Shooting Stars

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[afaceinthecrowd]

The Liars Club, continued

I made a post today on the Vanity-Fair-Tom-Cruise-Secret-Wife-Auditioning-Process-EXPLOSIVE Thread.

I'm Linking to it here as the main body of that post is stuff that I had been working on for a future Installment here re:The Liars Club. I just couldn't resist saying what I had to say now.

http://www.forum.exscn.net/showthre...cess-EXPLOSIVE&p=724735&viewfull=1#post724735

Peace.

Face

 

[afaceinthecrowd]

Expert From Final Installment...Whatta Mess I'm Makin'

I made yet another post today on the Vanity-Fair-Tom-Cruise-Secret-Wife-Auditioning-Process-EXPLOSIVE Thread.

This time nearly all of the text was stuff I had prepared for the Final Installment of Shooting Stars.

I'm making a Goat Ropin' outta this thing at this point but I just couldn't resist and it seemed like the right place and circumstance. Sorry Folks. :confused2:

http://www.forum.exscn.net/showthre...cess-EXPLOSIVE&p=725129&viewfull=1#post725129

Peace.

Face

 

[Gib]

Re: Shooting Stars, Part Nineteen, continued

“The trust of the innocent is the liar's most useful tool.” Stephan King

I was in the audience for a John McMaster Lecture and other Uber “OT’s” “Back in the Days”. I was enthralled, captivated and, quite frankly, mesmerized.

I was at the airport and private exclusive “Welcome Home Party” for one of the original Class VIII’s.

I was there the night the AOLA “Command Team” arrived and at the Special Briefing they held.

I heard the “Ron” stories told and—unfortunately for so many that I ultimately brought into Scn, the SO and commanded as Staff and regged the pants off as Public—I had not long before had what would later prove to be my biggest “Win” as a PC.

I had met Yvonne just after this and she had, in her special and wondrous way, enthralled me with the “State” of “Clear” and “OT”. Our paths, as I have written about on ESMB, crossed here and there over the next decade up to several days before her passing. She played a major role in my continuing in Scn, recruitment for Flag Crew and ultimately, in a subtle way, my walking away.

Yvonne was not a liar, she was not a shill, she was not a con but she was, as I later came to be, a fool for El Ron.

Yvonne was a brilliant, radiant, magical and completely unique fool. I was more of a semi articulate, presentable and adaptable fool…sort of a chameleon.

I don’t portend to fathom Johnny Mac, who I did not personally know but, I saw with my own eyes and heard with my own ears, was a beautiful Soul and a fool for Hisself, as well.

Over the years I met, interacted with and sat in on briefings and lectures from a whole bunch of other fabulous fools—Old Dianteticests, ACC/PDC/SHBC/FCDC/ St. Hill/ Sea Project/ Mission Into Time Folks, Original Apollo Crew, etc.

So, what did all of us fools do?

To be continued…

Peace.

Face

"So, what did all of us fools do? "

Fool - http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/fool

Which definition?


1. a silly or stupid person; a person who lacks judgment or sense.
2.
a professional jester, formerly kept by a person of royal or noble rank for amusement: the court fool.
3.
a person who has been tricked or deceived into appearing or acting silly or stupid: to make a fool of someone.
4.
an ardent enthusiast who cannot resist an opportunity to indulge an enthusiasm (usually preceded by a present participle): He's just a dancing fool.
5.
a weak-minded or idiotic person.

Maybe all?

 

[Gib]

Re: Shooting Stars, Part Nineteen, continued

"So, what did all of us fools do? "

Fool - http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/fool

Which definition?


1. a silly or stupid person; a person who lacks judgment or sense.
2.
a professional jester, formerly kept by a person of royal or noble rank for amusement: the court fool.
3.
a person who has been tricked or deceived into appearing or acting silly or stupid: to make a fool of someone.
4.
an ardent enthusiast who cannot resist an opportunity to indulge an enthusiasm (usually preceded by a present participle): He's just a dancing fool.
5.
a weak-minded or idiotic person.

Maybe all?

You were at the beginning and change part of the game. Whereas I am at the change end part of the game.

 

[afaceinthecrowd]

Re: Shooting Stars, Part Nineteen, continued

"So, what did all of us fools do? "

Fool - http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/fool

Which definition?


1. a silly or stupid person; a person who lacks judgment or sense.
2.
a professional jester, formerly kept by a person of royal or noble rank for amusement: the court fool.
3.
a person who has been tricked or deceived into appearing or acting silly or stupid: to make a fool of someone.
4.
an ardent enthusiast who cannot resist an opportunity to indulge an enthusiasm (usually preceded by a present participle): He's just a dancing fool.
5.
a weak-minded or idiotic person.

Maybe all?

Well, Gib in my case maybe all five definitions might rightly apply.

As far as some of the other Folks I'm gonna talk a bit about in the next properly intended Installment I don't feel it's my Place, Heart or Mind to ascribe to them any other definition than what I have highlighted in red. Whether or not any of them fit within those other definitions is up to you and the others that still have an interest in what I've got to say here to determine for yourselves.

