Riiiiiiight Mark.
I am not in the mood for it anymore as it is my bedtime. But it was a thoughtful post to write. I am angry as I page reloaded.... and nadda to everything else I tried.
I just wanted to share that I had experienced the sledgehammer phenomena of 'soul cracking,'' and I had deduced some things about it. The bottom line was that any time I have gone into this universe I have gone in with others added. It is sad to say that there was a shift of power during these times. I found also that I had 'machinery' attached to me that kicked in when I barreled out. This machinery in the mind was composed of other beings.....that once were just as conscious as myself. I have also heard it said that some of the spacecraft we see are actually composed of living entities.
I would have liked to have been able to handle Int phenomena with asking for another's charge. I left the C of S while on lower levels. When I was at the AAC I told David I felt like someone or something was pounding down on my etheric body with a hammer. It seemed that they wanted me to pull out of it or untie the knot securing my individuality here so I could be extracted. It was an awful experience. I left the C of S. I no longer cared about going up the Bridge or the OT levels. I realized I had been invited to open up a Pandora's box and having done so NO safe solutions were offered. I dug in and submerged.
What I guess I am saying is that the mechanisms that kicked in on me were spiritual machines. Machines made up of people who once were like thee and me. I had whole bunches of such incidents as 'Escape' was my forte'....over and over like the Great Houdini. Scn totally failed me in handling the phenomena that kicked in or the opponents I contacted as I became pervasive and exterior. I went into a fast dive and submerged never to give a shit about such notions as
operating thetan again.

I knew why I had adopted the safe solution I was wearing and decided it was apt for the job.
It is sad that we are just about guaranteed to run into people who pushed us IN to this universe when we embark upon a subject like Scientology. It is like a magnet. We are playing once again the game of getting out so why wouldn't we pull in people who cause us to Go In.

Then...because we are in human guise we automatically bounce out of or deny the charges hit when we somehow exteriorize and get rerun on us the same unsolvable problems we had just before we went IN.
Challeges to my Goodness. Drug Impants to make me ONE with violent criminals. False pasts. Impusles to unmock myself. All BULLSHIT!!!!!!
When I first experienced the sledgehammer 'soul cracking' attempt on me....I was immediately drawn to looking for what
agency of the black magicians had discovered me.

These were the automatic associations in my mind. A flood of incidents avalanched upon me and I knew where the beams were coming from. Each incident unique and each having to do with the Going In to a new paradigm after a major chaos and system upheaval.
Our identities or valences are dictated by the relationships
between the archetypes in any given system of things. When a whole system is blown to pieces there are always those carpetbaggers who want to scrounge up those disenfranchised and code
new roles. Life is quite malleable when it finds itself no longer with a useful purpose to fulfill. Under duress it accepts new assignments impinged on it.
Babylonian magicians should come up in the same post.....which I was trying to reply too on the subject of exteriorization and magick.
I think the individuals in the machinery that kicks in when one is exteriorizing from containment / punishment universes is composed of programmed life force particles. Beings... who were once as capable as any.. They are
Life that has been compressed into being the machinery in the mind.
WHY? __ had always been my question when I started to feel the light body I was occupying was being attacked in order to siphon me OUT. The answer I got was that there were ongoing attacks against any
Original Proprietors. To me, that means that some beings' creations contributed to the physical universe and this Earth we now enjoy. To some powers that be... it is a great liability to have any of the original owners STILL around. This is the planet of those who are no longer themselves and it is verbotem to know who you really ARE. It is destablizing if someone says, "You know, Crete...and such and such..... were directly contributed to by me and my team." 'We can make that whole turf rumble.....

because it is our
own life substance there you are
now living on."
I was responding to
Div6 when my original post disappeared.
It appears that he was trying to replicate "one shot clear" techniques (notice that this lecture predates the PDC's by one month). Also noted extensively in this time was the fact that once a person "exteriorized" they would always cave in and then be much harder to "get out" in subsequent auditing. That issue would not be addressed in any substantive manner until the 70's, and the "handlings" continue all the way up through the Solo Nots band. (I was surprised to learn that "Int handlings" at the S\N level contain "buttons" that are not part of the list issued in the 70's.)