Person to Person & Person's Persona
Okay, Lakey if you and Carmelo say it's “Yours” then it's all “Yours” as far as I'm concerned…do as thou wilt.
But, I’m gonna have my say and then I’ll be done with it—I think I might well have earned the right on Your thread to do that. Hope you had that breath of fresh air and vino before your read this ‘cause you told me straight…now I’m gonna tell you straight.
I can’t speak for other folks but, I have Dialogued with you quite a considerable bit, in my estimation. I post on what interests me, what and where I feel that I can make a contribution to this Moveable Feast and, sometimes, just for the fun of it. The periods where I don’t comment on your posts are when they either don’t “ring my chime” or I just feel it’s best to keep my mouth shut, quietly amused while you strut your Lakey alter-ego. Folks don’t comment on my posts all the time and that don’t bother me none at all. Although there was a time in my life that I had a somewhat considerable regional “Name”, “Reputation” and “Image” in some strata’s, I have no desire to be a Persona. The times in my life that I’ve tried to be “somebody”, or appear as “something”, or put up a “front” rendered me nearsighted, miserable and short of sleep. Some folks are real good at the Persona thing and those folks I have no problem with, ‘cause I appreciate and like to watch a good Bulldogger or Rodeo Clown as much as the next person.
As is well established at this point, I’m not all that sophisticated, “Tech” savvy, computer literate or “Hep”. Because of that, I guess I don’t “get” the full panoply of your “Shtick” and am unable to appreciate its’ full value.
You see, having read your entire thread and been a passive, then active, participant for 18 months or so, I kinda had a different view of what was going on here. I appreciate you finally clueing me in. I thought that what happened was a very smart and forthright guy, with a terrific memory and unique "Take" had opened his heart about his life in Scn and a whole bunch of folks read it, appreciated it and Dialogued with him about. Then, one thing led to another, and a “Big Conversation” got started ‘cause of the quality of folks that guy had attracted. Then a couple of real fun folks that were pretty smart themselves wanted to help the smart guy water and tend to the “Garden” that was “Organically” growing.
The quality, flavor and bounty of the stuff that was being produced in the Garden grew and some real expert Horticulturists showed up and, along with folks like me that can handle a hoe, pull a few weeds here and there and help pick the crop, the Garden has been growing through a series of phases of plant, grow, harvest, prepare to plant again and then another crop cycle plays itself out. Fool that I am, I thought the reason your thread was read so much was because it was a unique marvel of “Continual Spontaneous Self Ordered Criticality” of human thought, expression, sharing, laughter, etc…in short, Life doing its’ thing; Living.
From where I’m sittin’ it appears to me that, by far, the bulk of the hits that have driven your thread over the last 8 or 9 months I’ve been here are the Guest Lurkers. It’s my opinion that a big chunk of them are not reading along day-to-day on the current happenings here and, even if they are, they're picking their way around and through the immense resource that folks have placed on your thread. I post on your thread because of who is here, how they are, the constant collaborative fountain of Universe Class Stuff they put up, what that augers within me and, honestly, how wonderfully well I have been treated here. I post for my friends, I post for whomever else may have an interest and cares to read my stuff and—this is huge for me—I post for the Guest Lurkers…they’re the folks, more than anyone else…that need me to share with them what I saw and how I now see “It” when I was a face in the crowd. I’ve realized that I, in turn, need to share with them. After all, just like Scn and the SO, I was one them once.
I’m sorry you were attacked. I’ve been attacked on ESMB, too. One time, in particular, was pretty damn clever and vicious, and was done on the Karen thread. I had tried to call for “Peace”, admitting that I had inadvertently gotten roped into helping to instigate a couple of folks to shred her thread. I made what I thought was a very plain and folksy post, apologized for what I had done and said I would not post on the thread again until Karen did…some folks, icluding Zinj and Alanzo, liked and agreed with my post and took the same “not until Karen returns” oath. I got viciously and snidely berated for that post and told, literally, to “Fuck Off” by another Member. I stuck to my guns and have never answered that post and never comment on anything I might come across that Member puts up.
People can tell me to “Fuck Off” all they wish on the internet…it goes with the new territory of putting up a false front or adopting a “Cyber Personality” so that you can continue to be a Child or “Play Act” or publicly vent your spleen all over yourself. That’s not my world and never will be. I’m not on Facebook or any of that stuff of that ilk and have no interest in doing so. The only place I ever have posted on the internet is on ESMB. In the real world that I live in the folks I associate with would never tell me to “Fuck Off” and folks around these parts would not say it to me, face to Face, unless they were drunk, real foolish or crazy—that’s not brag, that’s just fact.
I’m not smart enough to “play cards” (got a short-carded deck, anyway) or calculate a strategy on how, when or what way to “stir a pot”. But, like you said, it’s your thread and you’re the only one holdin’ the “Race Card”. So, you go on doin’ what you feel gotta do and I’ll go on doin’ what I feel I gotta do. I wouldn’t have brought all this up, nor taken the time to put down my heartfelt thoughts if I didn’t respect you, admire you for what you started and care about you, personally—as opposed to the “Lakey Persona”.
If you wish, with my compliments, I yield the “Last Word” to you, my friend.
Peace Bro,
Face
PS: At the risk of being publicly rude, if you ever get around to reading the Email I sent you a week or so ago, it might help you "get my drift".
These guys had had no cognition on who they really were or what goals of their own they might have. I was on lower levels and was not privvy to any confidential info. 