I've kinda messed things up here pretty good by posting stuff on another Thread that I had been working on for future Shooting Stars Installments and not the next Installment re: "Us Fools".

I've gotten real distracted with all the recent goings on here on ESMB and some things IRL and I'm not sure just when I'm gonna get the stuff about "Us Fools" put up but I'm cogitatin', chewin' and workin' on it here and there. It's not the easiest thing I've ever done to find a graceful, entertaining yet honest, forthright way to talk about myself and others fronting, shilling and lying for El Ron.

I appreciate your your questions and observations, Gib.

Face

 

[afaceinthecrowd]

Re: Shooting Stars, Part Nineteen, continued

You were at the beginning and change part of the game. Whereas I am at the change end part of the game.

I was not at the "beginning". If you look at my ESMB Profile you will see my era.

Yes, I am an "Old Timer" but there are Folks on this Board that match or well precede my first days in Scn.

We have different "frames of reference" about the same organism, Gib. That's what's so wonderful about ESMB, freedom of speech an thought and open, unabridged communication...you can share your thoughts, ideas and experiences with another and clarify, expand and move beyond our personal "frame of reference", unfettered.

I'm sharing my "Frame" with Y'all and Y'all are sharing Y'all's "Frames" with me. Believe me, I think all Y'all's gettin' the short end of the stick.

Face

 

[Gib]

Re: Shooting Stars, Part Nineteen, continued

Well, Gib in my case maybe all five definitions might rightly apply.

As far as some of the other Folks I'm gonna talk a bit about in the next properly intended Installment I don't feel it's my Place, Heart or Mind to ascribe to them any other definition than what I have highlighted in red. Whether or not any of them fit within those other definitions is up to you and the others that still have an interest in what I've got to say here to determine for yourselves.

I've kinda messed things up here pretty good by posting stuff on another Thread that I had been working on for future Shooting Stars Installments and not the next Installment re: "Us Fools".

I've gotten real distracted with all the recent goings on here on ESMB and some things IRL and I'm not sure just when I'm gonna get the stuff about "Us Fools" put up but I'm cogitatin', chewin' and workin' on it here and there. It's not the easiest thing I've ever done to find a graceful, entertaining yet honest, forthright way to talk about myself and others fronting, shilling and lying for El Ron.

I appreciate your your questions and observations, Gib.

Face

no worries. I got it.

 

[Infinite]

For the record:

..

Ah, the irony of it all.

El Ron’s “Master Plan” to use "Celebrities" to “Position” Scn as “Good”, endear Hisself’s “Tech” to the public and thereby canonize Hisself’s name backfires and ignites a fire.

The fire, fueled by the Brilliant Organization, Genius Policy and Children of the Corn Hisself created, rapidly erupts into a raging pyre.

The pyre, fanned by the bellows of the two penultimate fruits of Hisself’s scheme and Demon Spawn, Hisself’s “Master Plan” and CMO, are but a “warm up’.

Anons, Exes, Journalists and John Q. Publics are daily, individually and together, setting more fires all over the world, The Master is just around the corner and, somewhere down the way, Larry Wright’s book is gonna hit the stands and I’ll bet dollars against doughnuts it’s gonna be on helluva barnburner.

Watching all this stuff building up over the last 10 months or so my thoughts keep drifting back to a seemingly non sequitur yet, for me, most expository private little personal “Take” about El Ron and Celebrities, Professionals and bona fide Experts.

Back in the Apollo era there were a number of Scn Celebrities, Professionals and Experts in various fields that would have loved to had a little “face time” with El Ron…this was known within the Inner Circle and by Hisself...they woulda flown there anytime on a moments notice to have even a brief, personal, meeting with Hisself.

Of course the proffered reasons were that Hisself was just too busy developing new Red and Green “Tech”, running the “Show”, researching the “Upper Levels”, Yadda, Yadda, Yaddaa. Over time, I came to know that those reasons were—like so many other things put out to the Public about El Ron—utter BS. As time passed, I came up with my own conclusions as to why El Ron would not give even a little time, that woulda meant so much and been of immense value to Scn, to a host of talented, brilliant and fine Folks I’m not gonna take the time to list out here.

My conclusions were:

That El Ron knew he was no longer “ready for Prime Time” and that he didn’t want anyone in proximity to Hisself that wasn’t a trusted lackey that Hisself had complete confidence was sufficiently under the “Spell” to “see” and “interact” with Hisself “appropriately” and “acceptably”.

That El Ron actually did not like being around people all that much unless they were willing, “entertaining” and proper “props”, supporting cast or extras on Hisself’s Stage and in the ongoing Epic Heroic Adventure Romance Drama movie going on in Hisselfs head.

That El Ron abhorred being around anyone that had any “Altitude”. Hisself had to always be the smartest guy in the room, the alpha dog in the pack, the swinging D*** at the table.

