything or anyone. I defend myself when I must, but I've found that really doesn't happen much. I'm quite public about my experiences with the Church, my views on their practices, and I've even attended a few protests, in my time. But really, that was because I wanted to meet the protesters, and not because I wanted to confront the Church. I feel that Anonymous just gives more grist for the Church's "morning hate" (thanks, Orwell). I'm glad they do what they think is right, and I think that they probably help some people who are in the Church come out, and educate others about the dangers of the cult. I think it's also likely that they'll get caught up in a "games condition" with the Church, and it's a bit of a tar-baby.
If you have something that the Church is trying to take from you, then I think you should stand your ground. I was very young, and I didn't know how to stand my ground, and so I let people and things be taken from me that now I would know how to prevent.
I hope what I have said is useful to you. I'm not saying that it's easy, or that my decisions were "right". Only that this was how I did it, and that I'm okay today. I could be vilified for not protecting my children from the cult, for letting the cult take them away from me because of my unwillingness to fight my ex-wife. I could be called a dead-beat dad, a playboy, or worse. Those things are just apparencies. These decisions are HARD. Ultimately, we are accountable to ourselves. I have had sleepless nights. I'm not sure I was right.
Uniquimand. Pax.
I'm taking strength from the postings on this thread, and it does calm me down... somewhat, anyway. 
and my time's a'comin'.