That El Ron feared that if Hisself spent any time with someone that had Altitude, Status and really knew WTF they were talking about re: one the myriad of subjects Hisself claimed to have Mastered, they would know Hisself was a fraud.

Some months back I read the correspondence between Robert A. Heinlein and El Ron. Besides the fact that in El Ron’s own pen it establishes the marital status of Hisself and Sara and the paternity of Alexis, it also, pre DMSMH, foreshadows some of my conclusions above.

El Ron was in peak form in those years and the letters exchanged were quite cordial, witty at times and fascinating to read. Knowing El Ron as I did, I could sense in the early exchanges that he was “Setting the Stage” for the sincere and honestly straightforward Heinlein.

Sure enough, El Ron eventually asks Heinlein to loan him so dough, which Heinlein does and El Ron later pays back. But, that’s not the crux of the “Set Up”.

El Ron’s intent was to get Heinlein on Hisself’s “side” about Hisself’s new “Science”, Dianetics. El Ron goes on and on about the “Research”, “Case History’s” “Equations”, “Mathematical Proofs”, “Engineering Calculations”, etc.

Heinlein, a bona fide scientist/engineer and respectful professional friend of El Ron as a fellow WWII Vet (Heinlein did not know that El Ron had lied to him about his service record and combat wounds) and pulp writer is interested and asks El Ron, repeatedly, to send him the “Research, Equations, Calculations, Mathematical Proofs”, etc. all to no avail and the correspondences eventually peter when El Ron no longer feels Hisself can "use" Heinlein (Heinlein keeps wanting something more than Hisself's prose and claims re: Dianetics)…other than as a name to drop in Hisself’s lectures a few years later.

So, what’s all that got to do with all this now…With DM, Tom Cruise, Kati Holmes, Nazanin Boniadi?

Whether or not Miscavaige, Cruise realizes it or not, the Perfect Firestorm is already set in motion…they are part of it and cannot stop it. It is Natural Law, Mother Nature, Chaos Theory…as fractal as fractal gets. L. Ron Hubbard’s Legacy is being written, documented, reported forever for all the World to ever see and know and they are part of it...They have Major Starring roles.

And the Truth is, it was all a Lie.

Peace.

Face

PS: I'm gonna put a Link to this post on my Shooting Stars Thread as the main body of this came from stuff I was preparing for one of my future Installments there.

. . . When I walked away from the SO around 30 years ago I figured that Scn had pretty much reached its Zenith. I knew El Ron’s mental state was growing increasingly more addled, that the Children of the Corn were now permanently in control and that the majority of the best and brightest that had built Hisself’s Empire were, or soon would be, pretty much goners.

When I heard that DM had wrested the Magic Boots in the Sky I figured “end of story”. I was floored when the IRS capitulated…my Gawd whadda travesty. I was surprised when the Dianetics Campaign came out and thought, “Wow, I can’t believe DM actually has someone like Hawkins left and turned them loose” (I didn’t know at the time that it was actually Jeff, himself). Some years after the Dn campaign disappeared, I helped some Folks that got real, r-e-a-l F’d up on KNOTs and L's and, on the periphery, hearing about from them and others some of the stuff going on figured that the Fat Lady would be soon be singing.

It wasn’t until a few years ago, when I started reading on the Net and came here to ESMB, that I caught the full drift of what had been going on since I left the SO over 25 years ago and Scn around 6 or 7 years after that. During my 6 or 7 years post SO I had been very much “fringe” so I pretty much had a nearly a 3 decade gap on the whole picture.

Frankly I was stunned, revolted, shocked and yet not surprised. I was not surprised at the graveness of DM, Senior “Management” or the Cof$ as a corporate entity. I was stunned that so many that I had known put up with and suffered so much for so long or were still there in the SO; I was revolted that in a day and age of such wondrous access to good, solid, accurate information, as compared to my era, so many Members would intentionally, guiltlessly and gutlessly choose to remain blind; I was shocked that the Legal/Justice system of my country was so fumbling, feeble and foolish.

Yes, like it or not El Ron has “smashed his name into history”. Hisself’s name will also go down in infamy as a fantastically brilliant, talented, at times charming and genius amoral liar, con artist and basically evil madman.

Although I was not around El Ron in the latter days, I was around Hisself in the days that Hisself was, IMO, beginning to more and more “check out” for periods of time. Kima’s Narrative re: her Mad Hatter ride from KAC is indicative of what I am talking about and, Cowboy’s straight shooting recent vignettes here on ESMB, continue that vein. It is my firm view that from the early-mid ‘70’s on, at least, El Ron incessantly and increasingly lived in a fear that grew to a terror of being “caught”—not just for Hisself’s lies, frauds and crimes but for being “insane”. In short, I think El Ron deep, deep down inside knew Hisself was mad.

I honestly think that the forgoing paragraph was the underpinning to Hisself’s self-isolation, always on the run modus, fear of being alone in public, constant anxiety at being with anyone that is not safe yet having to always have someone with him to take care of him, be with him, protect him.

As far as DM goes, what he does next, how all this shakes out and where he ultimately winds up I haven’t a clue. Scns got a lot of dough and assets, DM controls every last penny, brick and nail of it. He may or may not live with the same fears and terrors as El Ron. He may or may not know deep, deep down inside that he is mad.

What I do know is this; El Ron lied from the get go and the dye is cast, the spell is broken, it’s all over…Self Organized Criticality of Dynamical Systems is at play and N-O-T-H-I-N-G at this point that will fix it.

Peace.

Face

PS: I am going to Link this Post on my Shooting Stars Thread as nearly the entire text is stuff that I had prepared for the Final Installment.

 

[afaceinthecrowd]

Shooting Stars, Part Nineteen, continued


“The trust of the innocent is the liar's most useful tool.” Stephan King

So, what did all of us fools do?

Well, IMO, we all kinda did our own “thing”, had our own “gig” and “routine”. Here’s something that Hoaxy put up Post on another Thread that is apropos to where I was going next with all this.

Scientologists are kind of like out-of-work actors who get wins from acting class where they practice performing lines from a screenplay, preparing for the day when they are actually in a real movie.

We all got our “Stage Time”, “Casting Calls” and "Improv" opportunities to BE somebody with altitude, attitude and “OT” beneficent altruism to someone(s), sometime, somewhere.

Some of us had World Class style, grace and talent like Yvonne; some of us were sweating, panting, bellowing Elmer Gantry blowhards like Captain Bill…err…I mean Astar; some of us were Grand Dams who were sources of fundamental elements of the Holy Liturgy itself like Julia Lewis Salmon; some of us were Gumps like Ole Face here.

Now, I never told any El Ron “levitating”, “bending spoons with Hisself’s mind” or “knocking of hats at 50 paces” stories or any BS like that, no Sir. But what I did do is NOT tell all the cravenly vile, evil, heartless, schizoid, cruel, dichotomous to the essence proffered as “Theta”, “Clear” and “OT”, “Off Policy”, inane, stupid, self-indulgent, selfish, greedy and 180 degrees counter to the expressed Core Values and Guiding Principles of the “Church” and “Religious Philosophy” actions and words that I personally witnessed El Ron do or say or knew, for a either a fact or had an high, high level of certainty Hisself had done or said.

I did not tell the truth—I lied.

I have put up Posts on ESMB about Yvonne, Capt. Bill and Julia in the past and I’ll put some Links here for some of those Posts in the next day or so…they are germane to where I’m goin’ next.

I appreciate Y’all’s patience…for some reason, this ain’t easy doin' this.

To be continued...

Peace.

Face

 

[Lurker5]

You tell the truth here, Face . . . Priceless information.

 

[afaceinthecrowd]

Many you may have already read the Posts I’ve put up Links for below. However, for those that haven’t or are not familiar with these three luminaries from the “Old Days”, you may find these snippets of interest and “framing” to the rest of Part Nineteen.

These are short to moderate length posts for the most part.

Some Posts re: Yvonne…

http://www.forum.exscn.net/showthre...he-Apollo-1973&p=572165&viewfull=1#post572165

http://www.forum.exscn.net/showthre...vonne-Jentzsch&p=600254&viewfull=1#post600254

http://www.forum.exscn.net/showthre...vonne-Jentzsch&p=600333&viewfull=1#post600333

http://www.forum.exscn.net/showthre...vonne-Jentzsch&p=600478&viewfull=1#post600478

http://www.forum.exscn.net/showthre...ty-Center-Days&p=608539&viewfull=1#post608539

http://www.forum.exscn.net/showthread.php?28413-My-confession&p=724101&viewfull=1#post724101


Some Posts re: Cap. Bill…

http://www.forum.exscn.net/showthre...he-Apollo-1973&p=400937&viewfull=1#post400937

http://www.forum.exscn.net/showthre...evised-the-RPF&p=516265&viewfull=1#post516265

http://www.forum.exscn.net/showthre...-Danish-Press.&p=556616&viewfull=1#post556616

http://www.forum.exscn.net/showthre...r-Phoenix-etc.&p=578858&viewfull=1#post578858

http://www.forum.exscn.net/showthread.php?5755-Captain-Bill-s-music.&p=625112&viewfull=1#post625112

http://www.forum.exscn.net/showthre...r-time-to-talk&p=648884&viewfull=1#post648884


Some Posts re: Julia…

http://www.forum.exscn.net/showthre...of-PTS-SP-tech&p=537551&viewfull=1#post537551

http://www.forum.exscn.net/showthre...f-Scio-History&p=589979&viewfull=1#post589979

http://www.forum.exscn.net/showthre...insight-please&p=627396&viewfull=1#post627396

http://www.forum.exscn.net/showthre...insight-please&p=627418&viewfull=1#post627418

Peace.


Face

 

[afaceinthecrowd]

Shooting Stars, Part Nineteen, conclusion

“The trust of the innocent is the liar's most useful tool.” Stephan King

Anyone with half a brain that spent anything more than cursory, hit and miss or orchestrated time with Hisself had to know—deep down in their heart of hearts—that Hisself was not the “Ot de Ot’s”.

I am not so arrogant as to pretend I know the mindset of Yvonne, Capt. Bill or Julia regarding El Ron. I heard them talk in public at events and talked with them privately about Hisself. Each one expressed publicly and privately to me their adoration of El Ron and told stories to illustrate Hisself’s charm, dedication and brilliance...”OTness”.

Hisself could, at times, be charming; Hisself appeared to be dedicated; Hisself was transiently brilliant. I have known well and worked with Folks that were far more, sincerely and consistently, charming than El Ron; I have known well and worked with Folks that were far more, truly and demonstrably, dedicated than El Ron; I have known well and worked with Folks that were far more, invariably and humbly, brilliant.

How much of Hisself’s “Charm” we “saw” was our groveling relief from the juxtaposition of Hisself’s cruelty and vicious yelling at Us and others? How much of Hisself’s “Dedication” we saw was Us looking through Rose Colored Glasses at a Narcissist with full bloom Mania? How much of Hisself’s “Brilliance” we saw was Us, bowing in fealty to whatever drivel came from the mouth of the “Being” that we ascribed as the “Source” of the “Tech” that had rendered to Us a moment insight and clarity that had lead us to Hisself’s Inner Circle?

But all of Us Fools told the “Ron Stories”. We beamed “Golden Theta Flitter” from our eyes when we did so. When I was a somewhat Newbie back in the mid-60’s, I lapped it up. This after having had the biggest “Win” I ever had in Auditing and Scn…initially a 2 hour+ line charge, that sporadically would start up again for 5 or 6 weeks afterwards and floating TA for 5-6 months.

Years later, I spooned out what I had lapped up. I’d give back that whole six months, everything I experienced, every moment of it, if it meant that all the heartache, suffering and cruelty I later witnessed others suffer, I know that others assuredly suffered that I did not witness, that I have cried my Heart out reading of on this Board and that I know is still going on at this very moment would not have come to pass.

The “I’m just a man” demureness was Hisself’s way of deftly, expertly F’n with our heads as El Ron knew damn F’n well that we all, for the most part, saw him as “Godlike”—“OT”, “not of this Planet”, the wrester of “Excalibur”…The Singular Being, Shod in the Majik “Boots in the Sky”. Hisself sure enough reveled in all that and the trappings and played “It” and “Us” for all it was worth against “Them”.

What made “It” stick was the glue of what all of “Us” had, in our personal way and moments, experienced of “White” Scn. What, for a while, filled the cracks in that continually splintered that glue bond was the hope that somewhere ahead Hisself had—or soon would—figure the rest of it out and our “moment—everyone’s “moment”—would be upon “Us”.

Sometimes the fishers in the glue-set required more than another gooey application of White Scn to make fast the bond yet again and, as time went on more and more…depending upon your “position”, perceived “value” and “history”… the catalyst to reset the bond was an increasingly calculatedly dehumanizing protocol to “correct” and “purify” your behavior, thoughts and mind…Black Scn or, more appropriately in my view, actual real Scn.

From what we now know, White Scn is a plagiarized, “borrowed”, usurped, commandeered, bastardized and outright stolen quasi compilation of the works of countless others, many of whom we will never know the name of, and of which we will never know the true, factual and complete story of.

White Scn pretty much reached its Zenith of “development” in the mid ‘60’s and ended with the issuance of KSW—although there was a brief renaissance around decade later due to David Mayo’s works but that was short lived and he was savaged for it.

After KSW, El Ron “Free Wheeled” Solo being “It” and the “Legacy” of the “Tech” Hisself churned out during those two decades—mostly by Hisself—is what ultimately is gonna take “It” down.

El Ron continued to plagiarize, “borrow”, usurp, commandeer, bastardize and outright steal and quasi compile of the works of countless others for Hisself’s “Admin Tech” after KSW but, after all, like Marty (who never met the man) says, “He was just a human being like the rest of us and had his flaws.”

White Scn, IMO, had some value because with the right practitioner with the right stuff at the right moment with the right person under the right circumstance sometimes may be the just right thing to foster just the right thing happening.

I think I’ve just about played out all my rope…I’ll put up Shooting Stars, Part Twenty in a few Installments over the next month, working around and adding to the stuff I already prematurely couldn’t resist posting earlier, and then I’m gonna just be plum outta stuff to say.

Peace.

Face

 

[Gottabrain]

^^^ Thanks, Face. That rings painfully true for me.

Andre Tabayoyan used to entertain us with those "fluff" stories as well. But he had quite a few - many more - that were rarely told that showed L Ron to be the sociopathic, controlling egomaniac he was. What kept Andre from telling these was his sworn loyalty to L Ron. I'm sure he, who knew L Ron so well and was at his side for so many years as bodyguard, valet, confidential missionaire - would agree with you wholeheartedly.

 

[Veda]

Re: Shooting Stars, Part Nineteen, conclusion

“The trust of the innocent is the liar's most useful tool.” Stephan King

Anyone with half a brain that spent anything more than cursory, hit and miss or orchestrated time with Hisself had to know—deep down in their heart of hearts—that Hisself was not the “Ot de Ot’s”.

I am not so arrogant as to pretend I know the mindset of Yvonne, Capt. Bill or Julia regarding El Ron. I heard them talk in public at events and talked with them privately about Hisself. Each one expressed publicly and privately to me their adoration of El Ron and told stories to illustrate Hisself’s charm, dedication and brilliance...”OTness”.

Hisself could, at times, be charming; Hisself appeared to be dedicated; Hisself was transiently brilliant. I have known well and worked with Folks that were far more, sincerely and consistently, charming than El Ron; I have known well and worked with Folks that were far more, truly and demonstrably, dedicated than El Ron; I have known well and worked with Folks that were far more, invariably and humbly, brilliant.

How much of Hisself’s “Charm” we “saw” was our groveling relief from the juxtaposition of Hisself’s cruelty and vicious yelling at Us and others? How much of Hisself’s “Dedication” we saw was Us looking through Rose Colored Glasses at a Narcissist with full bloom Mania? How much of Hisself’s “Brilliance” we saw was Us, bowing in fealty to whatever drivel came from the mouth of the “Being” that we ascribed as the “Source” of the “Tech” that had rendered to Us a moment insight and clarity that had lead us to Hisself’s Inner Circle?

But all of Us Fools told the “Ron Stories”. We beamed “Golden Theta Flitter” from our eyes when we did so. When I was a somewhat Newbie back in the mid-60’s, I lapped it up. This after having had the biggest “Win” I ever had in Auditing and Scn…initially a 2 hour+ line charge, that sporadically would start up again for 5 or 6 weeks afterwards and floating TA for 5-6 months.

Years later, I spooned out what I had lapped up. I’d give back that whole six months, everything I experienced, every moment of it, if it meant that all the heartache, suffering and cruelty I later witnessed others suffer, I know that others assuredly suffered that I did not witness, that I have cried my Heart out reading of on this Board and that I know is still going on at this very moment would not have come to pass.

The “I’m just a man” demureness was Hisself’s way of deftly, expertly F’n with our heads as El Ron knew damn F’n well that we all, for the most part, saw him as “Godlike”—“OT”, “not of this Planet”, the wrester of “Excalibur”…The Singular Being, Shod in the Majik “Boots in the Sky”. Hisself sure enough reveled in all that and the trappings and played “It” and “Us” for all it was worth against “Them”.

What made “It” stick was the glue of what all of “Us” had, in our personal way and moments, experienced of “White” Scn. What, for a while, filled the cracks in that continually splintered that glue bond was the hope that somewhere ahead Hisself had—or soon would—figure the rest of it out and our “moment—everyone’s “moment”—would be upon “Us”.

Sometimes the fishers in the glue-set required more than another gooey application of White Scn to make fast the bond yet again and, as time went on more and more…depending upon your “position”, perceived “value” and “history”… the catalyst to reset the bond was an increasingly calculatedly dehumanizing protocol to “correct” and “purify” your behavior, thoughts and mind…Black Scn or, more appropriately in my view, actual real Scn.

From what we now know, White Scn is a plagiarized, “borrowed”, usurped, commandeered, bastardized and outright stolen quasi compilation of the works of countless others, many of whom we will never know the name of, and of which we will never know the true, factual and complete story of.

White Scn pretty much reached its Zenith of “development” in the mid ‘60’s and ended with the issuance of KSW—although there was a brief renaissance around decade later due to David Mayo’s works but that was short lived and he was savaged for it.

After KSW, El Ron “Free Wheeled” Solo being “It” and the “Legacy” of the “Tech” Hisself churned out during those two decades—mostly by Hisself—is what ultimately is gonna take “It” down.

El Ron continued to plagiarize, “borrow”, usurp, commandeer, bastardize and outright steal and quasi compile of the works of countless others for Hisself’s “Admin Tech” after KSW but, after all, like Marty (who never met the man) says, “He was just a human being like the rest of us and had his flaws.”

White Scn, IMO, had some value because with the right practitioner with the right stuff at the right moment with the right person under the right circumstance sometimes may be the just right thing to foster just the right thing happening.

I think I’ve just about played out all my rope…I’ll put up Shooting Stars, Part Twenty in a few Installments over the next month, working around and adding to the stuff I already prematurely couldn’t resist posting earlier, and then I’m gonna just be plum outta stuff to say.

Peace.

Face

Let's hope that, after Miscavige goes, his replacement doesn't appear with a reconstituted glue, with the perfect mixture of solvent and adhesive.

 

[Lurker5]

Re: Shooting Stars, Part Nineteen, conclusion

“The trust of the innocent is the liar's most useful tool.” Stephan King

Anyone with half a brain that spent anything more than cursory, hit and miss or orchestrated time with Hisself had to know—deep down in their heart of hearts—that Hisself was not the “Ot de Ot’s”.

I am not so arrogant as to pretend I know the mindset of Yvonne, Capt. Bill or Julia regarding El Ron. I heard them talk in public at events and talked with them privately about Hisself. Each one expressed publicly and privately to me their adoration of El Ron and told stories to illustrate Hisself’s charm, dedication and brilliance...”OTness”.

Hisself could, at times, be charming; Hisself appeared to be dedicated; Hisself was transiently brilliant. I have known well and worked with Folks that were far more, sincerely and consistently, charming than El Ron; I have known well and worked with Folks that were far more, truly and demonstrably, dedicated than El Ron; I have known well and worked with Folks that were far more, invariably and humbly, brilliant.

How much of Hisself’s “Charm” we “saw” was our groveling relief from the juxtaposition of Hisself’s cruelty and vicious yelling at Us and others? How much of Hisself’s “Dedication” we saw was Us looking through Rose Colored Glasses at a Narcissist with full bloom Mania? How much of Hisself’s “Brilliance” we saw was Us, bowing in fealty to whatever drivel came from the mouth of the “Being” that we ascribed as the “Source” of the “Tech” that had rendered to Us a moment insight and clarity that had lead us to Hisself’s Inner Circle?

But all of Us Fools told the “Ron Stories”. We beamed “Golden Theta Flitter” from our eyes when we did so. When I was a somewhat Newbie back in the mid-60’s, I lapped it up. This after having had the biggest “Win” I ever had in Auditing and Scn…initially a 2 hour+ line charge, that sporadically would start up again for 5 or 6 weeks afterwards and floating TA for 5-6 months.

Years later, I spooned out what I had lapped up. I’d give back that whole six months, everything I experienced, every moment of it, if it meant that all the heartache, suffering and cruelty I later witnessed others suffer, I know that others assuredly suffered that I did not witness, that I have cried my Heart out reading of on this Board and that I know is still going on at this very moment would not have come to pass.

The “I’m just a man” demureness was Hisself’s way of deftly, expertly F’n with our heads as El Ron knew damn F’n well that we all, for the most part, saw him as “Godlike”—“OT”, “not of this Planet”, the wrester of “Excalibur”…The Singular Being, Shod in the Majik “Boots in the Sky”. Hisself sure enough reveled in all that and the trappings and played “It” and “Us” for all it was worth against “Them”.

What made “It” stick was the glue of what all of “Us” had, in our personal way and moments, experienced of “White” Scn. What, for a while, filled the cracks in that continually splintered that glue bond was the hope that somewhere ahead Hisself had—or soon would—figure the rest of it out and our “moment—everyone’s “moment”—would be upon “Us”.

Sometimes the fishers in the glue-set required more than another gooey application of White Scn to make fast the bond yet again and, as time went on more and more…depending upon your “position”, perceived “value” and “history”… the catalyst to reset the bond was an increasingly calculatedly dehumanizing protocol to “correct” and “purify” your behavior, thoughts and mind…Black Scn or, more appropriately in my view, actual real Scn.

From what we now know, White Scn is a plagiarized, “borrowed”, usurped, commandeered, bastardized and outright stolen quasi compilation of the works of countless others, many of whom we will never know the name of, and of which we will never know the true, factual and complete story of.

White Scn pretty much reached its Zenith of “development” in the mid ‘60’s and ended with the issuance of KSW—although there was a brief renaissance around decade later due to David Mayo’s works but that was short lived and he was savaged for it.

After KSW, El Ron “Free Wheeled” Solo being “It” and the “Legacy” of the “Tech” Hisself churned out during those two decades—mostly by Hisself—is what ultimately is gonna take “It” down.

El Ron continued to plagiarize, “borrow”, usurp, commandeer, bastardize and outright steal and quasi compile of the works of countless others for Hisself’s “Admin Tech” after KSW but, after all, like Marty (who never met the man) says, “He was just a human being like the rest of us and had his flaws.”

White Scn, IMO, had some value because with the right practitioner with the right stuff at the right moment with the right person under the right circumstance sometimes may be the just right thing to foster just the right thing happening.

I think I’ve just about played out all my rope…I’ll put up Shooting Stars, Part Twenty in a few Installments over the next month, working around and adding to the stuff I already prematurely couldn’t resist posting earlier, and then I’m gonna just be plum outta stuff to say.

Peace.

Face

This one has me in tears, Face.

If only . . . none of it had ever happened.

 

[Auditor's Toad]

Re: Shooting Stars, Part Nineteen, conclusion

“The trust of the innocent is the liar's most useful tool.” Stephan King

Anyone with half a brain that spent anything more than cursory, hit and miss or orchestrated time with Hisself had to know—deep down in their heart of hearts—that Hisself was not the “Ot de Ot’s”.

I am not so arrogant as to pretend I know the mindset of Yvonne, Capt. Bill or Julia regarding El Ron. I heard them talk in public at events and talked with them privately about Hisself. Each one expressed publicly and privately to me their adoration of El Ron and told stories to illustrate Hisself’s charm, dedication and brilliance...”OTness”.

Hisself could, at times, be charming; Hisself appeared to be dedicated; Hisself was transiently brilliant. I have known well and worked with Folks that were far more, sincerely and consistently, charming than El Ron; I have known well and worked with Folks that were far more, truly and demonstrably, dedicated than El Ron; I have known well and worked with Folks that were far more, invariably and humbly, brilliant.

How much of Hisself’s “Charm” we “saw” was our groveling relief from the juxtaposition of Hisself’s cruelty and vicious yelling at Us and others? How much of Hisself’s “Dedication” we saw was Us looking through Rose Colored Glasses at a Narcissist with full bloom Mania? How much of Hisself’s “Brilliance” we saw was Us, bowing in fealty to whatever drivel came from the mouth of the “Being” that we ascribed as the “Source” of the “Tech” that had rendered to Us a moment insight and clarity that had lead us to Hisself’s Inner Circle?

But all of Us Fools told the “Ron Stories”. We beamed “Golden Theta Flitter” from our eyes when we did so. When I was a somewhat Newbie back in the mid-60’s, I lapped it up. This after having had the biggest “Win” I ever had in Auditing and Scn…initially a 2 hour+ line charge, that sporadically would start up again for 5 or 6 weeks afterwards and floating TA for 5-6 months.

Years later, I spooned out what I had lapped up. I’d give back that whole six months, everything I experienced, every moment of it, if it meant that all the heartache, suffering and cruelty I later witnessed others suffer, I know that others assuredly suffered that I did not witness, that I have cried my Heart out reading of on this Board and that I know is still going on at this very moment would not have come to pass.

The “I’m just a man” demureness was Hisself’s way of deftly, expertly F’n with our heads as El Ron knew damn F’n well that we all, for the most part, saw him as “Godlike”—“OT”, “not of this Planet”, the wrester of “Excalibur”…The Singular Being, Shod in the Majik “Boots in the Sky”. Hisself sure enough reveled in all that and the trappings and played “It” and “Us” for all it was worth against “Them”.

What made “It” stick was the glue of what all of “Us” had, in our personal way and moments, experienced of “White” Scn. What, for a while, filled the cracks in that continually splintered that glue bond was the hope that somewhere ahead Hisself had—or soon would—figure the rest of it out and our “moment—everyone’s “moment”—would be upon “Us”.

Sometimes the fishers in the glue-set required more than another gooey application of White Scn to make fast the bond yet again and, as time went on more and more…depending upon your “position”, perceived “value” and “history”… the catalyst to reset the bond was an increasingly calculatedly dehumanizing protocol to “correct” and “purify” your behavior, thoughts and mind…Black Scn or, more appropriately in my view, actual real Scn.

From what we now know, White Scn is a plagiarized, “borrowed”, usurped, commandeered, bastardized and outright stolen quasi compilation of the works of countless others, many of whom we will never know the name of, and of which we will never know the true, factual and complete story of.

White Scn pretty much reached its Zenith of “development” in the mid ‘60’s and ended with the issuance of KSW—although there was a brief renaissance around decade later due to David Mayo’s works but that was short lived and he was savaged for it.

After KSW, El Ron “Free Wheeled” Solo being “It” and the “Legacy” of the “Tech” Hisself churned out during those two decades—mostly by Hisself—is what ultimately is gonna take “It” down.

El Ron continued to plagiarize, “borrow”, usurp, commandeer, bastardize and outright steal and quasi compile of the works of countless others for Hisself’s “Admin Tech” after KSW but, after all, like Marty (who never met the man) says, “He was just a human being like the rest of us and had his flaws.”

White Scn, IMO, had some value because with the right practitioner with the right stuff at the right moment with the right person under the right circumstance sometimes may be the just right thing to foster just the right thing happening.

I think I’ve just about played out all my rope…I’ll put up Shooting Stars, Part Twenty in a few Installments over the next month, working around and adding to the stuff I already prematurely couldn’t resist posting earlier, and then I’m gonna just be plum outta stuff to say.

Peace.

Face

Thank you, my friend. Lots of tears, walls of tears that have been a long time coming.
I needed that. I thank you.

 

[RogerB]

That, Sir Face, sums it up: the experience of that "adventure," it sums it up precisely.

It is wonderful to be able to get such an honest conveying of it as above.

RogerB

 

[Mark A. Baker]

Re: Shooting Stars, Part Nineteen, conclusion

...
I think I’ve just about played out all my rope…I’ll put up Shooting Stars, Part Twenty in a few Installments over the next month, working around and adding to the stuff I already prematurely couldn’t resist posting earlier, and then I’m gonna just be plum outta stuff to say.

Peace.

Face

Thanks yet again, Face. I'm in agreement with Rog concerning the value of your summations. And never fear, if you feel a need to take a break from your labors for awhile, by all means do so. You may be close to 'tapped out' for the present, yet there is no telling when something else may come to mind which may warrant sharing.


Mark A. Baker

 

[sallydannce]

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